maybe its because its physically impossible for me to rest? I work an 8 hour day 11 - 7 , the entire day on my feet , not "allowed" to take a break ( we are "allowed" but its always busy so they dont let you ) because its all in the biz. and i come home. change and usually go out right away, come home and stay up till 4 because i cant effing sleep.
I go out because i crave to be around people or im depressed and i stay up because my body hates me. and refuses to shut down before 4 am.
or maybe its just because im extremely stressed and my body doesnt know what to do with itself. .... most possibly.
i hate that stress has taken up such a huge part of my life. its so enevitable its like a heartbeat, or a breath of air. ( repugnant stale air mind you )
it just bursts into my buisness throughout the day. and leaves just as fast, but usually likes to hang out with me for at least 3/4 of my day.
I guess im just good company
I just want someone to be able to tell me everythings going to be alright....
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i feel you. a lot. sadly, for me, when someone tells me i'm going to be alright, i can't believe them.
less than 60 days.
dear steph,
if you don't blog soon, i will get in my neon, drive to your house, ring your doorbell, and when you answer, kick you in the crotch.
love
jess
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