It's Dangerous Business Walking Out Your Front Door


So this weekend was full of enjoyment/ lack of sleep.
On friday morning our grade 12 class left to go camping at memorial lake. Im not too keen about that lake but hey. It was alright.
It was pretty cold up until the last day and at nights I almost froze my face off I swear, I was wearing a hoodie, a winter jacket, mitts and a wool touque and I was still freezing.

All in all it was a pretty eventful trip from water/land polo ( which was really cold but hey i still played in the water haha ) to playing Iv never around the campfire.

But definatly the best part of the weekend was the Underoath/Alexisonfire/ The Used ( there was another band that I missed. I heard they were good but i didnt catch there name so if anyone knows can you inform me please? ) And hanging out with Laurel and seeing Zach again after I found them that is. I saw tons of people there that I knew and really didnt expect to see there so that was sweet.

But anyways...I got lost coming there...haha yah...thats right, Lost going to prairie land park...shut up.
Anyways. As a result of that madness I missed the first band. But came in time to see Underoath. Which is who I came for. So i was happy
They put on an insanly good show. They have so much energy when they play and they sound really good live. To be honest I didnt expect that.
They put on the best show Iv been to I think. I was blown away.
They played almost all my favorites and a new song which i thought was pretty sweet. So really. I had a perma smile on all night.
I still dont understand how someone can drum and sing at the same time. But hey.

But I really respect them because near the end of their concert they said "we do everything we do because of Jesus Christ."
Thats awesome to see seeing as right after that The Used came out and were just dropping F bombs left and right and getting everyone to " lift there middle fingers into the effing air" I stayed for 2 or 3 songs of theirs and then Me lance David Thomas and Steph decided wed rather go get some subway...so we did.
Its awesome to see them still playing for the glory of God and still rocking out and having fun at a " non christian" joint.

So all in all. Best weekend ever.

Im just a fool for you...

My week can be summed up as so. Sometimes Gods plans definatly arent my plans.

It says in the bible that God wants to give you the desires of your heart. And im starting to think one I asked for isnt one of the desires he wants to give me right now.
I prayed about something. I asked for a clear answer. and I think I got it. The answer was "wait"
Thats possibly the worst answer ever.
But you know. Im alright with that.
Im bummed forsure. but you know. God obviosly has bigger plans for me at the moment.

I got this e-mail tonight and heres what it said

Relationships
Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone, to have a deep and fullfilling relationship with one another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively.
But God says, "No! Not until you are satisfied, filled and content with being loved by me alone. I love you my child.
Until you discover that in me is your satisfication, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you.
You will never be united with another until you are united with me, exclusive of anyone or anything else.
Exclusive of any other desires or longings. I want you to stop planning and wishing. Allow me to bring that person to you. You just keep watching me, expecting the greatest things.
Keep listening to and learning the things I tell you. You just wait! That's all. Don't worry, and don't look around at the things other people have or the things I give them.
ou just keep looking up to me or you will miss what I want to show you. When you are ready I will surprise you with a love more wonderful than you could ever have dreamed of.
You see, it will happen when you are ready and when the one I have for you is ready. I am working this very minute to have you both ready at the same time. Until both of you are satisfied exclusively with me and the life that I have planned for you, you will not be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with me.
This my dear one is perfect love. And I want you to have this wonderful love, I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with me. to enjoy materially and concertely that everlasting union of perfection and love that I offer you with myself.
Please know that I love you dearly. Believe it and you will be satisfied.
Just remember this.
Love Your Daddy


So that was pretty cool and definatly cleared up alot of things. Im also thinking the whole giving up music thing to spend time with God ties in with this whole crazy plan

But instead of worrying and complaining im going to go along with it. I dont know where it will take me but I know it will be far greater and more rewarding than I can imagine

But I dunno. If you guys could pray for me if youd like...that would be awesome. ( you know . patience. those kind of things )

Oh yah if anyone who reads this knows any details..such as names..I dont REALLY want the whole internet world to know. so dont...say anything haha.

Like a shout through an empty sanctuary. Speak but a whisper,I’ll hear a sermon...


I think my lack of sleep last night has given me too much time to think.
Right now I'm stuck in a state of mind that I don't want to have. Something isn't right, but I don't know what, and I don't know what to do about it.
It's frustrating to see that something in me is incomplete, but not knowing what's missing.

*sigh*

On friday we leave for our grade 12 camping trip. And im not as excited as I was before. Why you ask? Because its going to be freakin cold! Uuugh... Whats more depressing than knowing winters coming? Nothing I say.

But I guess it has its benifits. Fall = Thanksgiving and Thanksgiving = food
Also I think fall is my favorite season ever. Even though its cold and everythings dying and the fact that school comes with fall. Its absolutly gorgeouse!



I love the colors and I love the sound of the wind rushing through the leaves and pushing the already fallen ones across the ground.
I love taking peaceful fall sunset walks, and watching the leaves break free of the trees they clung onto and gently twirl to the ground.
And how whenever the wind blows or a car drives by, it stirs up a whirlwind of beautiful colors.


Now I just wish I had my camera so I could take pictures. But noooo! It got stolen.
Im a curse when it comes to cameras. Its also very ironic how thats what I want to do after school.
Boo urns.

Watch me die - Underoath


I lay as this sacrifice to this unholy altar
The evil inside Satan; Satan sit and watch me die
Demented screams, tortured beings, where's your hope,where's your smile, there was none
Life of lies gone, gone no more
So upset, so distraught, I'm sorry, I'm Sorry... I live for the Lord
Watch me die no longer I am alive
My purpose no more... I live for Christ
Dead to sin, only begin, imagine what's for Soldier of Christ
Changed with a new beginning, blood of the lamb, white washed sins
Forgive me God for all of these years of my transgressions
I cry renewed, I cry renewed This world means nothing to me
My life changed I now see Crucified with Christ,the old self left with the rest of this world, rest of this world
Kneel before his throne, home now from this journey
I see my father in his arms finally found
This path I have chosen is hard but I'll make it with my saviors help
I survive this hell till the end I'll stand true
Eternal life, ready for the fight that the evil brings
No giving in... I'm freeThe fire burns engulfing all the victims in it's path, no where to run
Over taken they give in to surrender to the Lord once, and for all
No longer keeping quiet, no longer standing still,no longer giving in, no longer going back
I stand strong praying for love always to be in my heart



Those lyrics are intense. Sorry about the two posts a day but I thought I needed to show you guys them


the song sounds kind of creepy but really cool

We're nothing short of invinsible...

Song playing : Underoath - Its dangerous buisness walking out your front door


I love looking forward to things. I think thats what keeps me motivated to finish off the school week. Like the Grade 12 camping trip this weekend then right after that the UNDEROATH concert! Im so excited to hang out with some of my favorite people from camp and the best part is its at a freaking sweet concert.
But after this weekend I dont think I have anything to look forward to so thats going to stink.

Todays a day that I just feel like keeping in my headphones and ignoring the world. But after this weekend I know I shouldnt do that anymore and its already proving to be difficult. I do it on impulse. Turn on my cd player or sit down on the computer and put on music. Its only the first day after the weekend. and Iv already spent the majority of my day listening to music. That or at least half.

Ugh sorry im rambling. Im really bored I have double spare. One before lunch and one after. And some of you may ask why im not at home. I have my reasons. good reasons. Trust me on that.

Lastly.I still feel sick from last night.
Who all will join my in boycotting McDonalds forever?

This is the first day of my life. Im glad I didnt die before I met you...

Song playing: Alexisonfire - polaroids of polarbears

Ugh.. I feel so distraught right now. My thoughts arent processing the way they should its like a billion words running through my head in diffrent directions, crashing into one another. And I know I should be doing something but im not. For reasons that I dont know. Im worrying for no reason and its really stupid.
I already can tell im not gonna get sleep tonight. And I dont even know the reasoning behind this jumble...uuugh I wish it would just leave my head hurts...

On another note..

I just got in from heritage and boy was it fun.
I had some amazing talks with some people and got to know others alot better.
I had next to no sleep and many halarious conversations as the result

But one of things I wanted to focus on here is something I definatly didnt want to hear from God ..or anyone for that matter. And if you know me this is a big deal.

