across the universe

if everyone in the world doesnt see this at some point. ill kill them
great movie

Im so insited!!

in loo of my recieving my new camera. i can hardly contain my insides.

i might just pee myself and not be able to sleep. this is better than christmas i promise

anyways i decided to write a little ditty. in...non song form. about the pros about having a dslr you guys probably never even thought about

1. You actually are taken seriosly, and if worse comes to worse its totally a weapon
You dont see pro photographers for magazines and weddings going around taking photos with pissy kodak easyshares. They all use big black cameras. and bigger the camera, apparantly the BETTER. ( which techincally is true, but i wont get into that ) And if you're not using your BIG camera to take pictures, you can always use it to hit people if they diss your mad skilllz. these things could leave pretty nasty bumps im told

2. You can go to concerts or events for free by dressing up as a reporter.
The security probably arent gonna know diddly squat about cameras. They will just think people who hold small cameras are fanboys and girls trying to harrass the band and those who hold big cameras are reporters trying to do their jobs.
Instead of getting chased away by a bunch of angry burly men, you can sneak into the restricted zones and take up-close photos of the celebrities as much as you like. After all, you're just a reporter "doing your job" right? ;)

(Disclaimer: i do not encourage sneaking into concerts. Please ask your mommy before you do so. i will not be held liable for damages, including damages done to your face when you're caught by security)

3. you can now safely take pictures of randoms on the street
probably because they figure they will be featured in a magazine of somesort.
seriosly. think about it, if you were a busker or somebody cool and someone came up to you in the street, asked to take your picture. and they were holding a dinky minolta. You would assume they were some freak and were taking it for some weird fetish site on the internet you dont want to know about? i know i would.
i feel more comortable when it LOOKS like the person knows what they are talking about. and doing.
(warning: there are still weirdos with big cameras out there. a sure sign to tell a creep with a dslr is to check and see if the person is using the "auto" setting. that usually means they dont know how to use the camera, haha )

4. Finally, your subjects are happier if you take pictures of them with an SLR camera.
Last time, if you use a normal camera to shoot them, they would say NO. and cover theyre face in horror
Now, if you use an SLR camera to shoot them, they pose for you! because apparantly dslrs are full of magic pixie dust that makes everyone look like a super model
Such is the power of a dSLR camera.

who wants to laugh?

oxymoron is a funny word.

"We have forgotten the importance of passion, and traded it for reason and life plans that have nothing to do with how God made us and everything to do with what society expects from us..." - Lis Grozell

i cant count how many times iv almost compromised my plans to do something i love, to hold back and do something someone else would love.
im glad i havent been totally emersed into that mindset but the funny thing is im actually working at a job people want me to. to go towards something i love. which is an oxymoron in itself.
but hey. it works for me. at least im eventually going where i want to be. which is more than most people can say.








now for something completely random...you know...to lighten the mood

Baby its cold outside.

I finally had "peace of mind" while i was driving through the winter fog tonight.
Everything iv been thinking about just faded away like the streetlights i passed in the mist.
Smooth jazz and a peaceful ride homewas all it took.
I haven't felt this great since before i left. Its getting so hard for me to relax and let things drift off lately. and iv finally taken all that and left it back on the highway.
I love how nature can do that to me. I miss the nights i could just take a walk down the street or a drive to the city on a still night and be left alone with my thoughts.
Most of the time im glad i live in a small town so i dont have to hear city noises when i walk. to some people thats comforting. but i perfer to be able to hear the one guy across town start his car and drive off when your several blocks away. and not because the car is loud by any means. its just theres no other noise.
if your a city person. you've got to experince the stillness of the country. really.


The best part about tonight is that the thick winter fog in the evening always makes for a great hoar frost display in the morning. always a treat, especially in the eyes of a self proclaimed photographer.
Arming my batteries now. Too bad my Nikon doesnt come for 3 more days. Oh well. I suppose this will be ol' Kodaks last time to shine.

flat

lately i feel like iv been getting up in the morning just so i can run into a brick wall the entire day.
Nothing i do in my retardadly routine filled days end up accomplishing anything. I do the same frickin thing day in day out.

