haha oh yah. we stayed at rae and jer's over the weekend of YC that too was sweet.  we got them a funny cake.  It was superb being there i missed them alot. and we gotta play dance dance revolution

p.s thanks rae and jer

WOO. sorry i havent updated in a while again.
YC was AMAZING!!! holy crap. all the people just gave you sooo much energy! an the speakers were amazing,they really challenged me in a few areas. boy am i ever glad i went.
the concerts were pretty sweet too. Audio Adrenaline and Pillar had to be my favorites besides United doing worship.
And schools winding down sothats exciting. Im sooo ready for school to be over.
i might go more into detail about YC but not right now. i haveta clean up
God bless

Sometimes i feel bad about not updating. then i look at kellys blog...haha

Anyways. the break is coming near and soon we will be out for a week so im getting really excited about that.
but im gonna echo Carrie saying the retreat was A-freaking-mazing. that grace topic blew me away. i was totaly expecting the last night to be mind blowing but WHAMO! the first night.
Anyways he was just talking about grace. and how mind blowing the concept is. dispite all the bagillion kinds of pain jesus was put through and yeah yeah i'v heard that before. Jesus died for us. he took all our sin. but i never really thought he did it for ME. like i dunno but its hard to picture someone dieing for me. and loving me that much. see im not used to that kinda thing..you know people dont die for me everyday so i couldnt really put it into context. but this weekend made me realize how much he loved ME. not only like...carrie. jess. lark. kim but me too. i dunno that probly sounds kinda stupid but hey.

but anyways. i was at a stereotrap concert this friday. but sadly didnt...stay long enough to see them ( carrie had to go back because she had a volleyball tourney) but thats ok. i got to see chris fher and understated has improved alot. so the time there was enjoyable.

Yeah i prayed about it and im definatly going on the phili missionstrip and nto playing soccer. im not sure about mexcio. thats far away so i have time .
so that was a load off my chest. anywho. i haveta run to youth . just thought id update

Screw decisoins why cant i do everything

i need some help deciding what i should be doing for the next now till july. because i really want to do everything , but it all contradicts with each other. and its frustrating
anyways im debating if i should try out for a city soccer team but that contradicts with youth probably. and Cit'ing
If i should go on the phili missions trip. because mexico is next year and i dont want to keep asking the church for money year after year and they'll get sick of it. yet i dont want to pass up the opertunity.
and im trying to go with my gut but its all twisted in diffrent directions.
someone help lol

"procrastination' is my favorite letter of the alphabet."


aaah the joys of procrastinating
seriously without procrastination where would we be?Probably working faster and more effificant,...But that's not the point

anywho this weeks been just keen, im on a roll., valleywides tonight so woohoo
i had a dream that i got to play guitar for it. but it was at the community church, and i had to use a really big guitar that i couldnt reach around so i couldnt play...
haha yeah
im gonna go though im hungry
God bless

I need a bed
That nobody’s slept in
I need some air
Nobody’s been breathing
I need a thought
That I can believe in
Is this fog
Or is the building really burning
I need you
Much more than ever
I’m making new friends
But none of them matter
Maybe now
We don’t fit together
But you’ve got your arms around
No one but strangers

I want to wake up
And just start running
Into a ditch
Or straight up a mountain
I want to get
Where no one been gettin’
Make it deeper than hell
Or make it higher than heaven

I need someone whose price hasn’t been met
When everybody’s disappearing
By the minute
There isn’t anyone left
I haven’t meet yet
Well I remember
When they hadn’t gotten to you yet
Half way up
And over this rainbow
I heard a shot
Fire up from a ghetto
As I drop
I didn’t think you’d follow
Just didn’t know
The sky was this shallow

I need a garden
Where nothing’s forbidden
I need an apple
That no one’s been eatin’
I want to start again
Back at the beginnin’
I had a vision
That this feeling maybe has an ending

yeah sorry its been so long. i havent really had anything to say.
things have been going pretty swell for the most part. sure there are the few downs but hey, gotta live with em
im pretty pumped for this summer. at camp for 3 weeks then on a missions trip to phili in august for 2 and a half weeks i think. So woot woot
anyways i better be heading out hey?
ill try to post more often
God bless


I feel fine
With the sun in my eyes
The wind in my hair
When I’m falling out of this sky
I’m doing better than I thought I would
But nothing’s ever as good
As when you’re on top