So during chapel one night. Lance is sharing about how he has alot of cd's and how material possessions in the end arent worth it and all that.
Then I sensed this voice saying something like " So,...steph. You listen to lots of music dont you?...you consume your day with it dont you?"
by then im thinking to myself " pfft...naaah your kidding. me?" and that was obviously a total lie so I heard
" no... no I think you do. Maybe you should give up some of that time that you spend listening to music and actually spend it with me. Your blocking me out. How can I speak to you if theres always constant noise"
Thats something I definatly didnt want to hear at the time. I do consume my day listening to music. It has such an effect on me and I let it become a part of my everyday life and for me to give that up is going to be a big stretch.
I didnt feel that I needed to give it up completly because I dont think God is making me give up something I love so much. But cut back on it and in the time that I could be listening to music or playing it. I could spend a little time with God instead.


So yah. that was my weekend in a nutshell. And im out because i feel like im going to vomit
( Screw you mcdonalds!! )

I'll show you a picture. A picture of tomorrow. There's nothing changing, It's all sorrow...

Song playing - The Wedding - Morning air

Spares are beginning to tick me off. They are extremly boring. I have no life and I'm too lazy to walk home.

Oh well at least I think I'm providing some entertainment for some of you.. I hope.

Heritage is tomorow and I'm super excited. And for those of you who arent from Dalmeny who read this. Its a cabin up north that our youth group goes to for a youth retreat.
Its awesome cause I always come back with better friends because there is so much bonding time.
The place is so darn beautiful. Its impossible not to sense God when your there. When you look around you. You see beautiful creation in every direction. Incredible. Sunsets, Northern lights, Sunrises, Fog over the lake. I can hardly wait.

Anyways I'm gonna leave off with something that was on my myspace blog.

is it wrong that my heart is in a different place than i am.
is it wrong that where im from isnt where i want to be from.
is it wrong that sometimes i need a song to forget about my troubles.
is it wrong that sometimes i laugh when i should cry.
is it wrong that sometimes i say what people want to hear instead of what they should hear.
is it wrong that i have a passion for something i hardly even know.
is wrong to have more then you deserve.
is it wrong to run from reality once and a while.
is it wrong to have feelings.
is it wrong to wear jeans to church.
is it wrong to let simple details slip your mind.
is it wrong to know more than you thought you knew.
is it wrong to be myself.
is it wrong.

For Teri ( Haircut David was talking about )

Sorry everyone else. Teri just wanted to see a style of hair shes never heard of...and I couldnt think of any other way to show her. because explaining did no good... so its kinda like this
( ahh the magic of google )

so its kinda like that..that was the best i could find. cause i have tons of spare time.... your welcome for the useless knowledge lol

( after she sees this i will most likely delete this post so no worries everyone else )

I dont care, I could go anywhere with you and id probably be happy...

So its second class spare and im trying to write a poem about the praries.
I can never write poems when someone gives me a specific topic. So if anyone has any ideas send them my way!

I did post it. But then i realized it just sucked. So nuts to that.

My computer crashed the other day. And i backed up nothing. Thats right. nothing.
So all my pictures/music/ everything got deleted and im pretty peeved. All my pictures from my philidelphia missions trip...camp... everything

Hey so if anyone has pictures from camp do you wanna send me them by any chance? to my e-mail.
And i cant remeber all the songs i had. So song suggestions would be appreicated to.

This is just a suggestion...ful post. sorry bout that.

And I know this probably isnt going to work. But just so i have an idea. everyone who reads my blog do you wanna leave a comment saying you do. that would be sweet.

Thanks guys

C is for cookie, thats good enough for me ...

I changed my template because I like this one a jillion times better than my green one. lots of people have this one though. oh well. I like it.

Im offically addicted to cookies.

Seriosly. My mom NEVER bakes. Today I wake up and I smell cookies and im thinking to myself " uh oh...I smell cookies... i think im having a stroke" but then i quickly realize its burnt toast you smell so I hop out of bed to go investigate.
I come upon my mom...in the kitchen ( if you know her. thats pretty amazing in itself )
and she was BAKING!
I looked at her and asked...mom...*in a nervouse scared voice* what are you doing?
She replied with " baking cookies.... i think im sick "

but they were super good. they werent even burnt which is a miracle in itself. so its all good. Now all is back to normal with my mom never to be seen again in the kitchen ( unless its cleaning or doing the dishes or something. that I will allow haha)


Me and Jess went out to the park today and took pictures. I will post some later. Lots turned out good.

Until then.
Chillinize.

Oh I almost forgot. I found this on Jess's myspace page and I thought I would give it a try

Spell your name with your:
NOSE: stteppj
TONGUE: steph ( ew )
CHIN: steslophgb ( huzzah! )
FEET: awww nooo... fine....stwph
EYES CLOSED AND ONE FINGER: steph ( woah howd i do that )
BACK OF YOUR HAND:3 x7t65e5p[uih ( is that possible? )
PALM: sterp[;hj
WRIST: stephn

hurrah that was fun. I hope you liked my commentary as well

Goodbyes are definatly not my thing...


So Stacey left for BC last night...for two years...and I cried.

Im terrible with goodbyes. Honestly. I have only cried in 1 movie in my life. and no books or any of that junk. But when it comes to goodbyes I just lose it.

Shell be back for christmas and stuff. But that still means no more going out for coffee and talking about boys. No more chicken lemon rice and no more stacey massages. That is until she comes back.. but still....

We had a little shindig for her last night. And some of her other friends threw her a suprise thing too. So she was quite the popular lady last night. It was fun im glad shes doing what she wants to do now

So stacey if your reading this. I wish you the best of luck and I will most definatly keep in touch with you.
Your amazing and I miss you tons already.

The artist formerly known as the concept of anatomy

So im here anxiously awaiting carrie to get home. Why you ask? And to that I say. Because
shes bringing me a fish, Foo.

Thats right. A goldfish.
And im keeping it in my nalgene and taking it with me wherever i go.
And for those of you who say " ooooh how mean! its going to die!",... its not. Ill be careful. I promise.
I even got those little gravelly bits in the bottom
And yes. I have fish food

I am now taking name suggestions. I have 3 so far and they are
1. anatomy
2. the artist formerly known as the concept of anatomy
3. Cootie

I will now be open for suggestions and i will pick the best of the suggestions.

Now start those suggestions!



EDIT:
apparantly they dont sell goldfish at walmart anymore. So im gonna go into petland later this week. so the fish will be post poned

I'll be wrapped around your finger

So it was the first real day of school today. Its third class and I have double spare...and im terribly bored. Web msn is blocked on these computers too... Hoorah.

Grade 12 is Better than I thought it would be actually.
But I have a feeling that this year is going to be really really diffrent, Its just in the way that everybody is acting towards each other. I sense tension between some people and it sucks.

I want to wake up one morning , go through my day to day exisentce with the usual tasks at hand. but after i shower and put on clothes . i want to place my wallet into my pocket and walk away.
I want to keep walking until i am gone from this idiotic routine.
gone from the people who have no respect for me.
from the people who think i should apologize all the time
i want to leave every materialized item in my room leave it where it sits and just leave
lately it seems as though everything around me has been a blur
and i feel as though i have been stepping away from everyone, or everyone away from me
and yet i have been watching
i have been watching everything and trusting nothing
not even the words that have spewed from the mouths of those whom i trust
those words that trickle over there lips seems as though they could merely be lies upon lies
the truth where does it ever really exist
there have been moments though when i take a small step forward again and then from the mere dissapointment i have taken two more back
in my mind i am lost
thats really all there is to this
i no longer trust the words i hear or the things i see
i no longer trust my stance on the ground where i stand
i trust nothing except for Jesus and that perphaps my life will be put back in order soon.

I bet you build me up this high just so i can crash a little harder

I had another bad day so yes the title applys

wow. whenever school nears my days start flopping
For the past 2 days everyones been acting weird to me and mistakes from last year have come backto bite me in the face. And the worst part is i could have avoided it if i put in a freaking Smidgen of effort.

It seems like I get put on this high. A long stream of good days. I feel as if everyones watching me climb up my little happiness ladder while they chuckle to themselves and play rock paper scissors to decide whos turn it is to run over and push me down leaving me back where i started in this first place.

This times diffrent. It feels like when I fell I broke both my legs

For once id like to stay up there on my own happiness ladder.I have way too many things to worry about lately and its stressing me out to huge degrees But i guess troubles and junk is what makes us human right?....right?

