In the backseat

"So in the end, was it worth it?
Jesus Christ. How irreparably changed my life has become. It's always the last days of summer and I've been left out in the cold with no door to get back in.
I'll grant you I've had more than my share of poignant moments. Life passes most people by when they're busy making grand plans for it.
Throughout my lifetime I've left pieces of my heart here and there. And now, there's almost barely enough to stay alive. But I force a smile, knowing that my ambition far exceeded my talent.
There are no more white horses or pretty ladies at my door. "

-Blow

Oh inverted world!

Do you want the bad news first or the good news?


Bad news- I had pretty much the worst day ever today, Im not even going to begin to describe it because i know no one wants to hear it.
Long story short- Flat tire.
getting up at 7 to go and listen to some lady for an hour and a half about immunizations and how much they are going to be ( SOOO expensive )
last minute photo developing gone horribly wrong,
waiting an hour in extra foods as a result of that,
co workers not showing up for work during lunch rush.
not eating.
not getting home until 7 when i was supposed to be home at 530.
sausages for supper.
laptops "r" breaking off


ok so maybe i did begin to describe, but you still dont care haha

*groooooan*

Good news? I bought two good cds today
the new pornographers- twin cinemas
the shins - oh inverted world

aaand my photography mentorship is tommorow!...
I dont even know what to expect though. They told me to bring 6 other pictures with me and I feel like i have to compare to the ones i won with.
im really nervous about it and all the other people who are there with me. i hope there not like..overly really superiour to me.


Maybe ill find a artsy boy there i can date ( haha right jess? ) one can only hope.
After all. I deserve it, no? haha

Its ALLLIIIIVVVEEEE!!!!

I finally posted on life on trial!...ch-ch-check it out
www.themenacesociety.blogspot.com
seriosly. this sites the best thing since garlic bread. which wasnt praticularily that good, but thats not the point
or maybe it is....

quiz quiz quiz quiz

im bored. can you tell?


01.Your name plus a Y?
stephy (* angry face* )

02.Two feelings at the moment?
cold.... and nostalgic

03. What are you listening to right now?
Low - coldplay

04. A part of a song lyric that's in your mind?
what if you should decide, that you dont want me there by your side

05. Last person you hugged?
mmm....alyssa ...probably, nope, matt

06. The highlight of your week?
starting at booster juice

07. What are you craving to have right now?
booster juice...haha

08. Any unforgettable childhood memories?
oh lots...playing animals with katie and alyssa braun, horseback riding with katie

09. A not-so-good childhood memory?
plenty..me almost dying falling down a slide,. now its funny. its on tape even

10. What are your nicknames?
stephi ( i hate that one ) meff, teffy, teff, steve, stevie, stevie wonder, pep

11. Your plans for tomorrow?
go to work

12. Your plans for today?
youth sponsoring...mmm...eating?

13. Are you thinking of someone right now?
yes!

14. Do You Think Someone is thinking of you?
most likely not

15. Have you got a job?
yepp and i love it!

17. Say something to the person who posted this before?
Uh cora. i know what soapy means. your doomed

18. What do you want?
to be warm and not wet, i hate sprinkle rain

19. are you happy?
sure

20. Do you like anyone?
i doubt it

21. Do you miss anyone right now?
yes.

22. Describe where you are right now?
on my bed in my room. that was tough

23. What do you like about the night?
stars, the northern lights. i come ALIVE haha

24. If you were on a farm what would you want to see?
alot of horses and dogs,....and ducks, maybe even a pond with a tireswing.

25. When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?
a marine biologist. haha

26. Last gift received?
a tennis ball from joey. although i wouldnt really consider that a gift

27. Did you like it?
sure, i keep it in my purse

29. Do you play an instrument?
i can but i dont really anymore

30. sweet or sour?
sweet

31. Your good luck charm?
i dont have one. but if i had to pick. my plastic dinosaur named chili boots

32. Person you hate most?
i dont hate anyone.

33. Who makes you laugh the most?
jess and janelle, kendall, brennan

34. What makes you smile?
memeories, people mostly...

Hometown:
dalmeny, SK

Height:
5'1 im...pretty sure i lose.