Its been a while


haha woah...its been...quite some time. an update on me would be rather impossible for iv been having alot of highs and lows...One thing in praticular about the lows ( and i totaly am not pointing fingers here. im just speaking my mind not trying to offend anyone)
anyways. im really frustrated with the way people have been veiwing me lately. they do it in all good fun..but it gets to you , you know?
just the way anyone mentions the word lazy or someone didnt do something or didnt do it right they always direct their attention at me..when most of the time it really isnt.
im trying really hard to change but so few people have faith in me most when i mention changing they just half laugh and look at me like they dont belive me and it sortof discourages me..
They always have a look on me like i never get anything done or if i do get it done i do it like i did it just to get it done and barely pass...
anyways sorry if this totaly confused you, just my rant for the day.

A positive out look on life for a moment please you ask?
Well. in the times that iv been good iv been glowing. for no apparent reason. i love that and iv been getting it alot more often than usual.
and i dont have to go to school tomrow. because im going to edmonton so im on a slight high today.
and lately Gods been teaching me to actually think about what im reading when i do my devos..because normally id be like WOO there im done and pick out a verse that could have meaning then go to bed.
iv been looking into them more deeper now so thats grood
anways i got to go
God bless

call me the underdog



In a world where only the strong will survive, and the fast will win, live us. The Christians. Tired, fallen, beat up, broken down, Christians. Finding the strength each morning to get up and take on another day is hard. Especially when it seems like we will never come out on top.
The song "Underdog" By Audio Adrenaline has a positive outlook on being an underdog. Im not going to deny it. I consider myself an underdog in almost anything. In the song its saying that they arent judging by how small fast tall or smart the person is. but theyre substiute (Jesus) so really im having a better outlook on that, i cant do anything about it but accept that someone out there is faster smarter ect than me and i should just stop worrying about it.
Also learning to stick with my faith, Being a christians hard in my house but theres nothing i can do but tough it out and pray for my family hoping for a change for the better in them.
anyways i better be going.
God bless

An ode to air fresheners

First off id like to say sorry about changing everything around so much. Just the last one was giving me troubles. and although this one doesnt have links yet...i guess illhave to try to figure it out.

Anyways. Sure, this might sound a little silly, but I truly believe that air fresheners are one of the greatest inventions on this earth in years. They are so convenient now too. You can plug them in anywhere. When they are all out of that smelly good stuff, just pop in a refill and you are good to go.

Why am I making such a big deal about these cool devices? Well, let me explain. If you have an animal it takes away the smell.(unless its mine) If you left your leftover lasagna on the desk it can sit there and rot for a week before you start to realize it. After a long day you can come home and open the door to the smell of a frosty winter mist instead of musty gym clothes.

That my friend, is why I am in love with air fresheners. But, we can also take this further and relate it to our every day life as a Christian. God can be the breath of fresh air in our walk with Christ. By reading the Bible, you allow yourself to wash away the sin by realizing how you are to live. By praying, you can eliminate the foul odor by asking for help.

When we have the right tools and equipment, it is easy to make even my place smell fresh and clean. When we have the right stuff in our Christian life, it makes it easier to resist the sin that will stink up the place. If you are living in the dumpster it is time to get washed off. Put a clean pair of underwear on and get out there and make a difference in the world. God Bless

Remember the words of the Lord Jesus, that He Himself said, 'It is more blessed to give than to receive Acts 20:35

Were just days away from the big day. If your house is as chaotic as my grandmas, in a day from now your living room floor will be carpeted with wrapping paper. The presents that are neatly wrapped under the Christmas tree will be handed out to whoever its for. Im totally excited for it.

Two years ago I bought my brother a new cd he really wanted for Christmas. he was happy because thats what he wanted. On the other hand, I was happy as well because I gave my brother something he really wanted. It was a joyous moment.

Our society is wrapped up in the opposite of our scripture. It is more blessed to receive that to give is the hearts of most people today. I want to introduce you to a woman who lived over 2000 years ago who understood what it meant to give. She was engaged to a carpenter. One day, the angel of the Lord appeared to her and told her that she would conceive a child. Yes, I am talking about the mother of Jesus, Marry. By her accepting the will of God on her life, she could have lost her future husband because she would be pregnant, and not by him. Yet she did it, and everything turned out peachy!

John 3:16, For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. God gave his son so that we may live. I want to look at one more giver. Hebrews 12:2, Looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Though Christ had to suffer a lot of pain, He did so willingly because He knew of the future joy it would bring. The pain our Lord suffered mended the relationship between us and the Father.