I guess today wasnt ALL bad. we had a gym blast at our school and corwin came and did it so that was sweet. Our group was the smallest and we still won. Woot!


anyways,... photography


This is that same truck that I took the picture of the broken glass a couple posts back

Waking life

This is a quote in the movie waking life. Pay attention now, You kind of have to think

(Main character walking down the street with a man who is holding a can of gasoline).

The self-destructive man feels completely alienated, utterly alone.
He's an outsider to the human community.
He thinks to himself, "I must be insane."
What he fails to realize is that society has, just as he does, a vested interest in considerable losses, in catastrophes.
These wars, famines, floods and quakes meet well defined needs.
Man wants chaos. In fact, he's got to have it.
Depressions, strife, riots, murder, all this dread.
We're irresistibly drawn to that almost orgiastic state created out of death and destruction.
It's in all of us. We revel in it. Sure, the media tries to put a sad face on these things, painting them up as great human tragedies, but we all know the function of the media has never been to eliminate the evils of the world.
No! Their job is to persuade us to accept those evils and get used to living with them.
The powers that be want us to be passive observers.
And they haven't given us any other options outside the occasional purely symbolic participatory act of voting.
You want the puppet on the right or the puppet on the left?
I feel the time has come to project my own inadequacies and dissatisfactions into the socio-political and scientific schemes.
Let my own lack of a voice be heard.

(He pours gasoline all over himself and lights himself on fire.)


An intensely great quote. I love this movie, Seriosly. everyone go out and rent it or something right now.

So that post was totaly pointless. So ill leave off with another photography thing

A no tresspassing sign by the railroad tracks

This pain has made it hard to breath...

As you probably can tell by now. my titles have nothing to do with the actual post and are lines from songs i like and dont mean anything unless you pick it apart and be all intellectual. So chances are if theres a relation i didnt mean for it. But if there is ill probably explain it

Anyways, i don't understand why people are so vocal about slagging off one another because they are into something that you're not, i'm speaking more from a musical viewpoint more than anything.
If we can appreciate our diversity in our race, colour, etc and clearly can see that no two people are the same why then are we so close minded?
I hate it when people bash a type of music because its something they dont normally listen to and then refuse to listen to it. If you dont like it. thats fine, just dont generalise everything.
The principals are the same, why can't we just appreciate something for what it is?
I'm not even going to try to apply this to anything outside of music because it gets so complicated there, but i will say this...
In an effort to form an opinion on big matters are we ever going to know the absolute truth about things unless you know what's going on firsthand?
Even then does that justify that your reasoning is right?
Maybe i should stop there before i start getting into stuff i don't know anything about...


Anyways. Photography of the day...my old guitar against my amp. Horrah...

Good News For People Who Love Bad News.

I'm a nice girl. A good girl. A caring for strangers girl.
I can take a lot of crap from a lot of people a lot of the time. But in the month of September and october, I expect the crap to go my way. Just for those months, I demand that people think only of me.
Even people I don't know and people I will never know. Is it fair? Is it reasonable? Ask me in September or october, and I'll tell you that you should shut up directly and think thrice before asking me such insane questions.
Ill tolerate Halloween only because its older than me, its at the end of the month, and sometimes I'm up for a haunted house or two (which, I suspect, were created solely for my personal satisfaction. You guys can thank me for haunted houses anytime, though. You don't have to wait until October.)
But like Halloween has delicious candy, Thanksgiving has delicious everything. So ill tolerate that as well ( thanksgivings in october right?)
I expect the skies to be clear, unless I'm in the mood for cloudy weather
I expect never to run out of gasoline, to magically find money in my pockets, and for my hair to always look delicious, yes, delicious, without having to do anything to it.
I expect to get smarter without trying and I expect to have any number of small good things happen to me - just because!


Haha...yeah right. Man wouldnt life be sweet if it ran like that though. But seriosly I have been taking alot of crap from people lately. But i dont expect any of the above to happen although that would be pretty sweet.

Anyways. You might be asking yourself. hey steph. Why the two posts in one day? To that , this is my reply. Because i have no life.

Me and Stacey went into starbucks this evening after me and my dad went in this afternoon. to complete the number of 3 starbucks coffee's for me today.
I had a caramel frappacino, caramel machiattio, and and iced caramel machiatto.... lol. i decided to try every caramel thing there.
Anywho. as me and stacey were sitting there. This guy turns to us and says. Hey girls. wanna watch my coffee i forgot to lock up my bike.
We said sure and just sat there doing nothing. And he comes back says thanks not knowing we didnt do anything.
So a few minutes later he turns to us and says. "Hey do you girls wanna go see my dads car ( this guys like 45 by the way )
So by now me and stacey are pretty freaked out as he reaches into his back pocket.
To our relife he pulls out a picture of it. and hands it to us. and says all this junk about cars that i dont understand.
When hes done rambling i shoot a glance at stacey and say. hey....its about time to go lets just drive around ok bye. And ran.
kind...of frightening

Yep... old men DO scare me.

Heres another photography of the day...because im bored

its jess by the old beer gardens at the baseball diamonds

If you've lost your faith in love and music the end wont be long...

Ahhh....Back from camp.

It was a tough week but tons of fun. God stretched me in a few ways.

Having Carrie Katie Jaclynne and Ness in my cabin was really good. those girls are so much fun. they were really outgoing which made it super fun.
Me and carrie kind of had a little war going on with laurels cabin. lol there cabin cheer was
"we are sandpiper
we dont wear diapers
we all drive vipers
we are sandpiper"
So we made a cheer to say back to them and it went like this
"Hey sandpiper,
We dont see your vipers
But we sure see your diapers
OOOOH SNAP!"
Haha...yeah were cool. admit it

I miss everyone so much. Im actually gonna try keeping up some camp relationships and call people this time to do something cause it sucked last year when i didnt.

One good thing about camp too. I was not craving music as much as i did before. Because for some reason they put me in mountain biking again. And we just sent the kids out on scavenger hunts and stuff because we were lazy and zach was in the shop always playing awesome music. so that was a huge relife.

So school starts on wensday.....boo and yay.
Lots of people are saying it was their best year and it went by really fast. so I hope thats true.
Last first day of school ever. Got all my supplys. So I hope it goes just as fast as the summer did

Haha. while getting my school supplys. I had such a craving for starbucks the whole week so i went in this afternoon and got 2... just for me. haha. im so unhealthy

and for the last random comment of the day. I really wanna go to the underoath concert. Does anyone want to come with me? I was gonna go with laurel but i dont know how im gonna meet up with her. So if anyone wants to come tell me

Quote of the week:

What the duece!?


Photography of the day


Its Carrie!... on...leopky! ....hoorah

I need to keep spinning.im practicing for the ch-maj-pionships
-Andrew Kessler


NOOOOOO! i honestly wrote up EVERYTHING and my internet deicded to turn off for no reason whatsoever...so this is a very condensed version of what i wrote
I might elaborate later if anyone is intrested


Redberry staff windup

lots of food

Bonfire. dug a hole and lit it on fire. dug a trench, set that on fire. flung flaming peices of sand around ( note: all done by zach carsten and ryan... not me lol )

Hottub

Hung out for 3 hours in a cabin with Andrew Teri Steven and Eric lol. where it was halarious because andrew was half asleep and making no sense if his life depended on it. I also learned alot about girls...from a guy , lol weird

Attempted to watch the sunrise with zach, steph, teri, and...other people who i cant remeber their names. gave up and went inside for a bit

Finished watching the sunrise with Zach and Steph and Teri

Complained of how tired and hungry we were until we all left

But heres a glimpse into the halarity. dun dun dun dun.....QUOTES!


Andrew- Which way do i spin better guys?Left or right?
Steven- Uh...left
Andrew- OK! *spins around*

I gotta keep spinning im practicing for the chmajpionchips
- Andrew

All you haveta do to figure out the magority. is figure out the minority
- Andrew

Ugh, im giving birth to a pig and it coming out my belly button
- Steph ( no not me )

Man, i thought there was a man with a beard staring at us through the window, Then i realized it was a curtain
- Me

Steven - Try spinning left and right at the same time
Andrew- Thats too hard!

If I had a stick. I would SO be poking that fire right now
- Me

Marlen *shouts from pool because they were uhm...mini nipping.. i guess* GIRLS! stay in your cabin!
Steven- ....ok!



ok...thats quite enough. lol see you in a week.

Me and carrie are definatly in a cabin with ness jaclynne and katie. its going to be a BLAST!



