Dont live your life like a movie

Go downtown, catch the early movie
The shows are cheaper, they don't mind if you put your feet up
She's out on the highway
She's got a homemade sign it says
"Go ahead, try to figure out what my future looks like"

I don't want to live my life like a story
always thinkin I could've been something
Don't run alongside and control me
Just film away and let me be
At ease, I, I feel fine
I'll move on, I'll go on

There's something so divided
Don't worry about me I'll be fine
Don't live your life for me or for anyone
You live your life as if you're one
You live your life as if you're one
Find quiet, it's awful quiet

How can you be mad, we've just got started
I want to shave my head and lie in bed all day long
How can you be mad, we've just got started
Live your life as if you're one
Live your life as if you're one
At ease, I, I feel fine
I'll go on, I'll move on

Don't live your life like a movie
Always thinkin you could've been something
Don't live your life for me or for anyone
You live your life as if you're one
You live your life as if you're one
Find quiet, it's awful quiet
Find quiet

My life is so cool

Whoever is telling people im not a good employee....stop it! haha...But seriosly....I really need a job ....stop it

Well I went in today to drop off some more resumes. Here is my status with the job hunt

Hmv ( 2 ) - don't even know why I bothered trying. You basically need to look the part or know someone.
But they kept my resume "on file" I think that is code for "in the garbage".
CD plus - See above
Music World - See above the above
Scotts Parables- Hired someone in the position I wanted a day before I came in. Lets see. how many times has THIS situation came my way? Oh right...its the story of my life.
Broadway Roastary - SAID they were firing someone in the next few days and they would give me a call. They didn't...cool
Old folks home - Also came in a day too late
AG foods - A billion people applied but they hired Brittany instead. Kevin said they were looking for more full time....shoot, that one was close.
Smart Set - I don't even know what happened
Travelodge- Gave my application today. Although it doesnt look too promising
Pet Land- The most promising of them all. Although Im not getting my hopes up but they did say they were hiring and to call them in a couple days.


I know what your all going to say " baaaaaah Steph your too picky" And yes. Yes I am. I will agree with you fully.
I refuse to work at a fast food restaurant or at Tim Hortons during the dreaded roll up the rim to win season Because people are SOOO anal about bloody paper cups.
But if all my other options run out... I will apply there. I promise I will.
but im not going to go anxiously running to settle for a job when theres better potential jobs out there for me.
So if I dont find a decent job soon. Ill settle ok? I give in. You win.


Anyways. I need a job....Anyone know of anything out there?

For the second time ( in hopes of it making more sense )

Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle.
Say the following questions aloud, and press play.
Use the song title as the answer to the question.
NO CHEATING!!!!!

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How does the world see me?
Song: Coalmine
Artist: Armchair Cynics

Will I have a happy life?
Song: Say it if you mean it
Artist: Tsunami bombs


What do my friends really think of me?
Song: Change your mind
Artist: All american rejects

Do people secretly lust after me?
Song: Ghost
Artist: Umbrellas

How can I make myself happy?
Song: Take the veil carpet taxtd
Artist: The mars volta


What should I do with my life?
Song: Shine a light
Artist: The contstantines


Why must life be so full of pain?
Song: Season poem
Artist: Gregory and the hawk

Will I ever have (more) children?
Song: Volcano
Artist: Damien Rice


Will I die happy?
Song: Speak slow
Artist: Tegan and sara

What is some good advice for me?
Song: Miss teen wordpower
Artist: The new pornographers

What is happiness?
Song: Soft rock star
Artist: Metric

What's my favorite fetish?
Song: summer
Artist: mogwai

How will I be remembered?
Song: Dead passengers ( aw thats too bad haha )
Artist: Sondre Lerche

Who controls the universe?
song: Innocent Vigliant Ordinary
Artist: the appleseed cast



ok so that wasnt that much more sucessful....crap

There is nothing like...