I know for a fact that giving hurts at times. But the joy your giving brings to the person you gave for should totally be a blessing to you. Im going to leave you with one challenge. As you sit around the Christmas tree opening gifts, watch your family and friends open the presents that you bought them. Check out the smile on their face. Is it not more blessed to give than to receive?

I know i probably sound like a hypocirte. i have a problem with this too. im trying also

Yeah, Obviosly i changed my blog around. If you guys come across something that doesnt work tell me, and who knows how to change the background colour...because i sure dont. if you do, just tell me in the comments thing

sorry it was so quick,
God bless

Just for Carrie



pastey

Everythings just Funk-O-Matic

So, I'm on a roll. Todays still good. wOOt. Although this week is going extremly slow. and i have two huge projects due in the next two days that i wont be done. But its all good.

Anyways.I have another youth banquet tonight. This one wont be quite as fun because i dont get to dress up funny. Speaking of that. haha i forgot to bring my camera last night..so youlll all have to suffer by not seeing me in my costume.

But i have to go.
God Bless

I want a rubber chicken for christmas.


I'v actually had a remotly good week. Busy. But good. I'm excited for tonight. It's our youth christmas party, and for some reason we have to dress up as something. so im just making a car out of a cardboard box and putting on a cape and a BK crown. I'm gonna take my didgital camera and if the software starts working. you might just get to see what the blimey im talking about. ( of course if i get the software working.. i need to find out how to put it on here, lol)
We also get to make music video type things in I.P. so im assuming that will be remotly fun.
I found a Good song to wake up to also. its called smellin' coffee. by chris rice. I love songs like that. Anyways i better get goinging.
God bless

Well today is just the dumps too
my grandpa died. and everything and everyone is just stressful and i just need to get away from it all. i can hardly think straight things are just...i dunno extremly overwhelming,
not just my grandpa..sadly thats the least of my problems its just stressful being around people that are stressed and its gonna be worse when my parents get home because my mom took this hard. and schools just frustrating
its like a line on a song how i totaly feel it says " i bet you build me up this high so i can crash a little harder" i feel everytime i get happy and good again. something just has to come along and things start slipping and i hit rock bottom..every time. and im sick of it
but my self worth is still down the drain but better than yesterday. Kim said something on haileys blog that kinda changed my veiw on things
she said she heard a quote and it was like.."Change the way you see, not the way you look."

gah sorry if this post confused you, everythings jumbled up in my head and thats kinda what came out.
i got my net back though so ill post more often
god bless

Today sucks.

sorry for not posting for a while. i dont have the internet at home at the moment
but yeah the morning went super slow. we decorated the first class and then we had math and french.. that speaks for itself and when i got home my dad was on the phone and he was crying and he got off and said my grandpa wasnt doing too good and he wouldnt last the rest of the day. on the weekend my grandpa went to the hospital because he had pnumonia then a little later he had a mini stroke. then all of a sudden all his vital organs shut down. So my parents rushed to lloyd to catch him before he..well died. and they left me and scott at home.
already i kinda felt of him as a bigger brother for the first time. he actually i dunno how to explain it but yeah. Me and him are going to set up the tree tonight and stuff so in a way its good but i just dont like seeing everyone sad so i dont wanna go up there later. but whatever.
my self worth is kinda low too.. but im in I.P and i already almost got caught...sooo i better go see yah.

Turns out Keith isnt as bad as people were saying. dirty rumors. Some people went to see him yesterday and he might have to get a skin graph but they have to wait a couple days before the swelling goes down because they say its like swollen to 2 times the size and its just his knee and the front of his leg are gross..still keep him in your prayers though
Were having a small group meeting tonight at our sponsors house so that should be fun., looking forward to tonight. and iv actually been alot better lately, im generally happier and learning to ignore my parents. I think everyones beginning to be in the christmas spirit anyways.or at least me
I better go though. i might have more later.
God bless

A couple days ago i guess a kid from my class "keith" got in a farm accident thing and his clothes got caught in a belt on a tractor and i guess his leg and hip are messed up pretty bad, and hes in the hospital for a couple weeks. he has to get some..skin transplant or plastic surgery, i dont know all the details yet but some people are going in to see him and ricks driving so ill know more soon, but until then. and i guess after. keep him in your prayers eh?
other than that im pretty excited for my birthday :D on friday, woot woot, my parents are probably getting me a guitar for christmas and my birthday.
Im really hungry and class is almost over so im gonna go
God bless