Zach... i still have a craving for mennonite sausage, perogies and BBQ'd corn on the cob. Thats gonna last for months. *grumbles*

Two of us, Flipping through a thrift store magazine. It's Indie rock'n'roll for me...

So my big news is I didn't even get to ride with no seatbelts...not even in the motor home! I was so mad.
I had to go with my brother because there were too many flowers in the back and I came home early because the reception was a gong show.
The groom and the best man were wasted by 8 and I had to take care of their kid the whole time and during the span of like..an hour and he puked on me twice. It was nice, I love smelling like rotting milk
*everyone take a note of that for future referance*

But yeah, I don't want kids.
Honestly.
There not all cute bowls of sugar and candy all the time. Oh no.

More often than not they are not-very-cute bowls of puke and poop with a lot of grumpiness
sprinkled all over the top.

I dont think i could take a kid crying and grunting all the time because you dont know what the heck they want.
And as they try to communicate with gurgles and screams they are puking and all that jazz for however long until it takes them to learn how to walk and talk.

Thats when the terror begins.
Screaming machines that have no decrease in energy.
They go everywhere they arent supposed to go and you have to be chasing after them before they crack there heads open on something.
*takes a breath*

I like other peoples kids. As long as I dont have to take care of them or take them home.

Anyways. Heres the comic of the day and (2) photos of the day cause i missed last time



















These were both taken at that freaky gas station i mentioned...a long time ago across the railroad tracks in Dalmeny

Is this what they call love on a saturday night?...


Poop.
Redberry called me back and they have no room for me.
Oh well.
Im kind of excited for this wedding tomorow, I get to ride there in a motorhome . I've always wanted to drive somewhere and sit at a table at the same time without the restraints of a seatbelt.

Anywho CARRIES BACK TODAY!!( or tonight). I miss her a whole bunch:(
I also miss florida now im thinking of it. But I miss carrie more. I hope shes back earlier tonight so i can see her or else i wont be able to for another week

And braden got his license!! congrats ( even though you dont read this )
. Now all thats left is jess * shoots a glare in her direction *lol

anywho..heres another comic... enjoy

P.S. Everyone try the phili steak pizza at panago pizza, Its A- Freaking- Mazing

Sigmund

Ok. So i think i might be going back to camp on Sunday to go work on work crew. It depends if they call back tomorow or not. I hope I get in.

Im going to be at a wedding on saturday... hoorah.
Actually i think it will be kind of fun. Its outside and iv never been to an outdoor wedding. I hope its nice out, if its not im going to be very angry

Anyways..thats my small blurb and I am too lazy to think of a random story so ill just tell you a true one


The reason why i never write down any of my dreams anymore:
One morning i woke up and found a peice of paper, And written in half asleep chicken scratch was
"Rick Ruben and his 5 foot comb"
My initial reaction was ...what in the world... Then i thought who is this rick ruben charachter...so decided to google it and this is what i found:


# 1.....aaah thats a little creepy..apparantly hes a music producer...
#2 Why do i have no reccolection of this man or his 5 foot comb?. let alone this dream.. It seems i would have woken up screaming...but i guess not


im also gonna have ANOTHER new trend until the resources run out cause i lost my camera...but photography of the day ( or so )


This was taken in the field kind of behind the elementry school on some cut wheat around last year sometime. i dont really remember.

I disabled the comments on the post below.. cause some...blog spam? ( i didnt know there was such a thing ) i presume was being sent to me.
I dont know if its going to do it again but as for now. if you have comments on that praticular post just comment on this one

At Colins request...

Colin says this kind of humor has to be spread out the world so I am going to start putting my comics on here if I can manage to download hello.
I also used to write really weird stories/poems. So ill be posting one a-time i post.


So for today. Im going to put a normal one i wrote for art.

I wish life had background music

If Hollywood has taught me anything
It is to expect my days to be filled with background music
It would account for my tragically boring, soap opera of a life

Iv always wanted background music
It would play wherever i would go
Every moment would feel like a movie
There would be no reason to skip songs
For this is the soundtrack of your life

You would always know when something bad was going to happen
It would also make those exciting moments
That much more exciting
No more awkward silences
Just awkward beats
Silence would no longer be golden

Think if you could insert laugh tracks
To save you from your lame jokes
There would be songs for the sad times
Mad times, and even the glad times

But until that time comes
I'll just wear my headphones


Song reccomendaiton for the day : The Strokes - Under control
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EDIT : turns out i didnt need to download hello...so heres the comic of the day


Shoot it scanned wonky...well its supposed to say this would be WAY cooler if i was wearing short shorts

So, I noticed there are alot of ladies in the crowd....


Yeah so I wrote half of this up and my computer decided to shut off. So here i go again


Me and Jess went to the ex today.
We got in line for the ferris wheel only to find out i needed to get my card traded in for a wrist band. why they wouldnt do that when you came in confuses me. so we hadta go in the ticket line twice.
Then when i got on the ferris wheel i sat in a puddle...hoorah

Then I think we went to go eat some greasy pizza and spudnuts and proceeded to the funhouse

There i got hit on by a freaky carnie who smelled of cabbage.
So he grabs my arm to scan my wristband..pulls me in closer and says. Hey, How YOU doin'
So all freaked out im like...uh...good. then walked away really fast

Nothing but clowns scares me more than carnies. seriosly. either overly skinny or overly overwieght men with cigarretes hanging out of their mouths . arms covered with tattoes staring at people as they go by " hey...wanna ride" and they stink of cabbage. I swear. That or sweat. Ew...*shudders*

ANYWAYS. off to line up for the Kalan Porter concert....an hour before the gates open... Were cool. So we met up with Travis and he proceded to tell us how cool we were until we got in. But in that time 3 people came up and talked to us
"your really going to see this concert"
"do you think your actually going to like it"
"why are you lined up so early"
and when we got in we had to wait for an hour and 45 minutes. we were on the floor and we could have waited for another 2 hours and still got the same spot. But it was fun.
I had the hiccups and Jess was getting annoyed she also pointed out I drank like 3 things in an hour.

So the concert starts and i swear. The screams were louder than the music. But he did suprisngly well. His band was freaking amazing. But me and Jess thought the guitar player was a chick...what...he was wearing pink and had hair longer than mine!...anyways Kalan is insane on the violin. my favorite was the devil went down to georgia. SO good.

But anyways. Half way through the concert hes like "So, i noticed there are alot of ladies in the crowd" So me and jess said to ourselves " No theres not! hes lieing! lets break his legs"
Then he said " is anyone out there single" And at that point i think my eardrums broke
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IM SINGLE KALAN PICK ME!!
it was ...halarious to say in the least

So overall the concert was pretty good i had fun

Then the bus ride to the Roberts car...oh the bus ride...
Honestly. Why do the most surreal things happen to me on a bus.
So first we get there. Theres no driver. So we sit down anyways. She comes and takes off. seemingly really fast for a bus.
Then we proceed to drive down streets i dont recognize that felt like a speed we shouldnt be going. And i can hear a person on the radio in the background talking to the bus driver... i dont know why that was weird but trust me... it was
And a man farted...that was sick
so this ensues for a while until i hear a thump then i feel something wet on my face.
By now everyones looking around seeing what the heck it was. And i see green all over the place. then i see a fruit. Lying on the ground. Yes...somebody threw a fruit...into a bus....while we were driving....
So by now me and Jess are wanting to wake up and we drive into this empty parking lot. do a circle. Come out and stop at the bus stop
Me and Jess run to the car. and the surrealism doesnt stop. I look at jess and the way the light is hittting her it looks like a dream. And her parents...well were just surreal and i cant even explain it. it had to do with a cellphone though.
then we stopped at the post office....at 11 at night....
then finally i was home.

Thats it for my... weird...weird day sorry if it makes no sense whatsoever. i had fun

Sugar we're going down...

