For the second time ( in hopes of it making more sense )

Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle.
Say the following questions aloud, and press play.
Use the song title as the answer to the question.
NO CHEATING!!!!!

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How does the world see me?
Song: Coalmine
Artist: Armchair Cynics

Will I have a happy life?
Song: Say it if you mean it
Artist: Tsunami bombs


What do my friends really think of me?
Song: Change your mind
Artist: All american rejects

Do people secretly lust after me?
Song: Ghost
Artist: Umbrellas

How can I make myself happy?
Song: Take the veil carpet taxtd
Artist: The mars volta


What should I do with my life?
Song: Shine a light
Artist: The contstantines


Why must life be so full of pain?
Song: Season poem
Artist: Gregory and the hawk

Will I ever have (more) children?
Song: Volcano
Artist: Damien Rice


Will I die happy?
Song: Speak slow
Artist: Tegan and sara

What is some good advice for me?
Song: Miss teen wordpower
Artist: The new pornographers

What is happiness?
Song: Soft rock star
Artist: Metric

What's my favorite fetish?
Song: summer
Artist: mogwai

How will I be remembered?
Song: Dead passengers ( aw thats too bad haha )
Artist: Sondre Lerche

Who controls the universe?
song: Innocent Vigliant Ordinary
Artist: the appleseed cast



ok so that wasnt that much more sucessful....crap

There is nothing like...

...Walks on the railroad tracks with Jess talking about boys
...Doing almost ANYthing with Ryan
...Playing mario party with Carrie ( sound effects included )
...Playing in the snow with Braden and Jess
...Picnics in the park in the middle of winter at night with Teri
...Lengthly talks about music with Mark
...Riding in a car with Thomas
...Msn conversations with Brooke
...Hanging out with Cora when the power goes out
...Jess's famous hugs
...2 minute friendly arguments with Carrie
...Snow fights with Braden
...Codys friendly insults about my height
...Laurel being short enough for me to hug without going on my tiptoes
...Tobys energy
...Giving girl advice to David
...Having a second big brother like Greg
...Leahs wit
...Alisons unexpected sense of humor
...Allyssas encouragments
...Janelles random comments on everyones blogs
...Larks compassion
...Billy from Phillys Dedication and heart
...Lances family
...Hot sheets straight from the dryer
...Saskatchewan skies
...The taste of pineapple
...Warm showers after a day of being cold
...Encouragment
...Inspiration
...Anticipation
...Answered prayers
...Hearing incredible news about my brother



...Your love

*Screeeeeech!!!*

Metric playing in saskatoon!?! Since when do bands I adore come here?
Im almost too excited I think im gonna pee myself. I got my ticket today!
Sorry im pulling a 12 year old girl fit but...AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!

I think im in love...

Double post because quizzes are lame.

So I was cleaning out under my stairs today and besides finding a bunch of boxes full of "goosebumps" books ( which was pretty sweet ) I found some cute childhood pictures I thought Id share with you
because I can...
...and because its creepy

But anyways. Notice how innocent my brother looks....aw cute i dont think he could harm a living thing....but watch as time progresses...

Aw how sweet....

Not sure why hes holding potatoes but he looks happy

Ok....well that one was just weird....( sorry about the pixely ness. you get the idea....hes a fruit)

Look he even made the ugliest snowman ever!
Log appendages and potatoe eyes? How can you go wrong?....Scott proved there was a way

But this is where the terror starts... ( and apparantly the cruddy quality too )

Look at that beyond evil grin!

And here hes totaly going to take out 2 of my cousins....

something must be in the water....

So apparently I've been 'tagged' by Sharee. So i guess i have no choice but to participate

7 Things I would like to do before I die:
1. Fall in love
2. Get married
3. Have a family
4. Travel
5. Finish my life list
6. Find a Career that I love
7. Own a room with a view
(sorry sharee i kept a few of yours)

7 Things I can’t do (yet) :
1. Sew properly
2. Any sports...but soccer when i was a child
3. Move out
4. Go to australia tomorow
5. Snowboard
6. Have good hand eye corridination
7. Sit still

7 things that attract me to blogging:
1. Being able to see what's going on in the lives of friends
2. Its pretty dang addictive
3. Seeing other people's creativity
4. Sharing photos
5. Comments are rad
6. Everyone and there cat has a blog
7. I have nothing better to do

7 things I say most often:
1. Your a weiner
2. Right on
3. No kidding
4. "I win!"
5. Your mom
6. boo
7. your stupid
( im so encouraging )

7 books I love:
1. Red
2. Blue Like Jazz
3. White
4. the Bible
5. Black
6. Monster
7. A wrinkle in time

7 movies I watch over and over:
1. The little rascals
2. my simpsons season 3 dvd
3. My simpsons season 4 dvd
4. The Sandlot
5. Donnie Darko
6. Aladdin
7. Ferris Buhler's Day Off ( I have no choice. Its ok tv ALL the time)

7 people I want to join in too
1. Jess
2. Janelle
3. Nicole
4. Karina
5. Teri
6. Laurel
7. Brooke
8 ( because im a rebel ) anyone else who wants to... no need to be invited...go ahead...do it

Mon-diddily Randomness...i-ness

I never usually find Bizarro funny but this one made me laugh.