wake up.
shower.
go to karbeas.
serve customers.
clean the restraunt/reset everything
drive home
sit for max 1/2 hour
drive to the barn playhouse
serve more customers
clear plates
re set
drive home
sleep

seriosly. thats what the last 2 weeks have consisted of. every day. nothing else and nothing ever done out of order. just the same thing every day and im begining to break. something in my brain is just going to go off and im going to snap and go bezerk.
im the kind of person who cannot handle routine to this extent. i need to DO something but i have incredibly no time to do it in.
i feel ill.
only 5 more working days at karbeas and 4 more at the barnplayhouse
i do hope i can last that long

soon i will be the proud owner of....

the nikon d40 with a 18-55 kit lense and the 55-200 VR zoom lense

Aw yeah. steal of a deal i might say. i dont care if no one knows what im talking about. this is FLIPPIN sweet!!!

heres some pictures

the only good that comes from helping your grandma move

seriosly. pure gold
i found this touque that says MILK MILK MILK MILK on it and a warped coke bottle that i filled with gumballs. can life get better? i submit that it CANNOT

mad ramblings.

Whats this? im training another waitress.??....uhm. who said i was quliafied to do such a thing? Im confused because i wasnt even asked to do it. i was just like....left to do it.
me and her were the only ones working and none of my managers were there so i was like...uhm...i guess....IM training you.....weird...... I bet im going to mess her up or something...in the gangsta way of speaking.
Get this. I also convinced my 45 year old co worker to dress up with me on halloween. haha. How did I become this position of influence? Im taking this workplace downhill, kicking and screaming while im at the helm....
Not that im really at the helm at this point. I am still subject to be fired if they so wish. But the odds are on my side because theres only 2 day time waitresses and if they fire me the manager will have to work every day shift EVER haha!
man...i could do anything by this point. maybe thats why everyones cooperating with my crazy demands...like alot of halloween candy for us in a bowl in the back....CRAZY i tell you..

Ok maybe this mad takeover isnt taking off how you all thought and probably expected. but conversative co workers in a mouse suit and candy for me to eat is my idea of a job well done.

strange encounters

Somedays I wonder if im just being a waste of space.
You know those days, where you always seem to be in the way of someone in one way or another. wether its driving, walking or trying to live.

Hmm what else could i blog about other than work? my complete lack of creativity and inpiration that seemed to have left with the leaves perhaps? or maybe about the fact that saskatchewan is horribly ugly right now, what with its complete lack of color and dreary skies.
october stinks, although i did see a very beautiful sunset today, too bad i saw it come and go through the window at work.

Thats how life seems lately. Watching everything come and go while im stuck working. Im serious i think i live at karbeas. If anyone needs to reach me. ill be there. might as well send my mail there while your at it.
2 people have quit recently because my works closing down so they ( like sensible people ) went out to find another steady job. leaving me with ALL the long..long brutal shifts at the restraunt.
But its not all bad. I get to meet some intresting people throughout the days and get to know regulars ( which is something iv always wanted to do )

which reminds me. weird story for the day:
Some man walked in today and he looks at me while im pouring him coffee and he goes
"
hey so i bet its nice working here huh? the tips ok?"
me- yeah well, considering i dont have to drive in very far to go to work
man - oh yah. is that why your not working at the hotel anymore?

uhmm...how the hell did he know i worked THERE, it wasnt even customer service for one, so i didnt see ANYbody and for petes sake i dont even know this man, iv never seen him in my life!!

So i just smiled and said, hey i think i have to do some stuff in the back. sorry ill be back out in a bit
And hid there. i think i have a stalker. haha and SUPRISE how old do you think he is!?...yeah. 60.....its always them....
seriosly. so creepy.

You know it will be a good day when...

you wake up at 6am to a glass shattering by your head and the shards landing on your sheets.


Yeah. I dont know how it happend either, maybe thats good luck? but judging how unwell today went im guessing its not...

ASPARAGUS!!!

they get crappier as they go along but its still kind of cool, silly asians ( his facial expressions and the last instrument is HALARIOUS!!!)
and it adds to the halarity at the fact that he isnt speaking english

Who likes Aussie accents?? ( Also...a plug )

for some moments in life there are no words.

some people have got to realize some of us are just trying to get through the day without breaking something....and I hope they come to terms with the fact that life's too short to be pissed off all the time, its just not worth it. If people spend the majority of their lives grumbling and complaining, dragging their feet, eyes fixed on the ground. Their going to miss it.


