Ladies and gentlemen, guard your wallets

Iv learned that no matter where I go. No matter Who im with, I am never the topic of discussion when it comes to all the junior high discussions we all love to talk about. You all know which ones im talking about.
And I now think....Im slightly ok with it and iv come to terms with the whole situation.

In other news

The fringe festival is coming the fringe festival is coming!
nuh nuh nuh *does a dance*

Im going again and again and again and again.
This is my favorite time of year. the most intresting people crawl out of there homes and all gather on the most intresting street in town.
You look around and say " what the crap is that guy doing" But that thing hes doing that would normally would freak you out if you saw it, you now laugh. Because today its socially acceptable.
Anyone can set up anything they want wether it be playing a violin or a magic show.
People even have there own little kiosks
And the jewlerry they sell. OOOH the jewlery. Eccentric handmade bracelets and necklaces rock my face off and I dont know if I could ever leave them behind.
Although I always end up losing them or getting them stolen. This is what this event is all about. Stocking up on this sweeeeet sweeeeet crap.



Sidenote:
I FINALLY updated my photoblog, everyone ch-ch-check it out!
www.beautythroughtheviewfinder.blogspot.com

Mr sun

Im mellllting! Its definatly just a little bit too hot this weekend.

I wish I had air conditioning but I heard that messes up your internal heating system or something and it makes you fatter because your body doesnt work to get your temperature down, something else does it for you or something.
I dont care. bunches of freezies glued onto my arms and face arent working anymore

Anywho as you can tell theres no real point to this except for whats coming next.

Its a song/poem by Bradley Hathaway called the hug poem. And it showed up on random on my playlist right at the perfect time.


I read about how you touched them and they were healed
Or even if someone just touched your cloak they were forever changed
You let a broken women bathe your feet in her tears
And you washed your best friend’s feet
I am just wondering though did you just ever hug people

I mean I know that it is a silly question and all I am sure you would have why wouldn’t you
But its one of those things that was never mentioned that got me thinking about it

And how whenever there was a touch from you sins were forgiven and sickness fell
I think I’m caught up in my sins last time I checked all my body parts were properly working, nothing special here
I am just a kid with a heavy heart these passing sunrises and sunsets

I don’t think our encounter would have ended up in the gospels or anything
Because all I really need is a hug
That is ok for me to imagine right
That’s not going to be conflicting with any sort of theology is it
Ok good, then hug me

But not one of these side ways one arm around the neck type hugs
Or the ghetto right hand clasp fists elbows to chest pit pat on the back back
Or you put your right arm over my right arm and I put my left arm over your left arm and we make this weird sort of diagonal thing
Nah none of those

BEAR HUG ME MAN
Take your old school carpenter arms and throw them over my upper body leaving my arms dangling underneath yours somewhere and I can barely move them because your squeezing so hard

But don’t pick me up and make my back pop because I hate it when people do that

And hold me, hold me here in your arms until I start to cry because
I WANT TO CRY
But I just can’t seem to do it on my own
I have been teary eyed once recently but not even enough for a drip down my cheek
Theres just hurt in my soul that needs to be purged so hold me in this hold pose until the pain is flowing from my eyes and nose

I find a fatal flaw in the logic of love

I feel like a shell.......thats buried under a 1 tonne mound of crap.
Australia seems farther away then ever. 5 months may as well be 5 decades at the rate im going.





I'm looking in on the good life i might be doomed never to find

Because it was nothing like we ever dreamt, our lust for life had gone away...

I find the only thing keeping me sane these days is music. As cliche as that sounds its so very true. Kids are going to be the death of me, Im suprised im not violently ill, children are naturally swimming in millions of germs . All they do all day is stretch out their grubby hands towards you after they coughed in them and touch your mouth/face or something else equally as stupid.

This last month has left me feeling like a big massive mound of crap and wondering why I ever wanted to graduate. Im so sorry to everyone who said "Treasure this time, Highschool is the best years of your life" and then I laughed after they said it and totally didnt belive them, I didnt think it could possibly get worse than highschool. It did.
And now Im thinking it cant possibly get worse than THIS , but it will. man, i dont even have to pay rent and support kids and im complaining.
Shut up steph. Stop complaining.

Anyways. to the main point of this post.

You know how when you were a kid and all you wanted to do all day every day is be outside? You had dirt that was caked on to your feet and that 1 inch mass was considered your shoes because when your a kid its ok to be stinky and dirty, your feet were immune to cuts from being outside so long anyways.
You remember the fight you would put up when your mom even suggested coming inside?

What ever happend to those kind of kids? I work at a summer program and all the kids want to do is stay inside. If you mention going outside they put up such a fuss you practically have to drag them outside. And after 5 minutes of being outside they pull on your shirt and go " Im hot and thirsty, Im going inside"

the age of when kids start acting like teenagers is loweing at a very suprising and upsetting rate.

Where have all the children gone?

Someday you will be loved

I havent blogged in a while...considering how much I usually blog anyways

Heres the haps in my life

Just graduated, huzzah. Totally doesnt feel like 2 week since our grad....weird. It feels like 2 months
How Im feeling since then? Two words for you guys. Burnt...Out

I go from no job to 2 jobs working everyday, my only day off since july 3rd was this last sunday and I wont get another one until who knows when. maybe not until the end of the summer because im on call every sunday.Yippie, Not that I dont like my jobs, its just alot to juggle.

on top of that ( im not complaining about this this is TOTALLY 100% my fault ) I have been hanging out with the most unlikely group for the past week and a couple days until 2 am every night.
Whos this unlikely group you ask?
Me, Alyssa Pigglen, Brennan, Kendall, Cody, Kurtis, Nick, Alex Bolan, and the new kid

Oh thats right. We have a new kid. His names brandon and he likes hockey, thats about all I know about him because hes really quiet. Hes going into grade 12 though.

mmmm yep if my memory is serving me correctly thats about all thats new with me....Im boring.