Desperation

Desperation......This topic really has seemed to come up alot lately. at Youthstreet, Church, Staff Meeting and now my quiet time. So this gave me a desire to outwardly prossess all thats been going on in my head.

The main point I was challenged with is, are we REALLY desperate for Jesus, are we so Desperate for a relationship with God that everything but spending time with him seems dull and mundane and you cant even fathom choosing something else over a good, quality hang out time with Jesus.

Now. what does being desperate really mean? Its easy to say it and not know its full intended meaning. We often ask Jesus to make us desperate to seek him. but do we truly know what we are asking ?

So naturally...I was intrigued and I looked up the definition of desperation and what i found was this .....Recklessness arising from despair
Now, I started to think of what desperation could mean, in a tangible way, and I thought out a scenario in which recklessness WOULD arise from a situation of despair

Now... Imagine for a second that your drowning...
Tell me.... Is your first instinct to go and watch TV? Hang out with friends? Sleep? ( although, techincally thats what you would end up doing if that was your first instinct )
NO!, its to get AIR, and nothing else matters in that moment except to get that oxygen in order to survive. Everything that is rational, safe, and sane escapes you and your left clawing your way to the surface by any means nessasary! No matter what! thats what your body is programmed to do in such a situation. a situation of dire despair, your body is called to survival mode. Its programmed to give you that DESPERATION to fight for your life.

What also comes to mind is that Lady in the Bible who was hemmoraging for a ridiculous amount of years or something. She had no other options left. She tried everything and she was in a desperate state. So she did what she HAD to do. She PUSHED through the crowd of people , into the centre of a mob probably getting no less than stomped on and yelled at. But no matter the consequence. Her mind wasn't fixed on what people would think, or what would happen as a result of that action. The only thing she was fixed on, is the only thing she had left, and that was touching Jesus.

Desperation is like having tunnel vision. To zero on your subject. your healer, Your breath of air, and fight for it with an intensity like your life depends on it.

I love you, I respect you, and im sure your a very very nice person but GET OUT OF MY WAY because i have GOT to touch Jesus!!

So last night I prayed a very dangerous prayer. One that I understand a bit more then when i started ( but far from understanding it fully )

" Jesus. Make me desperate for you "