On to the randomness.
Just other day I was walking my dog and all of a sudden a thought came to me.
The thought was "Why"
and not a question mark, but exclamation. It's not why of what but why of every thing,
why of what we do and doing,
why of what we believe and don't believe,
why of every action and reaction, why of love, anger, jealousy, pain, hate, compassion, time, space, everything
It's again not a question but a state of wonder, a state one can not explain

Lately I cant even comprehend my thoughts. Everythings just a big traffic jam and I feel my brain just needs to be rebooted...
I dont even know how I feel or what the crap is going on
Someone save me!

But anyways the funny thing about word verification. Isn't the point of this so that spammers won't post to your blog?
Is it like impossible for them to type in the word verification?
"OOh, I was gonna leave a custom made woven basket ad on here but I have to type legullev on here first so never mind."

If you never did. You should. These things are fun. And fun is good. - Dr Suess

Jess watch out for that fi-
*smack*

Oh joy, feeling like your 6 again is really refreshing.
Me Braden and Jess were running around bradens backyard in knee deep snow tripping over who knows what and getting soaked to the bone.
But thats alright. It was fun.

Lately iv been trying to make my days as exciting as humanly possible.
Iv been keeping a "journal" kind of thing focusing only on the good/funny/exciting aspects of my day.
I just wish that I started this earlier because I hate just sitting inside and sulking about how bad my day was instead of going outside to get some fresh air, going nuts, and change my day.
With the journal, Iv found even in my bad days theres always some good that comes along with it. I just have to look harder to find it.
I think its more rewarding that way.

Today is your day. Your mountain is waiting.....

I am a Kalidescope

Ooooh Redberry retreats...How ill miss thee.
Well poo. That might be the last time ill ever get to go there. And that makes me really really sad
But alas good times was had by all.

Highlights ( probably some repeated so I apologize )

-"It was cold out, and the cop told the theif to freeze.......so he jumped into the pool and froze to death...what's with that?"
- some kids joke he made up

-Me hailey and gregs skit ( which we won something in by the way)
"bulbous bouffant...macadamia....gazebo!"

-"Dalmeny...you should have said Dalmeny...Dalmeny...Dalmeny...for your thing...Dalmeny...for your thing...Dalmeny..."-Phil

-YOOOOOOUUUUU SUUUUUCKKK!! - Brittany

-Jess's encounter with magic man

- Magic man ( hes so tricky )

- Killing jess in fooseball...haha

- Being pulled on a trailor thing behind a tractor through a feild with like 2 feet of snow.
The tractor got stuck a couple times and it was freezing...but yet it was really fun

- Taking pictures in the snow

- The random car alarm * random animal noises, yelling and honking* Scared the bejesus out of me. I thought someone was dieing

- Sleep talking
( LAHA!
" dont look at me! dont look at me!"
and kerris ramblings about monkeys)

-scrabble

Does anyone remeber another winter where it snowed this much?
Has saskatchewan ever been this beautiful?
Magnificiant sunsets, sparkling fluffy snow at night , frozen snow covered trees
So beautiful, so incredible. I hate how I take saskatchewan for granted
Nothing like a youth retreat at redberry to appreciate winter scenery

Lately, I've been thinking about You
And lately, I've been dreaming of You
And lately, I can't get You out of my head
Get You out of my head

Something about the ocean
Makes me rise up and praise
Something about the heavens
Makes me stand in awe again
Something about the sunrise
Reminds me of Your faithfulness
Something about the ocean
And I'm lost in love again

I'll sing until I sense a smile
Upon Your great and lovely face
And till I know Your glory's in this place
Your glory's in this place

Nobody is immune to love.

I know I said I wouldnt blog. Its still mostly true.
Im making exceptions for at school when im not supposed to be doing homework because this is my only source of entertainment. And besides its a way to get my thoughts out there.

