I feel like destroying something beautiful...

I DO NOT have a good feeling about my math exam at all... UGH! im so stressed out its not even funny.my english went pretty well i think but who knows. sometimes my teacher likes to mark me bad for no reason. So if i dont pass these. i dont pass the courses. *sigh*
I was going to go to a Stereotrap concert tonight. but the roads were INSANLY icey, apparantly the worst its been in forever so i stuck around and watched the Furi game.
But thats it for today.
God bless

Simpsons quote for the day:
Bart: 8 years ago? i cant remember what happend 8 minutes ago
Family:*laughing*
Bart: no its a seriouse problem!
*keeps laughing..bart joins in*
Bart: ha..haha...why are we laughing?

Here i am in this place again...

Oh boy. do i love highschool. Im sorry im such a complainer but im so stressed out right now, finals are in 3 days and we haveta write an essay before tomorow. Half of my credits are now depending on my final exam. and that pressures me a whole bunch. I said i would pick up my feet this year but did I? No... i did not. And im regretting it.
But on a happier note. I just got back from a junior high retreat ( As a sponsor ) . Despite the fact that i only got 4 hours of sleep the whole weekend. i loved it , those kids give me so much energy and i got a chance to talk with a few of them and build relationships. I love helping out with that age group as frustrating as it is, i love it. I have so much fun with them and im at the perfect age that i can still relate a bit to them but yet they have respect for me. So its absolutly awesome.
But i should go back to writing my essay.
God bless

Simpsons quote for the day

Homer: Marge, wheres that metal...deily,....that you use to...dig...food
Marge: A spoon?
Homer: Yah yah!

Just a quick note. as you can see i changed the blog a bit. but why i changed it is because the site i was hosting my picture of that road on was being stupid and deleted me off of there site. SO yah. if you find any problems ( links, being able to read) tell me

Une beaux...chocolate chaud

Dangit. if anyone knows how to add pictures onto the blog. can you tell me?

Anyways. So about this freezing weather hey? Ugh... Well there ARE some upsides to it
1.Hoar frost is beautiful
2.Lots of snow provides lots of snowmen when it gets warm.
3.Toboggaing requires snow
4.I love the smell of cold. like when someone comes in from outside and you can smell it off them
( one of my favorite smells might i add )
5.Coming in from the cold to sit by the fire with hot chocolate

Speaking of hot chocolate ( no this doesnt relate at all ) Me Carrie and Ryan went to the local grocery store ( Food town ) and we were just wired. So, we took the little kids carts and took the most nonsense things off the shelves and put it in there Ie: A big fish, spam and weird looking fruit. and rolled it on up to the till. Before she rings it in say oh no we dont want this. then bought just a pack of gum.
I dont think iv ever gotten that many weird looks consecutivly in my life. expecially when i ran into a bin after grabbing the large forzen fish from the freezer. I dont think iv ever come closer to peeing myself in my life.

But yeah. Im gonna go to bed.
God bless
Simpsons quote of the day:
Fake Marge: Oh i dont miss bart at all...
Fake Lisa:...yes i am glad he is gone
Fake Homer: * drops sandwich* B'oh!
Mr Burns: *Walks into studio* No no Homer doesnt say B'oh he says....*flips through script* D'oh!
*turns tv back on*
Fake Homer: *drops sandwich again* D'....oh

OH NO! it's old man winter!

Thats right. Saskatchewan weather is SO not cool. Whats up with this -34 weather WITHOUT the windchill. Who does this? Saskatchewanians thats who. We definatly have to be the toughest people ever. we can have + 40 summers and -50 some winters. Im proud of that haha.

I just found out the other day i have an oppertunity to go to Cuba this summer for a missions trip. it used to be Jamacia but then my aunties like " Oh yah they decided not to go to Jamacia,But the Carribians sorry" I said " WHAT! Sorry!? your kidding right"
All i haveta do is call the youth group in lloydminster and ask about it. But for some reason i really dont want to. Im really bad on phones. And i still need to think if this is what i want to with my summer. So if you guys wanna pray for me about that that would be awesome
But i have to go. God bless

Simpsons quote of the day: Remember the time your dog ate my goldfish? And you lied and said I never had goldfish. Then why did I have the bowl Bart? Why did I have the bowl? -Milhouse

Iv gone to look for America...