But tomorrow can only get better. unless i fall into a pit of spikes.



(post script, never EVER snap at waitresses. or whistle for their attention. For i am not a slave nor your serving wench)

Sometimes we speak to change the world. other times we speak to keep the world from changing us.

I was looking through my notes from DTS when i was camping and i found this scribbled in the middle of my book. Its a peice of a book I was reading at the time and it really inspired me to live my life to the fullest. And live out something Iv always dreamed.
The book...I forget what it was called. Thats not the point.
this is what I had written down


We hang out with kids and help them with their homework in our living room. And jump in open fire hydrants during the hot summer days
We share with folks that need it. Folks drop in all day to say "hi" and have a safe place to cry or get some water or a blanket.
We run a community store out of our house. People come in and fill a grocery bag full of clothes for a dollar. or find a couch, bed, or a fridge. Sometimes people donate beautiful things to share. sometimes people donate used toothbrushes
We reclaim abandon lots and make gardens out of the concrete wreckage around us. we plant flowers in old Tv screens and computer monitors.
We see friends waste away from drug addiction and on a good day. someone is set free.
We see police officers scare people. and on a good day we find an officer who will play wiffle ball with his billy club.
We rehab abandon houses.
We try to make ugly things beautiful and make murals instead of violence.
We learn imagination and sharing. We share life to our neighbors and try to take care of each other.
We hang out on streets. we get fined for distributing. We go to jail for sleeping under the stars. We win in court. We have friends in prison and on death row.
We wrestle to free ourselves from macro charity and distant acts of charity that serve to legitimize apathetic lifestyles of good intentions but rob us of the gift of community
We visit rich people and have them visit us
We preach. we prophesy and we dream together about how to awaken the church from her slumber.
Sometimes we speak change to the world. other times we speak to keep the world from changing us.
Were about simply ending poverty. Not just managing it.
We give people fish, teach them how to fish We tear down walls that have been put up around the fish pond and we figure out who polluted it.
We fight terrorism. The terrorism within each of us. The terrorism of corporate greed.of american consumerism. Of war.
We are not passivist hippies but passionate lovers who abhor passivity and voilence.
We spend our lives activly resisting everything that destroys life. wether that be terrorism or the war on it.
We try to make the world safe. as long as millions live in poverty so few can live as they wish.
We belive in another way of life-The kingdom of God-which stand in opposition to the principalities and powers and rulers of the dark world
( ephesians 6 : 12 )

We are a lazarus generation! rising from the apathetic deadness of the world. A church that is awakening of her silent slumber

An ode to being thankful

Friends. The ones that I can count on to be there and listen. or if need be. cause a random ruckus
Daydreams. That help me get through the day
Dreams. That help me get through the night
Aspirations. That help get me through life.
Seasons. That give me a sign that things will change and also prove theres beauty in the most unexpected places
Dryers. That keep my pants warm
Jobs. That gets me closer to my destination
Planes. That although are horrible. they get me places I dream to be.
Cameras. That help me catch the beauty of Gods creation
Creativity of others. That give me something to strive towards
New friends. That have the same passions as me
Vision. That give me a goal to run towards
New cds - That do not aid me in saving my money, but sound nice to my ears
Pop - That sits nicely in my tummy most of the time
Photos - That take me back to a certain place in time
Music - That does the same
Good company - That lets you forget about everything but that moment your spending with them
Phone calls - That are from friends you may never see again, but youll never forget
Extended family dinners - That are always overcrowded and awkward
Meeting new people - That are intrested in what you do and who you are
Dinosaur toys - That overcrowd my desktop
Mittens and scarves - That arent really needed this time of year but are nice anyways
Dummy strings - That delay the enevitable loss of my mittens

And for all that. I am thankful.









ps. It gets dark ridiculously fast this time of year.

buy this car to drive to work. drive to work to pay for this car

Ah, Yes. I am finally emerging from my winter hibernation that was Australia.
If you followed my other blog. Contrary to popular belifs i am no longer on the tip of Australia. Iv moved on and done other things. Travelling home being one of them.

Yes. Home. Although seasons are nice. I would gladly take the next flight over to the land down under with minimal notice. Not to be a pooper or anything. haha.

But seriosly. If I havent already raved about it to you. Australia was fantastic. Beyond words. Which is why im planning on going back. Now before i hide from the showers of rocks and other debris I must say I do realize everyone and their cat is going to Australia lately. and it might seem like im jumping on the "band wagon" so to speak.
well...so what?