Today... i'll tell you what i dislike:

> People with a general blah-attitude about everything (ie. not passionate about anything)
> Back in the day (and still existent) when those tricky people come up from behind you, put their hands over your eyes and then says in a disguised voice, "guess who!"
> hearing birds chirp when it's bedtime
> Ignorant people
> People who dont have an open mind
> When people are really loud at like...2 Am
> When people forget to turn off their turn signal
> People who dont use their turn signal at all
> Small talk
> People who wear band shirts and dont even listen to that band
> Plastic wrappings on Cd's
> People who claim to be punk but they are really not, and its obviose
> Elvis impersonaters and the people who pay to see them
> Rap "music"
> People who carry around skateboards and dont even use them
> Repetative songs
> When the radio starts fuzzing and losing reception and the driver doesnt change the station
> People who lip sync in concerts
> People who try to act and look rebellious ( kinda falls in with punk )
> Thin guitar picks
> Being the last person to find out about literally everything possible in my family



Man i have alot of dislikes... I need a life. lol


Nicole

01. Comment with your name, and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie reminds me of you.
03. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
04. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
05. Then I'll tell you my silliest memory of you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.


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1. Nicole is a great person who is younger than me. ha.
anyways. shes great and crazy and i love her. i wish we could hang out more your crazy

2. Movie - Thirteen ( because i saw it with you )
Song - Lover i dont have to love - Bright eyes

3. Outgoing

4. Visiting that creepy gas station haha

5. Hahaha...Backstreet boys + inflatable matresses + videocameras = halarious

6. A cat...i dont know why

7. Why we dont hang out more...but thats...not so much about you so...why...you...i dont know

Jess

01. Comment with your name, and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie reminds me of you.
03. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
04. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
05. Then I'll tell you my silliest memory of you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.

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1. Jess is a girl who is my age ( older in fact ) and is one of my very best friends. We have alot of things in common including our musical and movie taste. Thats basically all we do when we hang out anyways. she is one tubular gal *hang ten*

2. Movie : Donnie Darko
Song: Any Whitestripes song basically

3. Different ( in a good way )

4. Probably in carries living room when I was doing dancing Jan. Or when you told me you were going to get baptized

5. When we made up how Im going to pick up guys.

6. A giraffe. Because you like them...and i got you one in florida... a stuffed one

7. What kind of guy you are gonna end up with because you like very diffrent ones

I dont get it

A MUSICAL BATON

Total volume of music files on my computer:Too much as jess said...wait..not too much. NEVER too much. But in other words. i dont know

last CD I bought was: You know.. i dont really remember i think it was autumn tides or something

Song playing right now: First day of my life - Bright eyes

Five songs I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:
Is this what they call love - The Thills
Waste of paint - Bright eyes
First day of my life - Bright eyes
Gel- Collective soul
Another travelling song - Bright eyes

Five people to whom I'm passing the baton:
Nicole
Janelle
Christine
Ally
Teri

-----01. Comment with your name, and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie reminds me of you.
03. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
04. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
05. Then I'll tell you my silliest memory of you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your blog.




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Well that was remotly confusing. But thats alright

So i just got in from a family gathering. Meeting my cousins wife and kid.
It was ALOT more fun then i expected.
I met this girl that is honestly exactly like me. she even says "your face"
everyones like. man i cant even tell you two apart. and her dad was hilarious.
" if i ever made a microwave commerical it would be like..."when would YOU like to eat? Today? Tomorow? SUPER TURBO MICROWAVE-O-MATIC!!! get one now"

but yeah..im home...*waves*

These are the words of the unsophisticated money machines...


"Popstars" - Rooney

Hey Baby you've hit me again one more time
You said bye bye bye bye bye good bye
Well I don't want to be with you tonight, forever

Do you understand my monologue?
These are the words of the Popstars
These are the words of the unsophisticated money machines
,For the killers of rock and roll.

Hey digital you're nothing but a b*** on strings
You'll be milking cows before you cash the check
Well I'll just wait aroud till you fade away like the rest
Like the best of the best

Do you understand my monologue?
These are the words of the Popstars
These are the words of the unsophisticated money machines,
For the killers of rock and roll.


That song is kind of a rant for mainstream music. For video girls like Brittany Spears. The people that i loath. lol. *shudders*

I love this song. everyone go listen to it


But anyways... I've watched..ALOT of movies this week, Wow. Im not even going to try to remember them all
one i remember is the jacket . Everyone see it! SO GOOD! i absolutly loved it.

So im going up to the lake on like..Monday or Tuesday. That should be fun Jess might come with me. hoorah

But anyways..sorry for the sentances just kinda vommited on there. I didnt feel like putting them in coherant thoughts. Deal with it lol

as you can see. i have recently put a music video on here... if you dont want it on. press stop. that is all.

enjoy

EDIT:

Wow...THAT ended bladly... im trying to put it on a post...and its also ending badly. and its screwing up my page lol. if anyone knows how please tell me


On another note. i specifically told myself i wouldnt go to bed at 2 tonight...yeah...its 2 :20....
i lose.
Welp...I know what IM doing...taking half a step...to my bed....because its only half a step away...to my bed...goodnight

I wanna go back to the time when we were 5 years old

I wish I was a kid again. Seriosly.
Kids are so free. I wish I thought the world existed of only my family and my mom still did everything for me.
That was the life.

Never had any worries because you had nothing to worry about. i wish i could go back to the time where i could play with lego and not get strange looks.

Why am I on this tangent?
As sad as it seems. My dad is practicly forcing me to get a job at food town. I keep telling him theres nothing availibal there but hes forcing me to apply.
I know, I know. Im going into grade 12. its about time right? No its not a laziness thing but if im going to spend the rest of my life working. Why start when I dont have to?

I just really, really dont want to apply there. I really dont. I want to work with him like the plan was for the summer. But no, he bring this up out of the wazoo.

Ugh...to be 5 again.

im young, im hip, a ticka ticka ticka ticka



Im back from camp. Again.
It was tons of fun but also annoying and draining.

So I get there. and before hand i knew Mo was my senior counceller which was sweet. But then i found out that i got put in the skill.......mountain biking... Yeah.... talk about getting crappy skills huh?
But anyways i was in it with Mo so it was ALOT of fun. I thought I would get sick of her but I didnt.
We had some of the coolest kids in that skill. But a couple really annoying kids.. one with ADHD. It was pretty funny cause we got him to be quiet for 37 minutes cause we said we would give him a leaf. it was pretty impressive

I have like a billion stories but im gonna leave off with one story and a bunch of quotes

So there was this kid named matthew in my third skill. And he is the most accident prone person iv EVER met.
He would come every day with a new cut or something and one day he came with two. One on his leg and one across his head. So i ask him.
"matt...what did you do this time"
"I fell on my skateboard...then on my way to the nurse... i ran into a tree"
#1- Why is this child skateboarding
#2-.... on the WAY to the nurses office..

And when we were biking on the beach he would fall over literally every 3 seconds. it was sweet


Ok now here are some quotes

What?, Im young, Im hip *starts going "aticka ticka ticka" and doing the macarana*
-Jordan

Oooooh what a freeeeze
-Jordan

K chad... if your quiet for 5 minutes we'll give you a leaf..no wait. a GOLDEN leaf
-Dylan

I hate spelling bee's, Its like "alright class its time for public humiliation everyone line up. spell a word wrong and sit in front of your friends"
-Brian Regan ( a comedian we listened to on cd )

THATS something a mother wants to see. Her son dancing in a dress. He HAD to do this on parents night didnt he?
-Me

thats bogus
-Gregs cabin...all week

* I walk out of bathroom *
*bunch of my campers from last year are standing outside...they all start clapping*
Yay! thats right folks its her first time on her own.


Heh... i love fans
- me


I dont know i cant really think of anything else. ask me for stories and Ill tell you them

I got soul but im not a soldier...
The Killers - All these things that iv done

This has proved to be a boring week. I miss my friends
Not that theres anything wrong with him. But Braden is the only person Iv got to hang out with this week. I swear theres nothing wrong I just miss my other friends too . lol

Although, I did go swimming at riversdale pool and my aunties house and went mini golfing with my cousins
I hung out with Ally on...some night. I forget. But we went to kyles baseball game which they got silver in and they get to go to provincals. It was fun

I also went up to redberry for a stereotrap concert on wensday with braden which was tons of fun. He has lots of trust
Me:"Hey...yeah iv never driven on gravel at night...let alone at night at all"
Braden: "Oh well"
Haha...speaking of that. Me and my mom forgot to go get my class 5 little...licence slip thing after I got my licence so I technically drove illegally to Redberry....and everywhere I drove since monday up to today.

Do you ever put on your headphones and pretend not to hear someone? Even if theres no music playing?
I do.

Its a beautiful day...


I GOT MY LICENCE!!

