Just....do what you want to do

So these last couple nights I have had some really good talks and have come out with some of the most useful advice ever

1. Stop looking. But don't close your eyes (pretaining to boys here haha )
2. Just do what you love. Presue your passion no matter what other people say
3. Remind yourself of the things about you that make you feel good.

Ok. So im an insecure person. Ok...Very insecure. And I hide the things that I think I can do or make me feel good about myself.
Because I feel if I reveal that thing I love about myself, Other people will shut me down and I feel I will be worth nothing to anyone. I have nothing going for me. So I hide it away where people cant see it.
If I point out something I like about my appearance. Im afraid people will disagree and say otherwise. Im afraid im not good enough.
Im afraid to admit who I like because .Ew...there not good enough. They have flaws other people dont like.
Even my talents and abilities are saved to show those whom I trust. To those whom I know wont discourage me about it.
For example.I have a hard time telling people what I want to do after school. Because I dont feel that its good enough for some people. People will tell me
" oh you wont make much money"
" You actually think you could make a living off of that?"
" thats a stupid idea"
Im afriad that will stop me from doing what I love. So I hide it.
God gave me a passion . Maybe I should start showing it more. Who cares if people dont approve. I dont want to be stuck in a dead end job that I hate going to everyday. I want to do something I want to do.
If its good enough for me thats all that matters. I shouldnt place peoples opinions in high regard and change who I am just to please them.


Its hard breaking out of a shell you've been incased in your whole life . I dont know how well this is going to end up.