Oh boy. How i miss Phili... Me and Jess were just talking about it and we both said we wouldnt forget anything about it but im already starting to forget the kids names and stuff. its kind of depressing. But I really want to go back there eventually.
I miss Bill Campell alot. that guy is so passionate about everything he does and the people he works with I admire him so much.

So....its new years hey. wow this year just WHIZZED right by
Im not too big on new years resolutions cause i never keep them. but this year im trying it.So far my New years resoluations were
1. not to go on msn so much ( not working out as well as i planned but i did disconnect it upstairs)
2. read my bible more often ( Thats also not working out too well)

but it is just the first day after new years so i only hope things go better from here.


You know what is the least bit cool. We have school tomorow, WHAT IS THIS! the whole freakin system is out of order. we usally have a longer break than this. But then again. we DO have almost every second friday off so i shouldnt be complaining.
Oh man speaking of school ( sorry i cant stay on one topic for more than three seconds)
our musical practices are coming up!. im kind of excited kinda not. For those of you who dont know were doing the musical "Oklahoma" and im definatly a guy in it. but hey. at least i got a part haha.

But im going to be off
God bless

P.s im starting a new thing
Simpsons quote of the day
Sure what are big sisters for!?,...ohhh why did i say that? -Milhouse

Theres like a butt-load of gangs at this school.This one gang kept wanting me to join because I'm pretty good with a bowstaff

Ah, as you can see. i watched Napolean Dynamite a while ago. Actually the same night i had some friends over for a christmas dinner thing. It was pretty fun
but anyways. back to the movie. Everyone ( and yes me at the time ) just HATED it. i got so angry at that stupid movie because it had no freaking plot and it made me so...angry haha.
but then last night i was reading over some quotes and i just laughed SO hard. i want to watch it again. This is exactly the type of humor i appreciate and i dont know why i didnt like it in the first place. But this movie your either gonna love or hate. trust me. I personally. Love it...now

But yah. New years hey? wow....this year just WHIZZED by. 2004 was full of...losing and gaining friends. I can safely say this has been the craziest year for me. iv done so much changing. Some for good some for ..not so good. No im not a drug addict or an athiest or anything. just personality traits really. Im glad this year is over i dont want things to change one bit. But as they say. "Change is enivitable. except from a vending machine" Actually. that quotes wrong. it was probably written in the 60's when you had to use exact change in pop machines.

Things with the fam are still the same. Im still the only one going to church. Still on meds for their depression and my bro is still messed up. I guess thats one thing that doesnt change too much. Ah i guess i gotta trust in God and things will lighten up. Im glad God blessed me with the friends i have, i dont know what id do without them
I love you guys

But i gotta jet.
God bless.
Steph

sAh kettlechips. The perfect sidedish,....for REVENGE



Today was ok. had full classes and no spares. Boo. Ah well.

*tries to insert picture of sunny pararie she took but cant figure it out*
I wish it was that nice out again. its freaking cold and its not getting any warmer. You'd think id be tough by now. living in Saskatchewan of all places for 16 years of my life....well if you think that youd be wrong. Deal with it. haha

im on a simpsons kick today. iv been blurting out random quotes.
ie : Willy: now take the hoos
Nelson: the what
Willy: the hoos the hoos
Now turn on the noozl
Nelson: like this? * sprays him*
Willy: aaah! turn off the noozl
Nelson: the what
Willy: the noozl! the noozle on the hoos!

anyways lol. For those who didnt get that...i pity you
and ill leave off with that.
God bless

The frame store!? you monster!



Today wasn't as prime as the last few but thats sure hard to top. youths tonight so that should be good havent had it in a while and its small groups. Woot.