...Walks on the railroad tracks with Jess talking about boys
...Doing almost ANYthing with Ryan
...Playing mario party with Carrie ( sound effects included )
...Playing in the snow with Braden and Jess
...Picnics in the park in the middle of winter at night with Teri
...Lengthly talks about music with Mark
...Riding in a car with Thomas
...Msn conversations with Brooke
...Hanging out with Cora when the power goes out
...Jess's famous hugs
...2 minute friendly arguments with Carrie
...Snow fights with Braden
...Codys friendly insults about my height
...Laurel being short enough for me to hug without going on my tiptoes
...Tobys energy
...Giving girl advice to David
...Having a second big brother like Greg
...Leahs wit
...Alisons unexpected sense of humor
...Allyssas encouragments
...Janelles random comments on everyones blogs
...Larks compassion
...Billy from Phillys Dedication and heart
...Lances family
...Hot sheets straight from the dryer
...Saskatchewan skies
...The taste of pineapple
...Warm showers after a day of being cold
...Encouragment
...Inspiration
...Anticipation
...Answered prayers
...Hearing incredible news about my brother



...Your love

*Screeeeeech!!!*

Metric playing in saskatoon!?! Since when do bands I adore come here?
Im almost too excited I think im gonna pee myself. I got my ticket today!
Sorry im pulling a 12 year old girl fit but...AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!

I think im in love...

Double post because quizzes are lame.

So I was cleaning out under my stairs today and besides finding a bunch of boxes full of "goosebumps" books ( which was pretty sweet ) I found some cute childhood pictures I thought Id share with you
because I can...
...and because its creepy

But anyways. Notice how innocent my brother looks....aw cute i dont think he could harm a living thing....but watch as time progresses...

Aw how sweet....

Not sure why hes holding potatoes but he looks happy

Ok....well that one was just weird....( sorry about the pixely ness. you get the idea....hes a fruit)

Look he even made the ugliest snowman ever!
Log appendages and potatoe eyes? How can you go wrong?....Scott proved there was a way

But this is where the terror starts... ( and apparantly the cruddy quality too )

Look at that beyond evil grin!

And here hes totaly going to take out 2 of my cousins....

something must be in the water....

So apparently I've been 'tagged' by Sharee. So i guess i have no choice but to participate

7 Things I would like to do before I die:
1. Fall in love
2. Get married
3. Have a family
4. Travel
5. Finish my life list
6. Find a Career that I love
7. Own a room with a view
(sorry sharee i kept a few of yours)

7 Things I can’t do (yet) :
1. Sew properly
2. Any sports...but soccer when i was a child
3. Move out
4. Go to australia tomorow
5. Snowboard
6. Have good hand eye corridination
7. Sit still

7 things that attract me to blogging:
1. Being able to see what's going on in the lives of friends
2. Its pretty dang addictive
3. Seeing other people's creativity
4. Sharing photos
5. Comments are rad
6. Everyone and there cat has a blog
7. I have nothing better to do

7 things I say most often:
1. Your a weiner
2. Right on
3. No kidding
4. "I win!"
5. Your mom
6. boo
7. your stupid
( im so encouraging )

7 books I love:
1. Red
2. Blue Like Jazz
3. White
4. the Bible
5. Black
6. Monster
7. A wrinkle in time

7 movies I watch over and over:
1. The little rascals
2. my simpsons season 3 dvd
3. My simpsons season 4 dvd
4. The Sandlot
5. Donnie Darko
6. Aladdin
7. Ferris Buhler's Day Off ( I have no choice. Its ok tv ALL the time)

7 people I want to join in too
1. Jess
2. Janelle
3. Nicole
4. Karina
5. Teri
6. Laurel
7. Brooke
8 ( because im a rebel ) anyone else who wants to... no need to be invited...go ahead...do it

Mon-diddily Randomness...i-ness

I never usually find Bizarro funny but this one made me laugh.

On to the randomness.
Just other day I was walking my dog and all of a sudden a thought came to me.
The thought was "Why"
and not a question mark, but exclamation. It's not why of what but why of every thing,
why of what we do and doing,
why of what we believe and don't believe,
why of every action and reaction, why of love, anger, jealousy, pain, hate, compassion, time, space, everything
It's again not a question but a state of wonder, a state one can not explain

Lately I cant even comprehend my thoughts. Everythings just a big traffic jam and I feel my brain just needs to be rebooted...
I dont even know how I feel or what the crap is going on
Someone save me!

But anyways the funny thing about word verification. Isn't the point of this so that spammers won't post to your blog?
Is it like impossible for them to type in the word verification?
"OOh, I was gonna leave a custom made woven basket ad on here but I have to type legullev on here first so never mind."

If you never did. You should. These things are fun. And fun is good. - Dr Suess

Jess watch out for that fi-
*smack*

Oh joy, feeling like your 6 again is really refreshing.
Me Braden and Jess were running around bradens backyard in knee deep snow tripping over who knows what and getting soaked to the bone.
But thats alright. It was fun.