Anyways back to the time that is now. Thanksgiving is upon us! AH yes, my favorite time of year. not because of the food like most people ( although turkey pretty much is the best ) i absolutly am in love with autumn. and this is the BEST week for it. or cutting it close anyways seeing as autumn vanishes faster then it came.
Nothing more beautiful then autumn and if you disagree i will kick you in the back and make you live in eternal winter. Im just that mean.
seriosly. its mitten season. mitten for comfort season and not out of nessesity and fear of your fingers turning black and falling off! Hurrah hurrah!

Also. I have a job! yes indeedily doo. I am the most cliche proffession a girl could have. aw yah. im a waitress! hold your applause please.
at a family restraunt none the less. the lowest form of waitress there is. id say iv struck it big.
haha but its not all that bad. although i DO get the same joke hourly
Me- would you like your bill?
Man - No thanks, you can keep it
or
give it to that table over there *laughs*
me- .....haaha....*puts bill on table and walks off *

And i just had a week off and its back to the working world tommorow unfortunatly, its always the worst going back to work on a saturday after a week of hanging about. Oh well. Iv got to do something in the meantime.
or maybe i could cut off my finger working and get a huge cash settlement and never have to work again. Boy would that be sweet,

well...im sure theres a downside im not seeing.

retired

For a bit.
Ill still be posting here once and a while. but most of my posting will be done on my australia blog

www.talesofasaskatchewanpirate.blogspot.com

And i also have new photos up on my flickr page for you lovely people to see.

www.flickr.com/photos/saskatchewanpirate

one of the first things ill be tempted to do...

truth in song form

Yet I have a hard time remembering all the things that I should remember. And a hard time forgetting the all things that I am supposed forget
- mewithoutyou - carousels

Original prankster

Victim - Brennans car "the probe"
Vandals - Me and Carrie
Result? Halarity

Ima miss him...

nothing says im leaving sooner than i want to, like people starting to say their final goodbyes...


its weird. my last familiar hug is closer than I think.

JET LAAAAAAG!!!!

Iv had the same feeling in the pit of my stomach literally 24/7 for the last 2 weeks.
I dont know if its the good anxious or the bad anxious. or maybe my stomach knows in advance that my socks are going to get blown off to the moon and my head just doesnt realize it yet.

This whole thing is so surreal I cant belive im actually leaving in 10 days. leaving everything i know and everything im comfortable with behind and jumping head first into a world i know nothing about with no one i know around me. and its kind of exciting.

Although, Im not sure how im supposed to feel about a certain person having an intrest in being with me only because im leaving, they never made an effort before when they should have. even this effort is a pretty sad attempt. theyve had forever to try to get to know me. why awkwardly rob me of my few days left in Canada with sad attempts to bond?
*sigh*
I dont know what to do with myself. im more stressed out then iv ever been in my entire existance of living and its awesome

2 weeks left ( 15 days )

So...I leave on the 28th.
If anyones intrested I leave at 9:10 am on march 28th. from the saskatoon airport. and get back 4:20 * snicker * ( or something ) on september 5th


See the thing is. Im done work on friday, so that leaves the remainder of the time for me to get my crapola together and visit people I wont see in a while . And generally most of these days are already booked with my last shinanigans with friends before I go away ( expecially the weekends ). So, if you guys want. make your reservations with me now. haha
but seriously. Leave a comment on which day/time works best for you and ill fit you in hopefully, or even call me if you wish.

I want to see everyone. i repeat EVERYONE before I go. so if you read this PLEASE comment if you want to hang out before I leave for Oz, mmKAY!?

Well weve managed to fend off cabin fever for a couple hours. what do you propose we do now?
...........I say we dress the snowmen.
agreed.

now on a totally unrelated subject

Dear Jesus,
Your funny.
Amen.



Ps. Thanks

mewithoutYou > Connor Oberst ( im sorry )

Raaaah i know these are song lyrics. but for real. They are the best song lyrics iv ever heard EVER.

