Screw decisoins why cant i do everything

i need some help deciding what i should be doing for the next now till july. because i really want to do everything , but it all contradicts with each other. and its frustrating
anyways im debating if i should try out for a city soccer team but that contradicts with youth probably. and Cit'ing
If i should go on the phili missions trip. because mexico is next year and i dont want to keep asking the church for money year after year and they'll get sick of it. yet i dont want to pass up the opertunity.
and im trying to go with my gut but its all twisted in diffrent directions.
someone help lol