I dont know why, but all of a sudden wave of ...sadness i might call it or depression just hit me. iv been having a bad couple of weeks.. seems as if alot of people have been having them.
one of my friends at youth kinda is in remotly the same boat as me. putting on a facade of being happy. when inside its really quite the opposite. in my case im a wreck. when i go to school i put on that mask until i get home. and i dont bother to do anything about it. I just kinda shrug it off and say things will pass. but since im not doing anything about it. its not going away and getting stronger and stronger. because im hiding my feelings and bottling them up i guess.
anyhow...i should be off to youth again where i help out with a group of grade 7's. me and carrie are the leaders. i'v only been helping for 2 weeks..or 3 i dont know, now. and its getting super fustrating and i feel like im not learning anything. let alone helping. so tonight im asking my youth pastor if i can go back into the small group where i have a leader and stuff...so anyways i best be off to do that
God bless