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MY LIFE LIST
Still a work in progress
Ones with an X i have already done

1.Travel to another city to see a band
2.Go to an opera
3.Crowd surf
4.Photograph Niagra falls
5.Photograph the Barriar Reef
6.Have my portrait painted
7.Run up the art museum steps like in the movie rocky (X)
8.Swim with a dolphin
9.Own a room with a view
10.Learn how to take a compliment
11.Read the Bible from one end to the other
12.Receive a dozen roses
13.Send a message in a bottle
14.Plant a tree(X)
15.Fall deeply in love
16.Stand under a tropical waterfall
17.Get a first kiss
18.Go snorkeling
19.Get married
20.Go to Australia
21.See a kangaroo in the wild
22.Hold a big snake
23.Make the first move
24.Be the photographer for someones wedding
25.Yell something from a rooftop
26.Own a lava lamp (X)
27.Stay up for 2 nights without any sleep
28.Eat a whole bag of oreos
29.Meet someone I admire
30.Go on a real safari
31.Sleep under the stars (X)
32.Find a job I love
33.Go deep sea fishing and eat my catch.
34. Pick up a piece of road kill with a stick and chase a child with it.
35.Dive with sharks
36.Go fishing for sharks
37.Give blood
38.Ride in a hot air balloon
39.Storm chase
40.Get a tattoo
41.Visit a pyramid
42.Sleep a night in a snow fort I built
43.Do missions work on another continent
44.Witness an obvious physical miracle of God
45.Visit an asylum
46.Adopt an accent for an entire day
47.Steal a sign
48.Climb a tall tree all the way to the top(X)
49.Buy a personalized license plate
50.Pay for the person behind me at a fast food drive through window.
51.Learn to say the alphabet backwards really really fast
52.Learn to drive a standard
53.Perform 5 random, anonymous acts of kindness in a single day.
54.Have someone say I love you, and mean it.
55.Hold a boys hand
56.Yell as loud as I can (X)

So often I wonder...

So often I wonder
Do you still think of me,
As often as I think about you?
My heart yearns for this to be true
But my mind deems it impossible
For if it were truth,
There would be no reason so wonder
Because you would be here with me.

This isnt really a poem. Kind of just...my thoughts put down in a structured format.
Im not good at poetry.

Ho Ho Ho! Merry Everyone

Have a Merry christmas everyone!!

For your christmas present. Here is a picture of me and my date at the christmas banquet!

She just wanders around, unaffected by,
the winter winds air, she'll pretend that
She's somewhere else, so far and clear
about two thousand miles, from here

Just....do what you want to do

So these last couple nights I have had some really good talks and have come out with some of the most useful advice ever

1. Stop looking. But don't close your eyes (pretaining to boys here haha )
2. Just do what you love. Presue your passion no matter what other people say
3. Remind yourself of the things about you that make you feel good.

Ok. So im an insecure person. Ok...Very insecure. And I hide the things that I think I can do or make me feel good about myself.
Because I feel if I reveal that thing I love about myself, Other people will shut me down and I feel I will be worth nothing to anyone. I have nothing going for me. So I hide it away where people cant see it.
If I point out something I like about my appearance. Im afraid people will disagree and say otherwise. Im afraid im not good enough.
Im afraid to admit who I like because .Ew...there not good enough. They have flaws other people dont like.
Even my talents and abilities are saved to show those whom I trust. To those whom I know wont discourage me about it.
For example.I have a hard time telling people what I want to do after school. Because I dont feel that its good enough for some people. People will tell me
" oh you wont make much money"
" You actually think you could make a living off of that?"
" thats a stupid idea"
Im afriad that will stop me from doing what I love. So I hide it.
God gave me a passion . Maybe I should start showing it more. Who cares if people dont approve. I dont want to be stuck in a dead end job that I hate going to everyday. I want to do something I want to do.
If its good enough for me thats all that matters. I shouldnt place peoples opinions in high regard and change who I am just to please them.


Its hard breaking out of a shell you've been incased in your whole life . I dont know how well this is going to end up.

Be here now

Yes...this is my second post of the night thanks for asking....

Intellectual conversations spark intellectual thoughts...

