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lately i feel like iv been getting up in the morning just so i can run into a brick wall the entire day.
Nothing i do in my retardadly routine filled days end up accomplishing anything. I do the same frickin thing day in day out.

wake up.
shower.
go to karbeas.
serve customers.
clean the restraunt/reset everything
drive home
sit for max 1/2 hour
drive to the barn playhouse
serve more customers
clear plates
re set
drive home
sleep

seriosly. thats what the last 2 weeks have consisted of. every day. nothing else and nothing ever done out of order. just the same thing every day and im begining to break. something in my brain is just going to go off and im going to snap and go bezerk.
im the kind of person who cannot handle routine to this extent. i need to DO something but i have incredibly no time to do it in.
i feel ill.
only 5 more working days at karbeas and 4 more at the barnplayhouse
i do hope i can last that long