I'll be wrapped around your finger

So it was the first real day of school today. Its third class and I have double spare...and im terribly bored. Web msn is blocked on these computers too... Hoorah.

Grade 12 is Better than I thought it would be actually.
But I have a feeling that this year is going to be really really diffrent, Its just in the way that everybody is acting towards each other. I sense tension between some people and it sucks.

I want to wake up one morning , go through my day to day exisentce with the usual tasks at hand. but after i shower and put on clothes . i want to place my wallet into my pocket and walk away.
I want to keep walking until i am gone from this idiotic routine.
gone from the people who have no respect for me.
from the people who think i should apologize all the time
i want to leave every materialized item in my room leave it where it sits and just leave
lately it seems as though everything around me has been a blur
and i feel as though i have been stepping away from everyone, or everyone away from me
and yet i have been watching
i have been watching everything and trusting nothing
not even the words that have spewed from the mouths of those whom i trust
those words that trickle over there lips seems as though they could merely be lies upon lies
the truth where does it ever really exist
there have been moments though when i take a small step forward again and then from the mere dissapointment i have taken two more back
in my mind i am lost
thats really all there is to this
i no longer trust the words i hear or the things i see
i no longer trust my stance on the ground where i stand
i trust nothing except for Jesus and that perphaps my life will be put back in order soon.