"I often encounter signs that said "You are here."
You know what - evey one of those signs was right! I'm always here. I can't go anywhere but here.
If I think I'll leave here and go there, when I get there, here I am here again.
You know...always being Now since, Time, as we know it, is only an illusion. We usually think of time as having three parts Past, Present, Future. But what is the Past - only a collection of memories. We can't experience the Past, we can only remember it. And we can only remember it in the Present. There is no objective thing that we call the Past. it can't be measured in any way. our only contact with it is in the Present.
And what is the Future - only a mental construct in the Present. We can't experience the Future until it "becomes" the Present. Until then it only a hope and dream.
That leaves us with only the Present - the ever changing Present. Time is an illusion we created to try and measure the rate of change of the Present. It's always NOW. But it's an ever changing NOW. In a effort to cope with the change, we have invented time. .
To be totally in harmony with this truth, you'd need to wear a watch that always said "now". But you'd be late for a lot of things...
So anyways. always being NOW and always being Here, "Be Here Now" isn't just good advice, it's the only possibility."

HOO-JAH!

Im done at the Barn Playhouse!!!! for probably forever!!! paycheck ho!
im so happy i could just...just *hugs everyone*
I still am working at CFCR fm though. But thats alright because I get to listen to whatever I want whenever I want. And the people there are just funny...And no creepy old men hitting on me. As there usually are at every other job iv had. except Kota Graphics...But that doesnt say much...
I dont think my back and legs and arms could get any more sore than right now.

Now to start the christmas shopping on wensday. I think I already know what im getting from my brother and im EXCITED!

But for real. Iv had nothing to say lately.
OH! I need your guy's professional opinion. Which hoodie do you like better?

Or.....

The close up on the green things is

If its pictures you want. Its pictures youll get

So this is the result of me and carries outing. I may post more..I may not, I have to go watch simpsons now...

Everythings coming up dead roses...

Since blog changing is "in"...I guess.... I decided to go oldschool. If anyone was around during the days of my 2003 blog. Heres a blast from the past! Enjoy!

Now...Onto my regular blogging buisness...

Holy crap! where did all this snow come from?? I woke up and BAM! its like the snow woke up from hibernation and exploded everywhere making it difficult to travel.
Snow is sweet for looking at ...and playing in...and building things... and chasing... and tunneling.... and taking pictures... and eating probably . But NOT for driving let me tell you. Im going to go out tomorow after school and take some "artsy" pictures so you better be prepared to get....artsy..d

Christmas shopping! Iv never been this stressed about it in my life. I dont know what ANYONE wants. AHH! And i cant go until like the 20th!

Save me santa!!!!

When will my words ever be seen as more than words coming from his little sister?
Maybe my words arent ment to mean much. Maybe thats not my job in helping him. I think that job is saved for someone he will actually listen to.
Sure one of his friends says " You dont have to worry. He is such a strong person"
But hes going to give me ulcers I swear.

15 days until christmas! ACK! I havent even STARTED christmas shopping yet. And I wont get to until I get my paycheck after the 18th. Woo hoo.

So my house is almost all decked out, Here is the progress. Me and Jess decorated the tree today
( its not as nice as janelles. But its definatly more random ) And yes. I know. Theres no angel....yet. If you squint you can see the little ornamant angel I put on top for the time being. Or maybe it got cut off... I dont know.

Haha. Jess. You can see Scotts chest hair santa RIGHT on the front

Heres my moms little village. Apparantly with a Santa as a shepard of the people

And my favorite...Hee hee

Why is all the snow melting???


Awww peanuts. Comon! I want snow for christmas. I hate mother nature. Its raining on the 9th of DECEMBER ( happy janelle? haha ). We live in Saskatchewan....Not BC

Anyways so Phantom of the Opr'y is over. Thank the Good Lord.
Although it was fun. The practices weren't, but the preformance was. Alot of people said they liked it better than Oklahoma! So I guess thats alright. I totaly expected it to bomb but hey!

Heres a picture of me and Braden...We are homies.

Oh. and for your veiwing pleasure...An MS Paint picture

Jesus Im Ready to Come Home...

Alright. I dont even know where to start. I apologize in advance. This....probably wont make sense. and WILL be long. I commend anyone who sits through this.

Alright so for no reason. Im sitting here. And something huge hits me. Why? I have no freakin idea. Why now? I dont know. God has the weirdest timing.

