one million below 0

Ok ok. heres my beef today. or....yesterday

Why did this cold snap make it into the news yesterday?
seriosly though? other than those two babies dying...that makes sense. but thats a completely different story. im not even going to go there.

my parents didnt go to work and all they did was sit around watching the weather channel discussing how cold it was outside. like it was some obscure phenomenon of nature that this should happen in SASKATCHEWAN of all places.
seriosly. dear news team. this happens. several times each year.
-50 isnt a big deal. I mean. Yeah. of course its cold. but where do you think we are living? your GOING to get this in the middle of Canada.

My mom said to me and i was walking out the door to go 6 houses down the street

"wear double pants!!"

no mom. no double pants.

servER not servANT

what shows your true charachter is not how you treat superiors. but how you treat those you consider to be lesser than you


i havent found this statement to be more true then in the last...what...5 months of my life.
whats so significant about those 5 months you ask? i've been a server. granted. its not as long as alot of people in the "biz" but its enough to say that it really sucks sometimes.

but hey. on the contrary. there are the handful of people that make my day worthwhile. to prove that there are people in the world that actually have the decency to treat someone as an equal

I mean seriously? is being a waitress really that low? its not like im rummaging through garbage getting through life from bringing in my cans for nickles, washing off peoples windows at stop signs and lets face it. at least im not in the fast food buisness. so why treat me like im some scum that emerged from the earth soley to beg and do funny little tricks for your money

if people went around and treated everyone they met on the street like some people treat servers. they would get trampled and punched in the head pretty fast. so what makes people think they can do it to me in my restraunt.
i dont come to your place of buisness and patronize what you do. i dont snap my fingers or holler HEY..HEY! to get your attention. so please. dont do it to me.



just because im your servER doesnt mean im your servANT

So this is the new year, i dont feel any different

so i guess this whole new years thing is very overrated. and new years resolutions are even more overrated. but i decided to make some anyways

Get a job i enjoy
Make at least 5 new friends
Be nicer to everyone
Travel to australia again before july
Less ichiban noodles for dinner.
Less coke ...always
Read more books.
Read more books/websites about photography
Take my camera out and take actual pictures at least once a week
Draw/write more in my journal
See some people I miss.
Travel more
Dont get so attached to people i hardly know
Learn to drive my standard like a pro
Send out christmas cards from christmas 07
Remember more birthdays

there is only one addiction, You are mine..

2 weeks of not working has left me in quite the opposite state of mind then i anticipated. I feel aboslutly trapped. My creative thoughts are being held captive somewhere im not even sure i have the strength to grasp right now.
I know i now have the freedom to leave whenever i want because of my new car. instead of being indefinatly stranded in dalmeny, but for some reason it feels like i cant.
no matter where i go. i will still have the same feeling of wanting to create something beautiful but not being able to. no matter what i do

I hate it when i go through phases like this. i swear they are bi yearly. its the worst feeling in the world when you have lost the ability for your passions, it usually lasts a week or two. but its the most agonizing time when it does come.

and right now its landed at the worst possible moment. the only 2 weeks iv consecutivly done literally nothing it rolls around. so its all i have left to think about.