Hair color:
dark brown

Hair Style: (wavy/curly/straight):
striaght

Eye color:
brown

School:
well...i graduated from DHS

Friends:
oooooh, im not naming them all. the only one who rOXxOrs the most is jess probably. haha

Finish the sentence:

2. I am listening to
the mars volta

3. Maybe I should...
get dressed into normal clothes and not purple booster juice clothes

Where's Number 4?
your momma ate it

5. My best friends...
Jess, Carrie and Alyssa. im pretty sure there the best

6. I don't understand...
why some people put themselves in situations where they know there gonna get hurt
Why people dont say stuff to my face

7. I lost...
my mind. bahaha i bet THAT was original!
but seriosly? my frog that i kept in my room

8. People say...
alot of gibberish

Harvest-mlarvest Moon-shmloon

I went off to Harvest Moon this last Friday, and let me tell you it was ever so much fun.

It started off in a neverending hunt for matt. literally. we still dont know where he is. Thats a little weird but beside the point.
Anyways because of that major glitch our take off time was...delayed by 3 hours at least. and ended up being just me and Kendall driving all the way to edmonton.

The festival started at 630 and we arrived at his cousins house at 8.
We were ready to go and watch MewithoutYou until Cody ( kendalls cousin ) decided he wanted some Burger King.
So we stopped and ate in for some reason and all the while we came to the conclusion that it was the slackest BK on the planet. Alternative music pumping througout the entire restaraunt and the manager hooting and hollering in the kitchen.
Dispite that fun adventure I was pretty dang upset because we missed mewithoutYou'sset. We didnt feel like paying 25 bucks to see there last 3 songs so we stood outside the gates like the cheap losers we are.
From what I heard outside they were pretty incredible. just as i expected. except for january 1979 that was ...ok

We went back to codys and watched fear and loathing in las vegas and i fell asleep on THEE creakiest bed in the world. This is my impression.
*moves fingers* EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKK!!!!!!!!!KACHUNK!

Running low on sleep we ran out the door the next morning to catch tuxedo mask, who rocked as usual. I even bought a shirt. I will post a picture soon because it rocks so much.
We left after them for a bit to go shop around not as west ed because the boys didnt care for riley armstrong.
We then came back to see Glory Nights. Dont really remember much besides that they were decent.
Then was Jacob and Lily, except those werent there names at all. Not even close. but all i can remeber is the guys name and his name was Caleb.
Anyways the girl had an INCREDIBLE voice and the dude played that...box drum where you sit on it. I was very impressed with their set. check them out if you have a chance.
Then we saw a bit of joy electric and then left. and went by a duck pond outside of the area but we were still within ear shot unfortunatly. ( the joe and pigeon john are hip hop artists i didnt praticularily enjoy, expecially pigeon john ) and threw stuff at the ducks.

Came back for the myriad who rocked as well I was so impressed with how good they were live. for there last song "dissapointed together" one of the 3 guitar players used a bow on his guitar. SO COOL! that one was and is still my favorite by them

Then was blindside, dun dun dun DUN!! SOOO good!! there was such a massive crowd compared to everyone else and for good reason. i was smiling clapping and taping the entire time. enough said.

But this is getting long as it is so ill end with we woke up early today and went to west ed and saw a sea lion show. cool
Now im home and im sick and tired and I GOT A JOB AT BOOSTER JUICE!!
I win!
I start tommorow and im gonna puke im so nervouse

In case you havent seen my other blog...

I did win that photography competition.
Not only did I win the competition but I also got another photo as an honorable mention!
I also got an invitation along with only 5 other people to go to an all day workshop lead by a proffessional photographer...No way!!! Im so stoked out of my MIND!
This is the photo that won



This is the honorable mention




Personally I think it should have been the other way around but who cares?

A real post

What have I done in the past week? Let me tell you, because i know your all DYING to know.

Im gonna start from the farthest back I can remember, and that is
Saturday: I got my daith peirced. Whats a daith you ask? Well...forgive the massive ear picture with a fresh peircing wound...but this is it

yee...haw

aaand...

Wednesday: Last day of summer program Hooray!! And let me tell you. every single kid must have been loaded up with sugar before they came the day before, what the crap was going on with that ( Tuesday was the last day with kids. wensday we just had to clean up )
I also bought a Mars Volta cd

Today: Had an interview at Starbucks
Corprate sellout? I think so. I dont even care haha I get another interview so thats a good sign
I also bought the iron and wine cd. :)


Mmmm and tommorow i dont know what im going to do with myself. Im not working....what do I do!?