So I just got in from drama, I take a shower and sit down and BAM! It turns out im shutting out the most important thing in my life and I didnt even realize it. I dont even know HOW i realized it is the weird thing.
Just a thought popped into my head like..its been there all along. But I just chose to ignore it you know? Kind of like a gentle nudge when everyone and everything around you is shoving you and pushing you down.
The thing iv shut out as you may have guessed is Jesus. But...I didnt realize it.
Im going about my day. Oh yah im living for Jesus by example. Im going to accept people for who they are and not care what they do. Heck i wont even say anything about it because that might make them mad. I wont speak up when someone says something I dont agree with. Because they might get mad. Ill just totally hide that im a christian... Because hey...they might get mad.
Here im thinking im living for Jesus when im using the excuse of " do not judge unless ye be judged" to do things and say things I normally wouldnt.
I mean. Accepting people for who they are is one thing. Letting them voice there opinions is one thing. But to totaly deny my beliefs and who I am just TO accept them, or let them voice there opinions and let them smash everything I belive and not say anything about it. I dont know HOW the thought of that was going to show Jesus to them crossed my mind.
Dont get me wrong. I said what I thought if someone asked. But I would NEVER bring it up unless i was asked. And even if i did. It would be a very vauge answer, one I think would be appealing to them.
I guess the thought of " im going to show them how not sterotypical christians can be. Im not gonna go pastor on anyone. Just to show them, just to break free of this label"
I took this too far. Im totaly pulling the "christian mask " I mean im all for accepting people. Im not gonna become a "shun the gays and hethans" kind of christian. But I mean. How am I going to show Christ to others if im not even following him myself.
Frick I havent even touched my bible since....well...september...Yeah...Im that good. And im only praying when I need things. Im so freaking selfish.
Iv used the excuse of being busy to not keep up my relationship with God. *gets in bed *Oh. Yeah I uh...Gotta work tomorow so uh...Yeah I have no time for you. OH yah yah...Ill get up early. You know read my bible...and stuff. But yah im too bu..*falls asleep*
morning comes. *buzzer* *bah...snooze....bah...slept in late cause snooze doesnt work*
Oh yah..Uh. gotta get to school. Sorry God gotta call it off again.
repeat..repeat...repeat.
I need to get my freaking act together. Im saying I want to go on missions and stuff. I have to pull myself together before I even consider filling out the application. Im a mess right now and im not doing anything until I pick myself up.
I know I cant do it alone and that was my problem all along. I need to let Jesus back into my life. Maybe then things will start to get better.
Sad it took me this long to figure out too...man I lose at this game

But I guess everythings become more real to me, I know where people are coming from and why they are they way they are.
I have no regrets.
Iv got to know some amazing people and some things I never would have found out if this never happend. I feel I have an advantage now over other people because I KNOW what people are going through. Now its just time to take a little bit of action...

I guess to start I can wipe the layers of dust off my bible and pick myself up where I left off.
Until next time...

Oh how wrong we were to think immortality ment never dying...

So tonight I went to the My Chemical Romance concert featuring Thrice and Circa Survive ( if no ones heard them I suggest you give them a listen. they are diffrent. Kind of like Mars Volta )

But...ill write about it tomorow because im tired.
Heres some pictures though. ( the only ones that turned out half decent anyways, My camera kept dying cause it had hardly any batteries left)

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Representin'

Boo yah.Thats totaly my uniform, or whatever you want to call it.
It turns out work is not as bad as i thought. Sure my ankles are about to break but its kind of fun. Everyone there is my age anf the girl i work with upstairs is really fun.
plus. its decorated all christmasy!
speaking of christmasy.My mom decorated my house and its snowing a bunch more. you can almost not see the grass.
Iv been in more of a christmas spirit this year than other years. And theres less snow. Strange.

Merry merry christmas everyone. Have a splendid week.

Ohh! everyone come out to phantom of the opry on wensday and thursday! itll be good I promise.
ill get a picture of me in my costume soon. And boy...is it hot.
( if you consider gaudy necklaces and a black fur coat hot )

EDIT:

Oh yah. Caitlin and Nathan M. I hope this makes up for my spam-making-fun-of attitude around christmas! enjoy!

I just want to go lie in a pit of poisonous cobras....

so. Tomorow marks the first day of the most busy month of my life. hoojah

I work at the barn playhouse for 12 days in a row. and during that time i also have my sweep( work ed ) work placement job..thing. not to mention school, junior youth. and christmas
woo!

Funny thing. I wokeup at 8 45 this morning. jumped out of bed put in my contacts and booked out the door
and at least 4 people commented me on my hair today....wow... i should do this more often haha

And its offically december 1st so MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!
Although...theres not much snow on the ground. There better be soon...or else
*shakes fist into the sky*