Control

I dont want to wake up tomorow so dont even try
Leave me to dream and walk on by
Im not up for the challenge of living today

Iv fallen victim to another stereotype this week.
If you think you know who I am. you dont. I! dont even know who I am





Highschool is flying by so fast lately.
You would think I would be excited but it just leaves more uncertainty and stress exposed as the days are slowly decreasing before everyone ( including myself ) expects me to have my life all together.

Everything that I thought was going to fall nicely in place is falling everywhere but where its supposed to.
Why cant one thing in my life go without uncertainty or somewhat along the lines of what I expect

But I guess its not about what I expect. Its about what God has planned
And thats harder for me to accept than you might think.
I like to be in control of things, and just to show me. Hes taken that comfortable steering wheel with the super sporty cover and the breaks have been cut.

Sometimes I wish the Lord didnt work in mysterious ways. But that wouldnt be any fun.
I couldnt imagine not being able to go hurdling down a hill at a very high speed without steering or breaks.

Its exhilerating but at the same time you just want it all to stop before you launch off the cliff and smash into the canyon at the bottom.