Anyways, for a dialectical thinking paper I have to do for social ( woo )
Im researching time travel. I know it sounds like an "out there" topic. But I found some really intresting stuff. Im not going to explain the whole concept here because I wouldnt make you guys sit through that.
But something I found cool was:
Imagine that today you travel back in time to August 2001 and warn the authorities that the World Trade Centre in New York is going to be attacked on September 11th.
They take the necessary action and as time unfolds the disaster is eventually averted.
You are still in August 2001 at this point and the disaster has not yet been prevented, but it will be eventually because of the chain of events that you have put into motion, and you now wish to return to the time you came from.
Here comes the Big Question - can you return to where you came from?
Where you came from the attack had taken place, therefore where you came from no longer exists!
If you do return to your original time, the World Trade Centre will still be standing (because you prevented the attack), so it cannot be where you came from.
You will have changed the course of history, not just for yourself, but for the entire world.
The question is, will the World Trade Centre still be standing when you return to your starting time?


Sorry I find stuff like that extremely intruiging.

But anyways. My form is off to Australia tomorow and the redberry retreat is approaching fast. I have a feeling this is going to be a good week. but this is definatly my last redberry retreat.

I mean Grade 12 is great but it kind of sucks to be the year for "lasts"
My last semester, My last year in youth, my last year to be a kid/teenager ( basically the same thing it feels haha ) my last year living at home ( for at least 3 years anyways , who knows I could be one of "those" people who live with there parents until there fourty)

But im also looking forward for this next year to be my year of "firsts" So I guess the pros outweigh the cons this time. But I cant looks too far into the future yet. I need to calm myself and focus on the present.

Ew one last comment for the day. have you seen those new ipod headphones...
Im using them right now ( not mine ) But Im figuring at this rate people arent going to have the sense of hearing.
These headphones are buried into the back of your ears feeling like there almost to the point of touching your brain. Its clear and loud but ...Probably not good for you.

Ipods are a menace to society. But yet. There so cool!

The most unintellegent conversation in the world

So today I found myself talking about weather or not you could marry space. I figured since there are no laws in space this would be possible.
I figure Mark Reddekop in 10 years is going to marry space and thus run the universe. Just because hes weird like that.

But sorry for stealing your precious braincells with that bit of information

To the point
Lately Iv found myself aimlessly wandering through life when this is in fact the very year not to do that. Just walking about without a thought in my mind not knowing what ill be doing next minute let alone next year
Im delaying everything.
Delaying getting a job.
Delaying sending in my school application and not to mention delaying my physical so I can send in my australia form.
Basically delaying life
And I dont even care. I wish I did...But I just figure its nothing to stress over. And when I realize it is. It will be last minute or too late.
Iv always been one to not care about anything, not stress out and not worry about anything. The most easygoing person youll ever meet.
(Someone else: "steph I crashed your car"
Me:"....meh")
And yeah, I like the attitude for the most part until it comes to things that are actually important.
I think this is my way of saying I dont want to grow up. I dont want to start taking things in to my own hands.
Am I ready for it? I think so. I just need to act like it.

Frick guys I graduate in what? 4 months. And in less than a year ill be across the world for 6 months. Then off to regina for 2 years.

When did I grow up so fast?

Someone buy me a monkey

Me and Hailey took a little trip over to value village...
This is why value village owns all of you....Yeah....3 bucks for a DINOSAUR sweater??, how can you go wrong?
you cant. Thats how

And as many of you know. Casey and Cody are in nicaragua right now with YFC building a house for a disadvantaged family. But aside from the hard work they put in they get some time to have a bunch of fun.
And im extremly jealous, Look at this!

Why cant I play with a monkey?

Watch out for monkey germs!

A normal valentines day....or was it?

The answer is no.

So my day went from waking up and planning to build a snowman to letting jess take scissors to my hair.

Some of you may ask what was I thinking. Or if I was at all.
I wasn't really thinking but who cares. Its just hair.
But it actually turned out better than I thought
...Pretty short...
But better than I thought.

Im very trusting because hey. Its just hair. But sometimes I think I may be too trusting. One of these days im going to let a monkey at my hair and THEN ill be sorry

Yay for unexpected valentines day meanderings.

I think I made good use of this pointless holiday.
2 points for me.

The ultimate equation...

Driving with the windows down
+
Several cups of coffee
+
Evening walks
+
Dinner with my brother
+
Amazing weather
+
Lame little kid movies in the expensive theatre
=
A satifying day

I know your always throwing kisses from the sky

Well that sucks. my week off isnt starting to fantastic.

I go to put a downpayment on my dress today, I dont see it in the front like it normally is. So I go back to ask if they still had it
"oh some girl came in and bought it about 2 hours ago today"
"oh...."
"We might have another one in the back just a second"
*starting to get real worried*
*brings out a huge one*
" I found one. but this is the only one left and it wont fit you, the size is 16. we could alter it to fit you though"



Boo altering. Because costs a fortune.
That dress that the other girl bought fit me almost perfect :(
Crap.