So I got that guy who took me out an hour before and i reccomend one of those to everyone. He was weird. but he helped.
He sounded as if he didnt expect me to pass.
So i go in. And as im waiting EVERYONE who comes in failed so im thinking. Well crap.

So its my turn we pull out and i haveta slam on the breaks in order to not run through a red. but im right on the crosswalk. Inside my head i yell CRAP! well... i failed. This is stupid the first thing i could have possibly done and i failed.
I keep going. I suck up my first 2 paralell parks real bad. but the third one I did sweet so he didnt count the first 2. I did really good other than that but i thought those killed me

Hes sitting with me in my car after saying everything I did wrong and i was thinking " just shut up i know i failed and i wanna go home" So i kinda blocked him out until he said " i saw what you did on the road other then those things and you handled everything well ...so i put this as a pass...but practice your parralell parks"
I ended up with 9 off...yeah....9. lol

So like the idiot i am I stare at him. Blank faced and say" are you seriose" I slowly get a grin and say" Wow...THANKS!" So i practically skip all the way to SGI and tell my mom and i was all giddy and everyone in there was laughing at me

Boy it feels good. Hoorah

Stay off the roads....

im going for my license in an hour

AUUUGH im so nervous. My stomach is full of vomiting butterflies. I hope I pass

I will have an update as soon as i can after i get back

WISH ME LUCK

Love is real. It is not just in novels or the movies, It is fact And it is standing here right in front of you
Kathy with a K's song - Bright eyes

I havent done a list in a while.
So im gonna do another one about things you may or may not know about me

1. I procrastinate about folding laundry more than any other household chore
2. When i turn 18 I dont plan to vote
3. I am inspired by music on a daily basis
4. I'm afraid of stuff in the water (microbes, fish, coral, etc)
5. I can be extremly obsessive compulsive sometimes ( i like to organize things belive it or not )
6. I still have vinyl records
7. I dont really want to have kids
8. I trip over things alot
9. Breakfast is my least favorite meal of the day
10. My internal clock and get pretty screwed up sometimes
11. Im a night person
12. Im a huge fan of british humor
13. Im not as smart as the majority of my friends. Im alright with that
14. I have a weird sense of humor few people share
15. Id love to learn how to play drums but i dont think i have that much coordination
16. I dont have air conditioning
17. I hate the radio
18. I play guitar
19. Some people say i have small hands.. I dont think so. Maybe its because theirs are big
20. I love being outside more than inside
21. I would sleep outside every night if i could
22. I keep my cd's in order of my preferance
23. I have an overactive imagination
24. I love to watch people. not in a creepy way. But watch them go by in a mall
25. I’ve been known to do or say things to get a reaction out of people, just to see how they will respond
26. I’m drawn to people I perceive as strange or odd.
27. I have a habit of cracking my shoulders, neck, back and ankles
28. My instinct about people is usually right, even when I choose to ignore it
29. I use my super powers for good, always
30. I pretty much hate reality TV
31. Im in love with the idea of being in love
32. I think too much
33. I'm a window seat person
34. I have brown eyes, But i wish i had green ones. I love rich vibrant green eyes
35. I love a good intellectual and/or philosophical conversation. I rarely get one


Wow. that took a while
I hope that was intresting

These things take forever I especially am slow

so its...remotly late. not really but thats ok. and im listening to music
One of my favorite songs actually. Its extremly cute and I THINK I'm going to share the lyrics with you

its called first day of my life by bright eyes and if youve never heard it. hear it NOW one way or another


This is the first day of my life
I swear I was born right in the doorway
I went out in the rain suddenly everything changed
They're spreading blankets on the beach

Yours is the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
Now I don’t know where I am I don’t know where I’ve been
But I know where I want to go
And so I thought I’d let you know
That these things take foreverI especially am slow
But I realize that I need you And I wondered if I could come home

Remember the time you drove all night
Just to meet me in the morning
And I thought it was strange you said everything changed
You felt as if you had just woke up And you said
“this is the first day of my life
I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you
But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you
And I’d probably be happy”

So if you want to be with me
With these things there’s no telling
We just have to wait and see
But I’d rather be working for a paycheck
Then waiting to win the lottery

Besides maybe this time is different
I mean I really think you like me


Ok so now thats done. My cousins have moved in for the summer one took over my room and theyre bored already. I feel so bad.
I dont know what they can do. I thought i would bring one to youth tonight but we got there and it was cancelled.
so if anyone has any ideas of what a 10 and 12 year old can do around here...please tell me

my final thought of the night. I like the movie Garden State. You might not but i suggest you try it. its a bit hard to follow but its really good and cute.

Aw I wanna live with that kid. I should ask if I could take him on timeshare

Im back from camp! It was SO much fun.
The first day I was kinda like. Well ok, I dont wanna be here. Then as the first day rolled by it was amazing.
It stormed 3 times 2 of which had hail. that was super cool and there was a bunch of flooding.
It was basically just 4 days packed with sessions and hanging out.
We had a team building activity where we each hadta build a car out of cardboard. and at the end she asked where we got our idea and marlin was gonna say " well I thoguht so myself. If Jesus had to build a cardboard car. im sure this is what it would look like" then some other girl beat him to it and gave a crappy explanation.

Then there was the 80's dress up supper that we didnt know about until hours before. and suprisingly people had stuff to wear.
it was really ironic.

And lastly cause i think im boring you. I will tell you about my most surreal experince of my life.

So on the last day we were going up to a diffrent lake to go swimming when we already were AT a lake.
That was weird in itself
Then. All the girls get onto this schoolbus...an old...smelly...unstable schoolbus. Im thinking to myself. " what in the world are we doing"
And if it couldnt get any weirder. Picture someone like Kelly bitner. getting into the drivers seat ( for those of you who know tim bariwald thats who was driving ) And so im thinking to myself. Ok this is weird AND were gonna die.
so we get on this gravel road....on a schoolbus...to go to a lake when we are already at one and the back end starts swaying a bit as we speed over hills...in saskatchewan.
So i look over to kerri and she says to me. " you know. if i had a blog i would blog about this cause this is really surreal"
So i did

Im gonna also end off with a list of quotes from this weekend
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Toby: you know 7/5ths of people cant do fractions
Kristin: Wow. Thats like...over half!

Josh: hmm what does this say * runs hand over part of blanket that has writing*
Me: Uhm..........Your uh...stroking my leg

Toby: want some yarba
Jolenne: that looks like my dogs poo

( not really a quote but also very surreal. ironicly also iuncluding tim bariwald)
Me: *looks out window...sees its raining really hard then sees tim with a conaoe paddle in his hand walking by paddling past the window*

Zach Lucky: What?! PISS!?. YOU LIKE THE WORD PISS!

Zach Lucky: AAH she wants to kick me in the entrance! get away from me you pervert!

Wendy: I wanna play wallo pollo

Mark: I wanna take zach nightengale out on timeshare and have him as my roommate

Zach Lucky: HEY you have to do it! i played the peer pressure card!, I PLAYED THE CARD!! DO IT! DO IT!

off to camp tomorow! farewell everyone until tuesday.

I love fridays so much i wanna marry it and have fribabies
Im excited for friday

Me and Jess went into the city today and we went into music world and found a big bin that said 3 for 5$ or $1.99 each. So I was thinking to myself. $1.99!? How could I lose.
I kind of did in a way but the cd I got was...half decent. Its called Systematic.

We thought it might be some kind of crappy hip hop so I bought it for ha ha's. Yah we open the case. And it looks like a HARDCORE screamo. So by this point im thinking. Well crap. Its not even gonna be funny its just gonna give me a headache.

So i pop it in when i got home and it starts out with hardcore instruments. distortion on everything possible ,Im thinking. "Oh boy here it comes" having my finger on the stop button. but then the guy starts singing and its not half bad. Hes not screaming....at all. Which insanly suprised me. So I dont hate it.
Thats my story


Anyways tonight im gonna go to the free shows at the Jazz festival YES! im so excited. I wanted to go all week. Karinas taking me and carrie for kind of a...thanks for being youth sponsors

Grad was last night. Sad but good. Leah and cherise looked GORGEOUSE! wow. my jaw dropped when i saw them.
After grad wasnt as good as I thought it would be. Jeremy Toby and David were there which made it bearable but there were drunk people up the wazoo at a chem free aftergrad. ironic huh?
So i got home at 5. went to bed at 6 and woke up at 1. Hooray

Random comments of the day as told by me

Im pretty sure my favorite band now is the thrills. I love his voice
if your cool you would download saturday night or not for all the love in the world by them. or even buy their cd!