I like to rhyme...All the time

Smile faker
Breath taker
Free thinker
Coffee drinker
Loud screamer
Day dreamer
Shoot for the stars
Driving in cars
Compassionate heart
and falling apart
Wanderlust
Expresses trust
has a dream
coffee with cream
Wants to love
Free as a dove
Trapped in a box
Hating socks
Music junkie
Grease monkey
Artistic eye
Wants to fly
World shaker
Rule breaker
Needing change
A little strange

Free to be
THIS IS ME

A dreamer dreams, she never dies...

Man on the Train: Hey, are you a dreamer?
Wiley: Yeah.
Man on the Train: I haven't seen too many around lately. Things have been tough lately for dreamers. They say dreaming is dead, no one does it anymore.
It's not dead it's just that it's been forgotten, removed from our language. Nobody teaches it so nobody knows it exists.
The dreamer is banished to obscurity.
Well, I'm trying to change all that, and I hope you are too. By dreaming, every day. Dreaming with our hands and dreaming with our minds.
Our planet is facing the greatest problems it's ever faced, ever. So whatever you do, don't be bored, this is absolutely the most exciting time we could have possibly hoped to be alive.
And things are just starting





Waking life = best movie in the world

Just 'Cause I Rock

Oooooh , I AM the coolest







Speaking of rocking....

Dont you love the feeling of a song being burned into your memory. Your sitting there and you can actually feel the moment being crystalized into your brain and you know your going to remember that moment forever.
I had a moment like that tonight, two songs in a row. It wasnt even a special moment or a special song that I loved or anything. Just a normal moment. It was kinda nice .

I think it had to do with the lyrics though. They went like this

i hope this song starts a craze.
the kinda song that ignites the airwaves.
the kinda song that makes people glad
to be where they are,
with whoever they're there with.

we are the best at what we do.
and these are the words you wish you wrote down.
this is the way you wish your voice sounds,
hansome and smart.
oh my tongue's the only muscles on my body
that works harder than my heart.







Hey actually. guess what everyone!

I, Stephanie Anderson the first. Have succedded in quitting my job at the sears portrait studio.
YAY!!!

No more shifts ever *does a jig*
And I might get a job at the spadina free house *does another jig*

And a-camping I will go this next weekend!!! I can actually have a summer now!!!
I dont think I could be happier than I am right now
Actually. That was a lie

Good ol' rumble McGee

The moment you all have expected has finally arrived
My buick died....On Idylwyld


So that was pretty fun. Im puttering along and im like a red light better stop *nah nah nah* ok cool its green
*presses the gas* *goes nowhere*
Uhhhhhmm....what?
*tries to turn on the car again* *nothing*
*tsk*...uh oh. its pretty busy and people are getting pretty mad....
*gets out of the car and pops the hood so no one else harrasses her*
*flags down a cop to make a gap in traffic so I can push it to a side street*


Overall a pretty embarrassing situation, the cop didnt even help me. What a loser.

Huzzah for broken alternators that I have to pay for
Huzzah for the long weekend
Huzzah

Ladies and gentlemen, guard your wallets

Iv learned that no matter where I go. No matter Who im with, I am never the topic of discussion when it comes to all the junior high discussions we all love to talk about. You all know which ones im talking about.
And I now think....Im slightly ok with it and iv come to terms with the whole situation.

In other news

The fringe festival is coming the fringe festival is coming!
nuh nuh nuh *does a dance*

Im going again and again and again and again.
This is my favorite time of year. the most intresting people crawl out of there homes and all gather on the most intresting street in town.
You look around and say " what the crap is that guy doing" But that thing hes doing that would normally would freak you out if you saw it, you now laugh. Because today its socially acceptable.
Anyone can set up anything they want wether it be playing a violin or a magic show.
People even have there own little kiosks
And the jewlerry they sell. OOOH the jewlery. Eccentric handmade bracelets and necklaces rock my face off and I dont know if I could ever leave them behind.
Although I always end up losing them or getting them stolen. This is what this event is all about. Stocking up on this sweeeeet sweeeeet crap.



