Its been a while


haha woah...its been...quite some time. an update on me would be rather impossible for iv been having alot of highs and lows...One thing in praticular about the lows ( and i totaly am not pointing fingers here. im just speaking my mind not trying to offend anyone)
anyways. im really frustrated with the way people have been veiwing me lately. they do it in all good fun..but it gets to you , you know?
just the way anyone mentions the word lazy or someone didnt do something or didnt do it right they always direct their attention at me..when most of the time it really isnt.
im trying really hard to change but so few people have faith in me most when i mention changing they just half laugh and look at me like they dont belive me and it sortof discourages me..
They always have a look on me like i never get anything done or if i do get it done i do it like i did it just to get it done and barely pass...
anyways sorry if this totaly confused you, just my rant for the day.

A positive out look on life for a moment please you ask?
Well. in the times that iv been good iv been glowing. for no apparent reason. i love that and iv been getting it alot more often than usual.
and i dont have to go to school tomrow. because im going to edmonton so im on a slight high today.
and lately Gods been teaching me to actually think about what im reading when i do my devos..because normally id be like WOO there im done and pick out a verse that could have meaning then go to bed.
iv been looking into them more deeper now so thats grood
anways i got to go
God bless