Not one motion of her gesture could I forget
The prettiest bag lady I ever met
Pushing her cart in the rain
Then gathering plastic and glass
She watched the day pass
Not hour by hour
But pain by pain
If I was a basket filled with holes
Then she was the sand I tried to hold
And ran out behind me
As I swung with some invisible hands

I stopped believing, you start to move
She was like wine turned to water then turned back to wine
I stopped my leaving and the better man bloomed
And you can pour us out and we won't mind

I was dead, then alive
She was like wine turned to water and turned back to wine
You can pour us out, we won't mind
A scratch around the mouth of the glass
My life is no longer mine

If you're still looking for a blanket
Sweetie, I'm sorry, I'm no sort of fabric
But if you need a tailor
Then take your torn shirt, and stumble up my stairs
And mumble your pitiful prayers
And in your tangled night's sleep, our midnight needles go to work
Until all comfort and fear flows in one river
Down on the shelf by the mirror where you see yourself whole

And it makes you shiver

Our lives are not our own
Even the wind lays still
All I felt was fire and cold
And movement, movement
If they ask you for a sign of the Father
Tell them it's movement, movement and repose

Calvin and Hobbies "FTW" !

Where everything was beautiful and nothing hurt

I was alive like this once. belive it or not, and now times turned me into something dead and unsatisfying like wine turned into water.
I long for that freedom and ignorance again. And not the bad kind of ignorance either. It was a beautiful thing.


And so you'll be to me. My memories of childhood, When I was once free

I hate not being close to anyone anymore...

3, 2, 1 liftoff..... In 35 days.

Im sick and im tired. Literally.
Im sick and im tired. Figurativly

Im sick and tired of this painfully slow and at the same time ultra hyper-speed waiting game that leaves my stomach doing triple backflips whenever the thought of leaving crosses my mind. Or is it the thought of NOT leaving. Probably.

Im just about ready to leave this snowy unwonderland and go to my paradise forever. no strings attached. I want to arrive in my plane, get over jet lag and give my stomach a rest and sleep easy knowing im finally there. I just want everything to be taken care of well before I leave.

I did get my passport in the mail today. which I wasnt expecting.

Somehow I cant shake a phrase Les once said to me from my mind, Theres probably a reason for that....

And I know your all probably thinking " OH steph! at least you get to go!" But you get a little impatient when you've been waiting over a year for where your going to be in a little over a month ( hopefully ) And its expecially stressful because you didnt get to go last time.

On another note. Isnt it awesome I only get 1/2 hour to myself today which will be spent packing for a youth retreat at camp Kadesh this weekend? Yee hoo. Did someone say only female sponsor!?

Thats ok though. Im actually kind of looking forward to it. I might be able to polish up on my "photography skillz" and all you more than patient people will finally get to see some new stuff from me.
Besides. Those kids can be fun.

And now for something completly diffrent (Some questions to entertain)

Its been quite a while since a normal post, no?


Lately Iv been asking myself alot of questions. Asking other people questions and most of all asking God questions. and im never really expecting an answer from any of them. Most of them I dont even want answers to.

Why have I been so greatly blessed with such good friends, good times, and most of all good people who care? I totally dont deserve it.

Where has the time gone?Why is it that when you want time to slow down almost to a stop, life throws you into hyper speed? Even though im looking forward to Australia I just want life to slow down for a second so I can clear my head and appreciate what I wont have when im gone.

Why am I doing daycare? I hate other peoples kids, What a stupid idea.

Why cant I ever say how I feel? Maybe its the fact no one asks. Maybe its the fact that people have but I can never sense they really care.

Why would i ignore something as important as whats best for me? Why would I choose rest over healing? Why would I choose an extra hour of sleep over renewal? Dont ask me. Im an Anderson.

Why why why why why does routine have to have a horrible grip on my life? Theres nothing like routine to drain all the drive and creativity out of my body, nothing like routine to ruin my days and weeks, nothing like routine to make me a miserable blob of self pity.






And most of all. Why are you so good to me, when i basically ignore you?

polishing up on my non existant "skillz"

Ill be convulsing for days
In this hole Iv prefected for myself
I am screaming out for salvation
while strapping my feet to the roots below
because secretly Id like to stay
in this pretty train wreck
Iv now made my home

ilcheesecake

One day , while Steph was minding her own buisness. Jess decided to be a big jerk face and flip her the bird.

So naturally. Steph retaliated.

Oh yeah??

YEAH!

Pow! right in the kisser!

I'LL GET YOU FOR THAT!