Lately iv been trying to make my days as exciting as humanly possible.
Iv been keeping a "journal" kind of thing focusing only on the good/funny/exciting aspects of my day.
I just wish that I started this earlier because I hate just sitting inside and sulking about how bad my day was instead of going outside to get some fresh air, going nuts, and change my day.
With the journal, Iv found even in my bad days theres always some good that comes along with it. I just have to look harder to find it.
I think its more rewarding that way.

Today is your day. Your mountain is waiting.....

I am a Kalidescope

Ooooh Redberry retreats...How ill miss thee.
Well poo. That might be the last time ill ever get to go there. And that makes me really really sad
But alas good times was had by all.

Highlights ( probably some repeated so I apologize )

-"It was cold out, and the cop told the theif to freeze.......so he jumped into the pool and froze to death...what's with that?"
- some kids joke he made up

-Me hailey and gregs skit ( which we won something in by the way)
"bulbous bouffant...macadamia....gazebo!"

-"Dalmeny...you should have said Dalmeny...Dalmeny...Dalmeny...for your thing...Dalmeny...for your thing...Dalmeny..."-Phil

-YOOOOOOUUUUU SUUUUUCKKK!! - Brittany

-Jess's encounter with magic man

- Magic man ( hes so tricky )

- Killing jess in fooseball...haha

- Being pulled on a trailor thing behind a tractor through a feild with like 2 feet of snow.
The tractor got stuck a couple times and it was freezing...but yet it was really fun

- Taking pictures in the snow

- The random car alarm * random animal noises, yelling and honking* Scared the bejesus out of me. I thought someone was dieing

- Sleep talking
( LAHA!
" dont look at me! dont look at me!"
and kerris ramblings about monkeys)

-scrabble

Does anyone remeber another winter where it snowed this much?
Has saskatchewan ever been this beautiful?
Magnificiant sunsets, sparkling fluffy snow at night , frozen snow covered trees
So beautiful, so incredible. I hate how I take saskatchewan for granted
Nothing like a youth retreat at redberry to appreciate winter scenery

Lately, I've been thinking about You
And lately, I've been dreaming of You
And lately, I can't get You out of my head
Get You out of my head

Something about the ocean
Makes me rise up and praise
Something about the heavens
Makes me stand in awe again
Something about the sunrise
Reminds me of Your faithfulness
Something about the ocean
And I'm lost in love again

I'll sing until I sense a smile
Upon Your great and lovely face
And till I know Your glory's in this place
Your glory's in this place

Nobody is immune to love.

I know I said I wouldnt blog. Its still mostly true.
Im making exceptions for at school when im not supposed to be doing homework because this is my only source of entertainment. And besides its a way to get my thoughts out there.

Anyways, for a dialectical thinking paper I have to do for social ( woo )
Im researching time travel. I know it sounds like an "out there" topic. But I found some really intresting stuff. Im not going to explain the whole concept here because I wouldnt make you guys sit through that.
But something I found cool was:
Imagine that today you travel back in time to August 2001 and warn the authorities that the World Trade Centre in New York is going to be attacked on September 11th.
They take the necessary action and as time unfolds the disaster is eventually averted.
You are still in August 2001 at this point and the disaster has not yet been prevented, but it will be eventually because of the chain of events that you have put into motion, and you now wish to return to the time you came from.
Here comes the Big Question - can you return to where you came from?
Where you came from the attack had taken place, therefore where you came from no longer exists!
If you do return to your original time, the World Trade Centre will still be standing (because you prevented the attack), so it cannot be where you came from.
You will have changed the course of history, not just for yourself, but for the entire world.
The question is, will the World Trade Centre still be standing when you return to your starting time?


Sorry I find stuff like that extremely intruiging.

But anyways. My form is off to Australia tomorow and the redberry retreat is approaching fast. I have a feeling this is going to be a good week. but this is definatly my last redberry retreat.

I mean Grade 12 is great but it kind of sucks to be the year for "lasts"
My last semester, My last year in youth, my last year to be a kid/teenager ( basically the same thing it feels haha ) my last year living at home ( for at least 3 years anyways , who knows I could be one of "those" people who live with there parents until there fourty)

But im also looking forward for this next year to be my year of "firsts" So I guess the pros outweigh the cons this time. But I cant looks too far into the future yet. I need to calm myself and focus on the present.

Ew one last comment for the day. have you seen those new ipod headphones...
Im using them right now ( not mine ) But Im figuring at this rate people arent going to have the sense of hearing.
These headphones are buried into the back of your ears feeling like there almost to the point of touching your brain. Its clear and loud but ...Probably not good for you.

Ipods are a menace to society. But yet. There so cool!