Camp is in 2 days!

There is a storm coming. I know this because my 6th sense toes are tingling. Also I looked at the weather website

If my name was Waldo I would hide a lot more often


Dont you hate it when your so bored you wanna just drill something into your foot or something. Yeah thats how im feeling now.

So me Lance and Reagan went to the stereotrap concert at Nutella college park this afternoon. And let me say. By the time we got there ( which took an hour or so ) It was a bunch of fun.

It was the first time I saw Mike play with them when i actually knew he was a part of stereotrap. I seen him play once before at some church where we couldnt stand up but didnt pay much attention to him because i just thought he was playing with them cause jody couldnt make it. He can play though. I quite enjoy him

There was only like...30 people there and a bunch werent even watching. Well maybe 20-30 watching and 15 hanging around at the blow up...things and food places. Overall it was pretty small but at least the day turned out to be beautiful.

There was a clown there and she walked over to us. Regan proclaimed that I needed a hug so I jumped out of my seat. ran a bit away and started covering my mouth and crying. She pretended to be scared of me. Then realized i was crying and actually scared of her. so she left.


Stupid clowns

I guess it was a pretty funny prank. I like the ones that don't involve things catching on fire.
Yeah nothing is hurt except feelings...

Life is like a circus: it contains midgets and monkeys. If you remember one thing in life you will be ok. I am not telling you what it is though.

So its the weekend. eh? and its summer! since like... 2 or 3 days ago. hoorah
I love the beach. its close to water which is fantoobulus. More people should be allowed to live in the ocean
1 week left until camp.

Im really bored right now. I just went into the city to go shopping with carrie and now im just sitting here.
being bored is the worst feeling ever I just wanna run around and scream but I know it wont help. That and my familys home.

Iv givin up trying to hide my license date so here it is....the day I will go for my license


july 11th


BAH! im so nervous. I haveta go with this...guy who takes me out an hour before i go and takes me through it and I heard hes really mean. and I hate mean people. Id rather do it on my own with no help then do it with someone whos mean. But my parents wont let me.
Im actually fairly confident that I might get it. Contrary to popular belifs I am a good driver. I swear. but im not going to get my hopes up.
Since most of you are at camp when I go. youll know if i got it if I come up to visit when the stereotrap concert is.


Sorry my posts have been really random and stupid lately.. im just bored

There is nothing so shocking as discovering you are an elephant with extra legs.

As I was walking through a life one morning, the sun was out, the air was warm, but Oh, I was cold
Ted Leo & The Pharmacists - Me and Mia

2 down 2 to go.

I PASSED BIO! hooray for credits!
and hooray for Comm. Easy easy shmeasy exam.
Boo for Law tomorow. He said it is going to take 3 hours..I didnt think id dread anything more than i dreaded Bio...but im dreading law.

Anyways. I might have told you about an allergic reaction I had to a temporary tattoo? Well if not. I had a big square of hives. It was pretty cool. ANYWAYS. Its back! I scratched it the other day and BAM! There it is again! what the heck is wrong with me! . Whenever I itch it, it hurts

8 days left until camp!

My cousins are coming to live with me this summer. Forsure for July but maybe august and maybe for a bit of school. They hadta be out of there house on july 1st and they stilldont have anywhere to live and its my job to find something for them to do all summer. hooray.....or not.
I love my cousins * its only the two youngest ones. 10 and 12* but i feel bad that they haveta go thorugh this and not know anyone here while im gone.

but anyways. my wrist is falling asleep

And when the day is through,Nothin' to do, sit around groovin' with you
Stevie Wonder - Love havin' you around

One exam down. 3 to go.

Bio was SO hard. It started off with 75 multiple choice. matching and like 7 digrams,super hard fill in the blanks/charts. It ended with an extremly hard essay on angiosporophyte reproduction. Like come on! I think I passed but i didnt do good per say.

Comm tomorow and law on friday and finally art. then in done grade 11.

MAN was the storm last night ever COOL! I was home alone though. The lightning was absolutly nuts and went until 3:30 I didnt get much sleep but it was worth it.
I got the coolest picture of a bolt but I cant downoad hello so I cant show you. sorry

But off to study for law. cause the other two exams are going to be a joke.


On another note. I CANT BELIVE Josh Palmer didnt make it into the top 10 tonight on Canadian Idol. I was so ticked.
Canadian Idols become a big mainstream joke. Seriosly. People only vote for people just cause they can sing. Reality check, Josh can sing AND he has something unique to offer. His stage presence was amazing and he was doing something diffrent.
The people who got through were cookie cutter contestants. they can sing and its nothing new and scary. People knew the songs they sang therfore its safe so have them on the show.

And your probably wondering why im making such a big deal about this. Its more of a rant to society than that Josh didnt get through. People basicaly look for 1. hot/cute 2. belting it out/glory notes 3. hype 4. choosing a well known song and hardly varying from the original.
we dont need another 19 year old blonde star...we really dont.

Ah well hes a hopeful for the wildcard pick

An ending fitting for the start, you twist and tore our love apart
The libertines- Cant stand me now

I changed my template again..the other one was too busy and confusing

I think my brain is going to implode

Bio AKA: The exam straight from hell. Is a lost cause. Iv studied for like 9 hours for it and I STILL dont remember anything

But today was my last bio class of the year and MAN did it ever go by slow I really think that was the slowest class in the history of the world. It feels like it should be tomorow

Anyways. im craving music. I havent listend to it all day..gah...and its only second class and i have poopin law next. Ugh.

Im so excited for summer though. 11 days until staff training! woo! and im going for my license..soon. but im not saying when. Iv only told...three people. so dont even think of it. ha

But i think im done being random and...stuff...so im just gonna do something else..

Indie
A gloriously vague term for Independant Music.
Basically unsigned or more obscure bands

This is the new kind of music I have been listening to. And just recently iv been hearing some stereotypes that come with it.
apparantly this music is accociated with the scene which is a bunch of people who think they are cooler than one another.
Apparantly everyone who listens to indie music thinks that othermusic and everyone who listens to anything else sucks. and they are so much better because they know of bands no one else has head of.
I would tell you about my favorite band, whose music I love, but you've never heard of it and thus you are not worth the telling.

Why does every thing have stereotypes? seriosly whats wrong with society.
I listen to "Indie" because I like the music. It doesnt mean i think im better than you because you dont listen to it
Im afriad this is becoming the new "fad". Why do I always have to get into things right when its labelled a fad and automatically im a poser for liking it.
I like it because I like it. Not because everyone else does.

Seriosly. Posers are my biggest pet peeve. So why would i want to become one.

I should just stop listening to it until this whole thing blows over.


just gimme indie rock

Fashionably Uninvited

Yes this is still stephs blog. I changed it around and im still not sure if i like it. I might change it to another one i found cause this one is kinda cluttered.
ANYWHO
i had a heck of a time intalling the comments so you better comment lots now haha

And as you can see. i added a crappy comic of the day at the top right. so click on the top button of the two

We're ordinary people we can't help but to change
The Shins- Pressed in a book

Man so many people have changed over this last year. People who were once nice are now total jerks, People who were once jerks are really nice.

Next year is going to be so weird... think about this. After exams im techically in grade 12. I graduate next school year. thats so sad.
I dont wanna leave my comfy fairytale town and venture into the real world. im too scared. But i know im going to have to leave eventually. leave the highschool life. I just seem too young to be graduating. Weird.

on a totaly unrelated topic. I hate boys and the feelings we have for them. Why cant things work out the way i want them to without all these problems and setbacks and..everything. Boys are of a confusing species.


whatever enough complaining. Hooray for only 2 days of school left.exams until monday, grad then off to camp! I can hardly wait.

I also finally booked my drivers... but im not saying when. all im saying is its in july. im so nervous.

If music be the food of love, play on

Jess's blog inspired me to write a little somethin somethin about music.

There are several things I love about music and im going to talk about them here

First of all. Theres always a band or a song for a specific emotion. If your sad, you can pick out your favorite sad song. It could go the other way too. If your sad you can pick out your favorite cheer up song.
Music can change your emotion. It can make us jump from a state of happiness to one of deep sadness and solitude, all in less than five minutes.