Jess then plays the "beyonce" card. "Oh no you di-int!" says Steph

Kablamo!

Jess gets an idea...........Oh NO! not a cat in the face!!

Thats it, Stephs had enough, it was time to pull out the big guns

What in the world is that? says Jess

BEHOLD! the majesty of....BISCOTTI Oh no! Biscotti! my only kryptonite! How did you know!?

DARN YOU BISCOTTIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh no! what have I done! she was my best friend!!!*sob sob*

HAH! im just kidding stephie! See look! Alll better!
Lets make some cheesecake!

Lets never fight again.
You could say THAT again

My moms the luckiest wife ever.

I mean. who wouldnt want to get a card like this on valentines.

an ode to valentines ( only not )

1. Name one person who made you smile today?
...i wasnt really around anyone today.....how about. my dad. when he gave my chocolate kisses as an "early valentines present"

2. What were you doing at 8 this morning?
Sleeping.

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Driving my mom home from work. watching the northern lights....as i was driving home from the city...haha im a little dangerous

4. What is something that happened in 1994?
I moved to Dalmeny? I think?

5. What is the last thing you said aloud?
"Goodnight"

6. How many different things did you drink today?
3, coke, milk, and water

7. What color is your hairbrush?
black and wood. haha wood isnt a color.

8. What was the last thing you bought?
Mcdonalds....pizza. ew im unhealthy

9. What was the last gift you recieved for your birthday?
Simpsons Jeapordy maybe.

10. What color is your mouse?
I dont have a mouse. Im on a laptop...sooo....my finger

11. Where do you keep your change?
In my wallet.

12. What was the weather like today?
Cold. But in the evening there was like NO wind and it was cold so all the smoke from the buildings and exhaust from the cars would just linger in the air and look like...a blanket of pollution fog.....but in a pretty way....haha wow i have a way of describing things. no?

13. What is the best ice-cream flavor?
Peppermint candy cane swirl. only around christmas though

14. What is something you are excited about?
Australia.

15. When was the last rainbow you saw?
I cant recall the date. but probably the last time it rained.

16. What is your favorite gardening tool?
the...spade. cause you can cut up worms with it

17. Do you have a sister?
negative

18. Are you very random?
Mmmm. Define random. I would say to an extent

19. Do you want to cut your hair?
I just did. so no

20. Are you over the age of 25?
Nope

22. Do you watch The OC?
NO.

23. Do you like the person who sent this to you?
Yeah, well she didnt really send it to me. I just stole it off her blog, muahahah

24. Do you know anyone named Steve?
Steven Joanette....and...steve i forget his last name. but hes from new zealand and his wifes mean
"were the family that walks together!"

25. Do you make up your own words?
Probably, "its a perfectly cromulant word"

26. Are you ticklish?
Yes. very. even if your not touching me ill freak out.

27. Are you typically a jealous person?
Not...overly really.

28. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'J'?
Jessica and Joey

29. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'K'?
Kerri and Kurtis

30. Whos the 1st person on your recieved calls list?
I dont feel like walking upstairs just to check that.

31. What did the last text message you sent say?
I dont know. I havent had my phone in like 4 months

30. Do you drink?
Nope

33. Do you have curly frizzy hair?
No. Hahaha I almost typed yah. mines the farthest from curly

34. What is the next concert your going to?
Uhm....copeland? maybe?

35. Who is the shittiest person in your life?
What does this question even mean? did you just want to swear?

35. Who is the coolest person in your life?
I dont know. haha. no one i know is cool. haha take THAT everyone i know

36. What is something you say a lot?
"your a monster"

37. What is the last thing you ate?
cinnimin hearts that were a year old and had dust on them....but its still good its still good

38. Have you seen the movie 'Donnie Darko'?
Yep. and its one of my FAVORITES

39. Do you have work tommorow?
How about you rub it in quiz. Man. quizzes are good for making you feel bad about yourself. Make you realize you dont have a boyfriend OR a job...way to go

40. Is marriage in your future?
I hope so.

41. When was the last time you said 'I love you'?
dunno. Probably NEVER haha

42. What should you be doing right now?
Sleeping

43. Do you have a nickname?
yep. a few.

45. Are you a heavy sleeper?
Mmmmm not really, but if im really tired i am.

46. When was the last time you used a skateboard?
Hahahah. the one summer they made me lead skateboarding at camp. THAT was the worst.