Sidenote:
I FINALLY updated my photoblog, everyone ch-ch-check it out!
www.beautythroughtheviewfinder.blogspot.com

Mr sun

Im mellllting! Its definatly just a little bit too hot this weekend.

I wish I had air conditioning but I heard that messes up your internal heating system or something and it makes you fatter because your body doesnt work to get your temperature down, something else does it for you or something.
I dont care. bunches of freezies glued onto my arms and face arent working anymore

Anywho as you can tell theres no real point to this except for whats coming next.

Its a song/poem by Bradley Hathaway called the hug poem. And it showed up on random on my playlist right at the perfect time.


I read about how you touched them and they were healed
Or even if someone just touched your cloak they were forever changed
You let a broken women bathe your feet in her tears
And you washed your best friend’s feet
I am just wondering though did you just ever hug people

I mean I know that it is a silly question and all I am sure you would have why wouldn’t you
But its one of those things that was never mentioned that got me thinking about it

And how whenever there was a touch from you sins were forgiven and sickness fell
I think I’m caught up in my sins last time I checked all my body parts were properly working, nothing special here
I am just a kid with a heavy heart these passing sunrises and sunsets

I don’t think our encounter would have ended up in the gospels or anything
Because all I really need is a hug
That is ok for me to imagine right
That’s not going to be conflicting with any sort of theology is it
Ok good, then hug me

But not one of these side ways one arm around the neck type hugs
Or the ghetto right hand clasp fists elbows to chest pit pat on the back back
Or you put your right arm over my right arm and I put my left arm over your left arm and we make this weird sort of diagonal thing
Nah none of those

BEAR HUG ME MAN
Take your old school carpenter arms and throw them over my upper body leaving my arms dangling underneath yours somewhere and I can barely move them because your squeezing so hard

But don’t pick me up and make my back pop because I hate it when people do that

And hold me, hold me here in your arms until I start to cry because
I WANT TO CRY
But I just can’t seem to do it on my own
I have been teary eyed once recently but not even enough for a drip down my cheek
Theres just hurt in my soul that needs to be purged so hold me in this hold pose until the pain is flowing from my eyes and nose

I find a fatal flaw in the logic of love

I feel like a shell.......thats buried under a 1 tonne mound of crap.
Australia seems farther away then ever. 5 months may as well be 5 decades at the rate im going.





I'm looking in on the good life i might be doomed never to find

Because it was nothing like we ever dreamt, our lust for life had gone away...

I find the only thing keeping me sane these days is music. As cliche as that sounds its so very true. Kids are going to be the death of me, Im suprised im not violently ill, children are naturally swimming in millions of germs . All they do all day is stretch out their grubby hands towards you after they coughed in them and touch your mouth/face or something else equally as stupid.

This last month has left me feeling like a big massive mound of crap and wondering why I ever wanted to graduate. Im so sorry to everyone who said "Treasure this time, Highschool is the best years of your life" and then I laughed after they said it and totally didnt belive them, I didnt think it could possibly get worse than highschool. It did.
And now Im thinking it cant possibly get worse than THIS , but it will. man, i dont even have to pay rent and support kids and im complaining.
Shut up steph. Stop complaining.

Anyways. to the main point of this post.

You know how when you were a kid and all you wanted to do all day every day is be outside? You had dirt that was caked on to your feet and that 1 inch mass was considered your shoes because when your a kid its ok to be stinky and dirty, your feet were immune to cuts from being outside so long anyways.
You remember the fight you would put up when your mom even suggested coming inside?

What ever happend to those kind of kids? I work at a summer program and all the kids want to do is stay inside. If you mention going outside they put up such a fuss you practically have to drag them outside. And after 5 minutes of being outside they pull on your shirt and go " Im hot and thirsty, Im going inside"

the age of when kids start acting like teenagers is loweing at a very suprising and upsetting rate.

Where have all the children gone?