Music is a way of bringing back memories. For me a specific band or song can bring back such vivid memories. even if someone says a peice of a lyric it can bring me back to a certain time like it was just yesterday. Certain songs remind me of special moments or people in my life. And it brings joy. I love memories of people that I miss. If im missing someone I can just pop in a cd that reminds me of that person.
Music is great that way. I think all of us have songs we love for the connection it gives us to another person, whether they are people we love, family or friends. I've had songs in my relationships that have summed up my feelings and passion. Now they're songs I hate, for that very reason.

Music is the only form of communication that bypasses the mind and goes straight to the heart. Music has such impact on people. It can move crowds and speak to the heart, it can bring people together.
The beat can pound and you can feel it right in your gut like your sticking your finger in a outlet, a power surge just flows through you. It's awesome

Music provides a beat just to dance and go nuts. enough said.

Theres just so much diversity i dont think anyone can not like music. Theres something out there for everyone.

Each song is like a time capsule of associations. What kills me is when it's a new song you've never heard before, and you feel it at this very moment capturing the essence of it all and crystallizing it in your memory. It's a very powerful thing we you KNOW it's happening right in front of your eyes - to know that years from now, you will always remember this moment if for no other reason than this song

The intensity, it's too much to convert in to words. Some things are bigger than language.

Ok im starting to sound too smart. im leaving it at that

Feel the music

Go along with the plan.Your head will still be there where you put it. Under the bed with the ice cream you could never find
The shins- when i goosestep

I love that song^ go download it now


Sneakers- funny, laid-back, and goofy, you love to
make people laugh and have a good time. You
enjoy comfort and don't care to much about what
people think of you. You like to hang out with
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Dalmeny days was so much fun. I hung out with carrie most of friday outside. then we went to bingo then the fireworks...they werent that good but we made noises for each of them. mymom heard them and she was like " I knew it was you...your voice...carries"
Me allyce carrie braden and lance were making roll crucken or whatever however you spell it that night too until like 2 oclock then me and allyce stayed the night and went to bed at 4 because we watched moulan rouge.
Then up we were for the pancake breakfast and then dun dun dun dun.... the parage. Wow that was so much fun. Ryan decorated his car in crumpled brown paper bags and put speakers on top of his car and pumping the tunes. we were all dressed as giant brownbags and people rode longboards. we were also holding banners and stuff. we got best in show. thats right. your jealous

then off to watch some crappy baseball and sit in the sun more. hooray.

after that was a delicious BBQ thanks to Jon or as most people know him craiga's burgers...wow they were good. but then after that we had a surpise birthday for kerri sperling it was good because we said it was for allyce. but then carrie took her to martensville to get stuff for "allyces" party. then she hadta go back to her house to " get lawn chairs" and we surpised her good.

And that was by far my most eventful day because today i just sat at home doing laundry and filling water pics. and i asked my mom if i could call someone to come over while im waiting but she said no. youll get distracted
1. how can you get distracted from something when your not even doing anything
2. isnt it sad when your mom thinks you can distracted from nothing

Im scared. this is the first time iv ever burnt my arms.. i think im going to implode.

sorry about the below post. my link made the writing all messed. and i typed it out TWICE and im NOT typing it out again haha. if you really wanna see it try to copy and paste it into a word document

It should be a good day tomorow, unless i fall into a pit of spikes


Today was alright. First spare then the physed class went golfing so all i did was sit in the library and color bio. then it was double art then i totaly bombed a bio exam

After school I went to the new Long and McQuaid. I got two words for you, WOW. Wait. I guess that's one word. Well its freaking huge. I walked in and almost fell over. Guitars stretching as far as the eye can see... Well, not quite. But it's pretty huge.

Me and Jess after I got back looked like summer eskimos walking down by the old railroad tracks. we had our hoods pulled over our heads and i had my strings tied tight. Never have I seen so many bugs swarming over my head at one time. I think I am a walking mosquito bite right now.
I would try to talk to Jess but as soon as i opened my mouth my sentances would consist of me spitting the bugs out of my mouth. That wasn't too much fun. Well the walk was. not the bugs.
And our monument we made last year got kicked over...yeah, Dont ask.


So. Dalmeny days is this weekend. Woo another excuse for retarded teenagers to get drunk. Im excited for the fireworks ( which seem to get crappier every year but hey )
and being in the parade. Im gonna be a giant brown bag for ryans milk and honey longboard "float" then a BBQ after.
I think theres bingo or something during the weekend. who knows but know this. Bingo owns you. Theres nothing better than bingo on a friday.. or saturday night in Dalmeny...nothing i tells yah.


Simpsons quote of the day

Ah weaseling out of things is what seperates us from the animals, well except the weasel of course
-Homer

Static prevails

Its felt like this weekend has totaly passed me by and I could have done something more useful of my time. not saying that my weekend wasnt fun..just not fufilled to its potential.

Seriosly. i slept in AGAIN this morning. honestly. whats wrong with me? Braden and brennan were pounding on my door and i didnt hear them. Where did my internal alarm clock go? i remember the days i would wake up 2 minutes before my alarm everyday. now i wake up 20 minutes after it goes.


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You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Dont give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

I love those lyrics. Jimmy eat world is so good.


sorry that was my bit of randomness for the day.
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On another note. theres only a few days left until summer. a few more weeks until im free of that prison for a couple months only to come back for one final year. then im done. finally done.

I can hardly wait. seriosly. im so excited for my plans for after school. So excited to get away and start a life in the real world instead of this fake highschool life im living now.

Im also really excited for this summer. I can feel great things are going to happen and i cant wait to be a part of it. YAY!


Well that was the most fluctuating in moods post iv ever had. Enjoy


Simpsons quote of the day

My Homer is not a communist. He may be a liar, a pig, an idiot, a communist, but he is not a porn star.
-Abe simpson

Sharp disaster in a fresh new coma, Was it worth it when it was over?
dashboard confessional - am i missing

before i say anything. everyone download hold me closer tiny dancer by stillwater... haha so good. i love that movie


Dreams are weird. seriosly.
I had a dream last night that i was in a part of DisneyWorld that didn't even exist, and the only way to get in was flying in.
but weirdly carrie was flying a blanket with us in it. the weird thing it wasnt like flat or anything. it sunk down as if the corners were tied up
She kept taking these sharp turns upwards and downwards and i wouldnt be holding on so i would almost fall out everytime and i got really mad at her.

Now that you all know how screwed up I am. i think il stop with that

I used to like the rain alot. i dont anymore. i dont know why. the only way i like it is if it comes with thunder or lightning. getting wet is a gross feeling. If it was pouring i wouldnt care. but my glasses get all speckaly and stuff. and its just so cold outside it feels like a wet winter. Saskatchewan has possibly the worst weather on the face of this planet

speaking of speckaly glasses. im not getting contacts till september *grrr* im angry. i haveta wait till my next eye appoinment. oh well. nothing i can do about it now

My final remark: everyone go out and buy golden oreos. SO GOOD!

dont get mad if im laughing, blame the caffiene
hot hot heat- middle of nowhere


I almost burnt my house down today doing something as innocent as cooking chicken. so heres the story

i put on some chicken in a frying pan.
* sidenote. higher than its supposed to be at*
( 4 peices= too much )
and i go get my hawk nelson cd from my room. i put it in and i get really distracted... but i wasnt dancing around and singing cause my parents WERE home... ahem... yes. they...were home...and i WASNT dancing... whered you get that crazy idea. sheesh.
ANYWAYS since i WASNT dancing and i DIDNT the music really loud i didnt hear the massive crackling the chicken was evetually making and i guess i was too blind to see the smoke bllowing out of the kitchen. then my sense of smell...apparntly the only sense working at the time kicked in. and im thinking. oh right i had chicken on...ew it doesnt smell very good. FINALLY it clicks in and im like CRAP!
so i run to the kitchen and i see a mini fire on my stove and black smoke coming from it. i didnt really know what to do so i grabbed the pan and ran it under water... haha... yeah. so needless to say i almost had some carcoal briquettes for supper but i threw them out and kept careful watch of the new batch. and i had to air out my house cause it stinks like massive amounts of smoke

yeah thats my story for the day

its pretty cool lately cause i cant hear out of my left ear. its been like that since the night before last... and i dont know what the poop is wrong with it. i think im getting old haha


simpsons quote of the day

Scully: Homer, we're going to ask you a few simple yes or no questions. Do you understand?
Homer: Yes.
(lie dectector blows up)