Its been quite a while since a normal post, no?
Lately Iv been asking myself alot of questions. Asking other people questions and most of all asking God questions. and im never really expecting an answer from any of them. Most of them I dont even want answers to.
Why have I been so greatly blessed with such good friends, good times, and most of all good people who care? I totally dont deserve it.
Where has the time gone?Why is it that when you want time to slow down almost to a stop, life throws you into hyper speed? Even though im looking forward to Australia I just want life to slow down for a second so I can clear my head and appreciate what I wont have when im gone.
Why am I doing daycare? I hate other peoples kids, What a stupid idea.
Why cant I ever say how I feel? Maybe its the fact no one asks. Maybe its the fact that people have but I can never sense they really care.
Why would i ignore something as important as whats best for me? Why would I choose rest over healing? Why would I choose an extra hour of sleep over renewal? Dont ask me. Im an Anderson.
Why why why why why does routine have to have a horrible grip on my life? Theres nothing like routine to drain all the drive and creativity out of my body, nothing like routine to ruin my days and weeks, nothing like routine to make me a miserable blob of self pity.
And most of all. Why are you so good to me, when i basically ignore you?
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i would like to think you're doing daycare to help someone who REALLY needs the help out, but if that's not the reason you're doing it, then stop. nobody but you cares that you have to put up with kids. you're looking at as a job. in that situation, it's not a good thing.
I think because he loves you.
@ janelle
i wasnt meaning it to be a self pitying statement. I AM doing it to help out. I was meaning it as in how i got there. what lead up to that cause its pretty random.
And I am looking as it as a job. because thats what it is. but i dont think its a bad thing. because if i dont I wont feel an obligation to do the best i can at it. If i dont look at it as a job i wont care. Thats just how i am.
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