Someday you will be loved

I havent blogged in a while...considering how much I usually blog anyways

Heres the haps in my life

Just graduated, huzzah. Totally doesnt feel like 2 week since our grad....weird. It feels like 2 months
How Im feeling since then? Two words for you guys. Burnt...Out

I go from no job to 2 jobs working everyday, my only day off since july 3rd was this last sunday and I wont get another one until who knows when. maybe not until the end of the summer because im on call every sunday.Yippie, Not that I dont like my jobs, its just alot to juggle.

on top of that ( im not complaining about this this is TOTALLY 100% my fault ) I have been hanging out with the most unlikely group for the past week and a couple days until 2 am every night.
Whos this unlikely group you ask?
Me, Alyssa Pigglen, Brennan, Kendall, Cody, Kurtis, Nick, Alex Bolan, and the new kid

Oh thats right. We have a new kid. His names brandon and he likes hockey, thats about all I know about him because hes really quiet. Hes going into grade 12 though.

mmmm yep if my memory is serving me correctly thats about all thats new with me....Im boring.

Grad ramblings

I cant even express how fun grad was ( minus after grad. that kind of stunk a bit but when are after grads ever fun?)
But the banquet. ceremonies and after after rocked my face off.

Everyone was so nice to each other this whole week so it sucks that im going to have to leave them all and not be able to see them again. Honestly. that really makes me sad.

The banquet went well considering me and bryan were the MCs and they totally switched the order on us and didnt tell us. that rocked. but apparantly we pulled it off well.
Mr B didnt talk about dragon flies this time so that was cool

The ceremonies seemed pretty short for our class size, our history and prophecy rocked ( Ill put mine up here later. i dont have my memory book with me so i forget some of it ) and everyone seemed to have a good time.
it was so good seeing people you havent seen in forever, if any of you read this thank you SOO much for coming out, it means alot, seriosly. ( even the ones I see often )

The after after grad was suprisingly one of my highlights because nothing got out of hand , nobody started anything, I met a whole bunch of people and there wasnt much peer pressure.
Although I dont think iv ever gotten that many hugs in my life from people I dont know and from people who I didnt think ever would. But thats what you get mixing grad with alchahol.
Im very glad I went and even glad I stayed the whole night ( because my ride left without me )

Man im gonna miss some of those people.
Stink...


( ill put up photos when my laptop comes, this computer stinks )

I'll name him crazy talk

So on the way to work today ( haha I LOVE being able to start stories like that) I got out of my car and started walking towards the midtown and this homeless man stood up from where he was sitting and started walking beside me.
He struck up a very odd conversation which was harmless enough so the least I could do was listen to the poor guy and add in a few " oh yah " s.
He first pointed towards the construction machines and he says " Those are from the GOVERMENT arent they?"
He continued with " you see all this dust blowing around? they need to clean up eh? they need to clean up these weeds eh, those wont do any good there eh. you see that dirt in the corner there? how are they gonna get that out eh??"
He then proceeded to talk about soil erosion and how he learned it in school and then started pointing at his eyepatch and explained how dust is blowing everywhere and bugs can fly into your eyes .
He bid me farewell at the corner as I walked across the cross walk and reminded me that mice were gross. He seemed satisfied at the information he presented me with and he was on his way.

He was an intresting man, although a little bit strange.
It was kind of sad to see but Im sure he hasn't talked to someone for a long time and meant no harm to anyone, he just needed to tell someone a story, so I thought Id humor him and pretended to be interested in his paranoid antics for that short walk to the crosswalk while most people just ignored him or told him off.


Thats my story about the kind of man most people dont have time for. I personally found him interesting/funny and a different start to my day.

I am the (wo)man!

I just got an official call from australia ( not the whole country (haha janelle. a 49283626467 way call) ) and I got told I am officially accepted for the reef to outback DTS!
I rock!

Im forsurly leaving all you suckers to rot here in dalmeny!
....Aw that wasn't nice. Well...Im leaving all you while you have to STAY in dalmeny.
Better?

The point is im leaving. Forsure. And that makes me more happy then words can describe


I only have 2 more days of highschool life left....Better make the most of it and not do my homework for old times sake.

Im sorry, its my first day.

So I started my job today...

Im hoping its just a case of the "first day of work blues" but...I dont see the glamorous photography studio fantasy being unfurled before my eyes like I was expecting. (well not really "expecting" but you know what i mean )
Instead its kind of a crappy fantasy knock off with an evil perfectionist overlord and really mean servants (with the exception of one).

But thats alright...its my first day right?.....right!?


Bah, responsibilities are for the weak. Im going back to kindergarten.

So long suckas!