Gods definatly kicked me in the shin last night and showed me some stuff i need to improve on. So its hard. But im gonna haveta learn to trust what Hes doing. Hes God afterall. Why am i even thinking of disagreeing.

The get together last night was really good. Greg shared about how we have to surrender our whole selves to God not just one part of us. and thats really hard for some people because its admitting defeat and people with alot of pride fear that. It was really good.
Greg gave us paper and as we were singing we wrote down some things to God it was amazing
we also had a prayer and encouragment time after. we drew names from a hat and wrote them an encouragment letter that was uplifting.

Ah a musical suggestion for you guys out there who like the crazy British old type sounding bands like The Vines and The Whitestripes. Check out The Libertines. I got there CD up the bracket from a friend a while ago and it hasnt left my cd player since. If your into that kinda stuff i guess.

But thats my daily ramble for the day. hope you made some sense of it.
God bless

"Slow down. this sidewalks for regular walkin' not fancy walkin' "




WOAH! has it ever been a long time. haha 10 bucks says no one comes here to see this. ah well
Well how have i been over,...haha half a year or so. well its definatly had its ups and downs but ill focus on present tense.
This weekend has been amazing. To start off. school ended on Thursday and that very day i got free Van Halen tickets from my friends dad. and he took me. Was thatever amazing! best concert iv been to in a while. Eddie Van Halen definatly played his guitar with the side of a moving drill. SO COOL!
Then on friday we went out bowling with a bunch of people. funny story about that. i had a thing of icecream and i was licking it, not using my spoon. i go up to pay for it and i think travis is behind me so i turn around and say " now i can eat it with a spoon" and it definatly wasnt anyone i knew. got one of the weirdest looks ov gotten in a while.
Then on Saturday we went over to a friends house and played dance dance revolution. iv been getting pretty good i think.Codys sweet though.
THEN on sunday. we went to ruckers and played dance dance haha. and we went to tim hortons after. there was a kid there staring at me for quite a while then she said " can i have....a donut" it was really awkward.
Technically todays not the weekend but it was still pretty darn sweet. i had spare first thing, then planned for the rememberance day preformance then drove with the drivers ed instructor all the rest of the day ( she skipped me last year ) and later on tonight we are having a gathering at the sawatzkys and we have a mini youth type thing. worship, prayer time and encouragment letter writing. its really good just to get a few people who are seriose about God together and do that, it was really powerful and encouraging.
But yeah thats it so far. ill start blogging alot more now. but ill leave it at that
God bless. Steph

haha oh yah. we stayed at rae and jer's over the weekend of YC that too was sweet.  we got them a funny cake.  It was superb being there i missed them alot. and we gotta play dance dance revolution

p.s thanks rae and jer

WOO. sorry i havent updated in a while again.
YC was AMAZING!!! holy crap. all the people just gave you sooo much energy! an the speakers were amazing,they really challenged me in a few areas. boy am i ever glad i went.
the concerts were pretty sweet too. Audio Adrenaline and Pillar had to be my favorites besides United doing worship.
And schools winding down sothats exciting. Im sooo ready for school to be over.
i might go more into detail about YC but not right now. i haveta clean up
God bless

Sometimes i feel bad about not updating. then i look at kellys blog...haha

Anyways. the break is coming near and soon we will be out for a week so im getting really excited about that.
but im gonna echo Carrie saying the retreat was A-freaking-mazing. that grace topic blew me away. i was totaly expecting the last night to be mind blowing but WHAMO! the first night.
Anyways he was just talking about grace. and how mind blowing the concept is. dispite all the bagillion kinds of pain jesus was put through and yeah yeah i'v heard that before. Jesus died for us. he took all our sin. but i never really thought he did it for ME. like i dunno but its hard to picture someone dieing for me. and loving me that much. see im not used to that kinda thing..you know people dont die for me everyday so i couldnt really put it into context. but this weekend made me realize how much he loved ME. not only like...carrie. jess. lark. kim but me too. i dunno that probly sounds kinda stupid but hey.

but anyways. i was at a stereotrap concert this friday. but sadly didnt...stay long enough to see them ( carrie had to go back because she had a volleyball tourney) but thats ok. i got to see chris fher and understated has improved alot. so the time there was enjoyable.