Something is out to get my family this week.
My brother dropped his wallet outside a friends house last night and they took everything except his drivers license including $260, his cards, a recipt he could have claimed ( for some reason ) and his health card.
Sweeeet.

I hope the week gets better...the week is young

Is this to have in or to go?!?

Hahaha...funniest night in a long long time.
The movie Just friends = halarious
Everytime I go to Tim Hortons = even more halarious

*everyone walking into Timmys**note not everyones in the door yet*
Cashier: Is this to have in or to go!?!
Me: uh.....wh...i dont know*tries not to laugh* *runs to the back of the group and laughs out loud*
Meanwhile Brennan was trying not to be rude by laughing. but seeing me laughing he also laughs out loud
Me: She didnt even let us come all the way in! We didnt even order. Whats her problem


It was like coming into one of those crappy japanese restraunts and having the person at the front yelling at you in a panic even though the place has no one in it
HOW MANY!?
woah...uh...2? why are you yelling
COME! follow me follow me! free samples?

Iv never felt so forced to order that fast in my life

Later on:

*as were leaving*
Same cashier- Have a good morning.
Me-....Uh....you too?


Hoorah long break. Long week break.
Today all I had was English ( which was the only class I had work in)
Then social and mrs shatz decided she didnt want to make us write notes so we bummed around
Second english class we did nothing
Spare
Sitting/laying down in the sun on my second spare
Sweeeet day...


Im going into the city to go put a deposit on my grad dress tomorow. Ill try to sneak a picture or two

Have a grand week everyone

Shake it up

Im tired of living in a box

Im sick of everyone being content sitting in their perfect barbie doll packages hanging onto there perfect boyfriends while they sit on their perfect little shelves that theyve turned into their whole world. Never to come down again because God forbid that would present a risk uncertainty or unsecurity
Theyre like manniquiens with their trendy outfits, poseable arms and permanant fake smiles.

Everyones living a repeatative life, doing the same routine everyday.
We only do what they are familiar with, nothing too out of the ordinary in life in our homes in the church and even in the school, Doing only what people tell us to do.

I wish someone around here was willing to take risks, Be bold and do something diffrent. Shake things up. Make a statement of some kind.

Maybe thats going to have to start with me

I think Gods givin me a passion to do something bold and unexpected , I dont even know what it is though. ( Not by myself no, But with a group of people )
I just want some people to make a statement by doing something good in peoples lives. Maybe a whole community, maybe just one person. Maybe now, Maybe later.
Ill have to wait and see
Most of all I want people to look and think, Those people are nuts, But in a good way.

I just want to shake things up a little.

I hope life isnt a big joke, because i dont get it...

Today was terrible.
But im alright with that.

Ill just slap on a smile and paitently wait for tomorrow.

It feels like something big and exciting is going to happen.
Maybe I only feel like that because my internal clock tells me tomorow is thursday when it is in fact friday.
I love it when my head is behind.





I think the saddest thing you'll ever see is a mosquito sucking on a mummy. Because, forget it little friend
- Jack Handy


If I were to kick this can... How many ants do you think will attack me?
-Me

I'll fight like hell to hide that i've givin up...

you want to bury me under a mound of shopping bags
like it'd really make a difference
or make up for your disinterest
I'm a bill you pay
I'm a contract you can't break
and it's like I'm under water
or on an endless escalator
I just go up and up but I don't ever reach the top

It's alright, Cause there's beauty in the breakdown...

Incendiary glance
Be come and collide in me
Zoom in enhance hold
While I go helplessly sky high
Magic eye sugar rushing don't stop

I must be dreaming or
We're onto something
Hey just watcha make me for
I don't fall in love lawlessly
I must be dreaming or
Pinch me to waking
So undeniably yours
As long as I'm losing it
I'm losing it
I'm losing it
I must be dreaming
I must be dreaming
I must be dreaming



Last night was funner than I expected.
Im glad I did it. Very glad.
I have now added a song to my list that the memory that goes along with it will forever be burned into my brain. And its a good feeling.

I love the ocean. I think more people should be allowed to live there.

Sundays are so boring...My brothers home and I cant do things until hes gone.
Not like we talk anyways.
I want to go toboganning.


And remeber. nothing is so shocking as to realize you are an elephant with extra legs.

Who knew Starbucks cups could be inspiring?

Be exceptional. Make tremendous efforts to be extraordinary. What a privilege to be here on the planet to contribute your unique donation to humankind. Just make sure you do so....
-- Shelby Lynne

I find this quote on almost every Starbucks cup I get....Does anyone else? Cause I feel they mass produce this one more so than the others.