across the universe

if everyone in the world doesnt see this at some point. ill kill them
great movie

Im so insited!!

in loo of my recieving my new camera. i can hardly contain my insides.

i might just pee myself and not be able to sleep. this is better than christmas i promise

anyways i decided to write a little ditty. in...non song form. about the pros about having a dslr you guys probably never even thought about

1. You actually are taken seriosly, and if worse comes to worse its totally a weapon
You dont see pro photographers for magazines and weddings going around taking photos with pissy kodak easyshares. They all use big black cameras. and bigger the camera, apparantly the BETTER. ( which techincally is true, but i wont get into that ) And if you're not using your BIG camera to take pictures, you can always use it to hit people if they diss your mad skilllz. these things could leave pretty nasty bumps im told

2. You can go to concerts or events for free by dressing up as a reporter.
The security probably arent gonna know diddly squat about cameras. They will just think people who hold small cameras are fanboys and girls trying to harrass the band and those who hold big cameras are reporters trying to do their jobs.
Instead of getting chased away by a bunch of angry burly men, you can sneak into the restricted zones and take up-close photos of the celebrities as much as you like. After all, you're just a reporter "doing your job" right? ;)

(Disclaimer: i do not encourage sneaking into concerts. Please ask your mommy before you do so. i will not be held liable for damages, including damages done to your face when you're caught by security)

3. you can now safely take pictures of randoms on the street
probably because they figure they will be featured in a magazine of somesort.
seriosly. think about it, if you were a busker or somebody cool and someone came up to you in the street, asked to take your picture. and they were holding a dinky minolta. You would assume they were some freak and were taking it for some weird fetish site on the internet you dont want to know about? i know i would.
i feel more comortable when it LOOKS like the person knows what they are talking about. and doing.
(warning: there are still weirdos with big cameras out there. a sure sign to tell a creep with a dslr is to check and see if the person is using the "auto" setting. that usually means they dont know how to use the camera, haha )

4. Finally, your subjects are happier if you take pictures of them with an SLR camera.
Last time, if you use a normal camera to shoot them, they would say NO. and cover theyre face in horror
Now, if you use an SLR camera to shoot them, they pose for you! because apparantly dslrs are full of magic pixie dust that makes everyone look like a super model
Such is the power of a dSLR camera.

who wants to laugh?

oxymoron is a funny word.

"We have forgotten the importance of passion, and traded it for reason and life plans that have nothing to do with how God made us and everything to do with what society expects from us..." - Lis Grozell

i cant count how many times iv almost compromised my plans to do something i love, to hold back and do something someone else would love.
im glad i havent been totally emersed into that mindset but the funny thing is im actually working at a job people want me to. to go towards something i love. which is an oxymoron in itself.
but hey. it works for me. at least im eventually going where i want to be. which is more than most people can say.








now for something completely random...you know...to lighten the mood

Baby its cold outside.

I finally had "peace of mind" while i was driving through the winter fog tonight.
Everything iv been thinking about just faded away like the streetlights i passed in the mist.
Smooth jazz and a peaceful ride homewas all it took.
I haven't felt this great since before i left. Its getting so hard for me to relax and let things drift off lately. and iv finally taken all that and left it back on the highway.
I love how nature can do that to me. I miss the nights i could just take a walk down the street or a drive to the city on a still night and be left alone with my thoughts.
Most of the time im glad i live in a small town so i dont have to hear city noises when i walk. to some people thats comforting. but i perfer to be able to hear the one guy across town start his car and drive off when your several blocks away. and not because the car is loud by any means. its just theres no other noise.
if your a city person. you've got to experince the stillness of the country. really.


The best part about tonight is that the thick winter fog in the evening always makes for a great hoar frost display in the morning. always a treat, especially in the eyes of a self proclaimed photographer.
Arming my batteries now. Too bad my Nikon doesnt come for 3 more days. Oh well. I suppose this will be ol' Kodaks last time to shine.

flat

lately i feel like iv been getting up in the morning just so i can run into a brick wall the entire day.
Nothing i do in my retardadly routine filled days end up accomplishing anything. I do the same frickin thing day in day out.

wake up.
shower.
go to karbeas.
serve customers.
clean the restraunt/reset everything
drive home
sit for max 1/2 hour
drive to the barn playhouse
serve more customers
clear plates
re set
drive home
sleep

seriosly. thats what the last 2 weeks have consisted of. every day. nothing else and nothing ever done out of order. just the same thing every day and im begining to break. something in my brain is just going to go off and im going to snap and go bezerk.
im the kind of person who cannot handle routine to this extent. i need to DO something but i have incredibly no time to do it in.
i feel ill.
only 5 more working days at karbeas and 4 more at the barnplayhouse
i do hope i can last that long