47. What is the best movie you've seen in the past two weeks?
Smokin aces.

48. Is there anyone you like right now?
Never

49. When was the last time you did the dishes, be honest!?
Today. why would you stress to be honest on that question. I dont want my friends to know I help out around the house!!!

50. Are you currently depressed?
Well maybe I am after pulling that "job card" on me. stupid...poo face quiz.

Running on empty

You know when your driving your car. and you dont realize that your gas tank is empty and your gas light comes on? Then you panic and try to get to a gas station as quick as humanly possible and as your pulling up, you coast in on the fumes?

Yeah. thats me right now.

I give this week three thumbs....in my eyes

All I ask is that someone listens. Is that so hard?
Apparantly that task is too much to ask of some people.

WOW with steph....heheheh....

Me and Jess were talking a while ago about how ignorant people can be towards there own beliefs.

Maybe that sentence didn't make sense the first time through. Let me show you what I mean

Some people grow up in a certain setting. I'm going to use a christian household as an example to save time. ( and its something most people can relate to )
So anyways. People grow up being told what to believe by there parents or by an alternate source such as a "pastor". Not necessarily wrong things, but things that are the only options presented to you none the less. So you grow up, thinking that thing that your taught is the right thing, Not questioning the belief for a moment or even questioning WHY you believe it, but accepting it because that's all you have ever known.

But what we were talking about how its..I dont know...better. To question your beliefs, You know? Its better to stop and look at what you've been taught and ask yourself if you truly trust that everything your taught is true. That everything your taught is something you agree with or is there some aspects you just dont like the sounds of? Now I dont mean taking a religion and twisting it to your liking. to suit yourself, But I mean you have to ask yourself why you believe it. Is it because you choose to really believe it. or is it because its the only thing you know.
One thing that really makes me mad is when people say they believe in something. but they dont know why.

Which is why, personally I think its easier to be in my situation. Not around a ton of christian influence, because I chose to believe it and didnt have someone else choose it for me. Its a genuine belief because I've explored other options and questioned the things I believe now. and I can now say I know why I believe in the things I do. because even after questioning everything I still believe it, it still came out on top and it makes the most sense to me. Its something I now find the most fulfilling. And I honestly dont think you can truly appreciate it until you've done so.

But maybe thats just me. and maybe I said belief so many times I dont even recall the meaning anymore, also maybe this is the half asleep ramblings of my mind because I have to stay up until 2 30 to pick up my brother from work....Oh well. this is what works for me.

Three cheers for blizzards! ( we should consider getting a screen. no?)

Search for a hooligan. Part 1

Alright you guys. Seriosly, Someone has it in for my family I think. and im going into ultra super ninja spy mode from now on to find the culprit.
Twice I have come out of my house and came upon flat tires on two seperate cars. What the dealio!

I brought scotts tire into the shop here in Dalmeny ( which is absolutly horrifying by the way ) and he just informed me that the tire wasnt popped or had a leak. someone let the air out.
Well thank you whoever you are. thats not destructive. its just extremly annoying and inconvienient.

I thought that was the end of that but I came out this morning and a tire was flat on the intrepid! not quite all the way flat so i drove * very pissed off* to the shop and filled it up.

crazy hooligans. when will they learn that if you REALLY wanna piss someone off you smash a window or knife the tire. I mean.....wait...ignore that. yeah if you wanna piss off someone you just do something they can fix without cost *shifty eyes* yeah...thats what i meant.
If i catch whos doing this ima bust a cap!

Unless they confess of course * looks in jess's direction* haha

I give in.

Fine, are you happy? I changed to the new blogger. Only because I got kicked off the life on trial blog. haha


But anyways. Funny story. well....funny or sad. you decide
me and jess reverted back to a grade 7 mentality tonight and went out scoping. Haha. yes. we ARE that lame. thanks for asking. but thats not the sad part. oh no, not even a little bit
the sad part is we literally went to 4 ( because market mall doesnt count ) places. to scope for guys. Starbucks, Tim hortons, Mcdonalds and A&W hahahaha. and the results got worse as the night went on. resulting in NO boys at the last location. it was pretty fun though hahaha.

Yah. thats right. We need boyfriends QUICK

Im now regretting telling the entire interweb about this. but hey. its what i do.