Wanderer's Guild...

Last night I had a really odd dream, that I never thought Id have.
I was sitting on my driveway doing drugs of some kind. Out in the open and I was so afraid people were going to see me.
They looked like they were pixie sticks or something. And I took alot.
I remeber getting really sick and my brother found out. He said he was going to tell my parents. But all I said is " scott I know what you do "
Then he started crying. All I wanted to do was hug him. But since iv never hugged my brother in dream or reallife land. All I could do was watch him.
And I asked him what it was like.

But anyways. haha. I dont know what THAT means . On a diffrent note.

Its crazy the things you find out about some people if you just listen to them.
Iv found out so many things id never thought id hear by hanging out with people who arent "christian" per say. Iv kind have broken the seal on my "magical la la land bubble" that so many of us dalminites live in.

But lately the most acceptance iv found is in the "non christian" group of people. They are the ones being the nicest to me while the "christians" talk about me behind my back. ( dont get me wrong. Im not saying I dont . Because then Id lie. and that makes me sad...and something im trying to change.)
But iv found the nicest people iv met dont go to youth or church. I find theyre more real. and have alot more to say about life.

Im sure your all thinking. Holy crap Steph is gonna go through her rebellion stage and start doing drugs.
But no. Im not. Iv seen what drugs do to people.
Im just sick and tired of christians thinking that non christians deserve to be judged like that. If there seen on the street on the weekend were all thinking " oh HES hammerd.."" I bet HES stoned"
Iv really come to appreciate those who dont come to youth. I love them to bits. They are some of the nicest. Most accepting. Real people iv met, I just wish everyone else would see that too
( and im not saying all christians do this either. I just have a select few in mind that im sick of their attitiude on this subject so im sorry if you took offence to it.)

Sorry if this made no sense whatsoever I just had to get it out.