Yeah i prayed about it and im definatly going on the phili missionstrip and nto playing soccer. im not sure about mexcio. thats far away so i have time .
so that was a load off my chest. anywho. i haveta run to youth . just thought id update

Screw decisoins why cant i do everything

i need some help deciding what i should be doing for the next now till july. because i really want to do everything , but it all contradicts with each other. and its frustrating
anyways im debating if i should try out for a city soccer team but that contradicts with youth probably. and Cit'ing
If i should go on the phili missions trip. because mexico is next year and i dont want to keep asking the church for money year after year and they'll get sick of it. yet i dont want to pass up the opertunity.
and im trying to go with my gut but its all twisted in diffrent directions.
someone help lol

"procrastination' is my favorite letter of the alphabet."


aaah the joys of procrastinating
seriously without procrastination where would we be?Probably working faster and more effificant,...But that's not the point

anywho this weeks been just keen, im on a roll., valleywides tonight so woohoo
i had a dream that i got to play guitar for it. but it was at the community church, and i had to use a really big guitar that i couldnt reach around so i couldnt play...
haha yeah
im gonna go though im hungry
God bless

I need a bed
That nobody’s slept in
I need some air
Nobody’s been breathing
I need a thought
That I can believe in
Is this fog
Or is the building really burning
I need you
Much more than ever
I’m making new friends
But none of them matter
Maybe now
We don’t fit together
But you’ve got your arms around
No one but strangers

I want to wake up
And just start running
Into a ditch
Or straight up a mountain
I want to get
Where no one been gettin’
Make it deeper than hell
Or make it higher than heaven

I need someone whose price hasn’t been met
When everybody’s disappearing
By the minute
There isn’t anyone left
I haven’t meet yet
Well I remember
When they hadn’t gotten to you yet
Half way up
And over this rainbow
I heard a shot
Fire up from a ghetto
As I drop
I didn’t think you’d follow
Just didn’t know
The sky was this shallow

I need a garden
Where nothing’s forbidden
I need an apple
That no one’s been eatin’
I want to start again
Back at the beginnin’
I had a vision
That this feeling maybe has an ending

yeah sorry its been so long. i havent really had anything to say.
things have been going pretty swell for the most part. sure there are the few downs but hey, gotta live with em
im pretty pumped for this summer. at camp for 3 weeks then on a missions trip to phili in august for 2 and a half weeks i think. So woot woot
anyways i better be heading out hey?
ill try to post more often
God bless


I feel fine
With the sun in my eyes
The wind in my hair
When I’m falling out of this sky
I’m doing better than I thought I would
But nothing’s ever as good
As when you’re on top

Its been a while


haha woah...its been...quite some time. an update on me would be rather impossible for iv been having alot of highs and lows...One thing in praticular about the lows ( and i totaly am not pointing fingers here. im just speaking my mind not trying to offend anyone)
anyways. im really frustrated with the way people have been veiwing me lately. they do it in all good fun..but it gets to you , you know?
just the way anyone mentions the word lazy or someone didnt do something or didnt do it right they always direct their attention at me..when most of the time it really isnt.
im trying really hard to change but so few people have faith in me most when i mention changing they just half laugh and look at me like they dont belive me and it sortof discourages me..
They always have a look on me like i never get anything done or if i do get it done i do it like i did it just to get it done and barely pass...
anyways sorry if this totaly confused you, just my rant for the day.

A positive out look on life for a moment please you ask?
Well. in the times that iv been good iv been glowing. for no apparent reason. i love that and iv been getting it alot more often than usual.
and i dont have to go to school tomrow. because im going to edmonton so im on a slight high today.
and lately Gods been teaching me to actually think about what im reading when i do my devos..because normally id be like WOO there im done and pick out a verse that could have meaning then go to bed.
iv been looking into them more deeper now so thats grood
anways i got to go
God bless